Louise Bourgeois. Ulf Küster

      1 Louise Bourgeois, 2009 (photo: Alex Van Gelder)

      Encounters and Non-Encounters

      The Art Basel fair in 2007, a moment of silence and concentration: Louise Bourgeois’s book Ode à la Bièvre. I had not counted on such an impressive work, one that would move me so greatly. It is a book consisting of a sequence of textiles sewn together to form pictures. The fabrics come from clothes worn by the artist at some point over the course of her life.

      The house of Louise Bourgeois’s parents’ family stood on the Bièvre, a small river to the south of Paris that flows into the Seine. The house was a childhood paradise for Louise and her siblings; its location direct on the water was vital for her parents who specialized in restoring tapestries. The tannic water was needed to dye and wash the wall hangings. None of this exists any longer; the Bièvre, which was already regulated by a system of dams even then, has now been completely canalized and covered over; probably only remnants of the garden still remain in existence.

      Louise Bourgeois’s Ode à la Bièvre is a moving invocation and visualization of the past along the lines of Henri Bergson: the temporal duration through which the present is founded in the past seems visible in a special way in the artist, in her memories, in the clothes she saved and turned into pictures. My enthusiasm for this work stood at the start of a learning process about her oeuvre, about Louise Bourgeois, which ultimately led to the exhibition, on the occasion of which this book is being published.

      I was able to visit Louise Bourgeois in New York in early 2008. Jerry Gorovoy, her closest assistant and confidante, received me at the entrance of the narrow row house in Chelsea where she had lived since 1962. Louise had been working all day, he told me as we crossed a narrow passageway leading to a cave-like room in the rear of the house. He pointed out a number of sheets of paper displayed all around on which the outlines of women’s bodies had been painted in red watercolors. Women with large breasts, pregnant, the embryos visible in their stomachs. The act of childbirth was also depicted; everything made an oozing, dripping impression—and I would not have been surprised had I been told that they were painted in blood. It was only then that I saw the artist; she was dressed in a gray garment and wore a kind of turban on her head. She was sitting in front of the entrance to the kitchen at a small table that was illuminated by a lamp. Brushes lay in front of her as well as a round plastic bowl in which the red paint she used was mixed.

      Louise Bourgeois seemed very small and very fragile to me. I sat opposite her at the table. The artist was not very talkative; she leaned on her elbows and held her hands against her forehead as if she were shielding her eyes from the sun, straining to take a good look at me from afar. As a consequence, I was not particularly communicative myself: I found the great presence of the person sitting opposite me quite intimidating. The usual things one says when visiting artists in their studios—mostly the utmost of platitudes—did not seem at all appropriate here. The direct intimacy of the works around me caused me to fall silent rather than animated me to converse. A spade was bluntly called a spade here: the pain, the exertion, the blood, but also the delicacy and vulnerability, everything that very probably determines the start of every life. We finally spoke a little about the Fondation Beyeler; she said that she was pleased to be able to exhibit there. We also talked about Alfred Barr, the founder of the Museum of Modern Art in New York and one of her early promoters in the United States. Didn’t she have a crush on him, Jerry asked, but Louise Bourgeois did not want to hear of such things right then and gruffly dismissed the remark with a wave of her hand.

      But it was especially Louise Bourgeois’s age that has remained in my memory: when I visited her, I of course knew that she was quite elderly, but I then had the sense of encountering someone who was quite ancient. That is not to say that I had any negative feelings about her age. No, here was someone who was profoundly old. Her hands, her face, her glance; all of them gave me the impression I was sitting opposite an immensely experienced person, a truly wise woman of the type one has come to believe exists only in fairy tales.

      Another quite amazing encounter followed in October 2010—post mortem. Jerry Gorovoy told me that a large number of handwritten sheets of paper had been found in her house, shortly before the artist’s death on May 31, 2010. It appears that they are notes she had jotted down while undergoing psychiatric treatment. It was known that she had been in psychoanalysis, and since a first cache of notes had already been discovered in 2004, it was also known that she ardently intensified her treatment and processed her emotions through such notes. What was not known, however, was that she had apparently been in therapy for a much longer time than had previously been assumed, namely, during a very intense phase from 1952 to 1966 and, with irregularity, from 1966 through 1982. The large number of notes was also surprising, involving hundreds of sheets of paper. Before her death, the artist took pleasure in having them read to her out loud.

      Over the course of a few very intense days, I was permitted to try to gain an overview of this material and also to read her diaries. The impression they left on me was quite shocking: in her notes—at times written in a wild jumble of English and French—one encounters a woman shaken by panic attacks, suffering from traumas, and having difficulties in keeping her aggressions under control. The spiraling cycle of her reproaches and self-reproaches, her entreaties and self-entreaties, her agonizing suspicions and envies, her revenge fantasies, her hate and self-hate are hard for the reader to bear. Like the heroes of ancient mythology, she seems to have been pursued by the Furies and other terrible deities:

      The beast in me which wakes me up at night, it is hate.1

      In the process, however, one must admire the courage with which she could open up to herself. And the confessional frankness and precision with which she bares her psychological abysses in these notes—and makes

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