me in the least.
It took some time to dawn upon me that the thing I had always longed for—freedom—was at last mine. I was an orphan, and practically penniless, but free. At the same time I realized the extraordinary kindness of all these good people. The vicar did his best to persuade me that his wife was in urgent need of a companion help. Our tiny local library suddenly made up its mind to have an assistant librarian. Finally, the doctor called upon me, and after making various ridiculous excuses for failing to send in a proper bill, he hummed and hawed a good deal and suddenly suggested I should marry him.
I was very much astonished. The doctor was nearer forty than thirty and a round, tubby little man. He was not at all like the hero of ‘The Perils of Pamela’, and even less like a stern and silent Rhodesian. I reflected a minute and then asked why he wanted to marry me. That seemed to fluster him a good deal, and he murmured that a wife was a great help to a general practitioner. The position seemed even more unromantic than before, and yet something in me urged towards its acceptance. Safety, that was what I was being offered. Safety—and a Comfortable Home. Thinking it over now, I believe I did the little man an injustice. He was honestly in love with me, but a mistaken delicacy prevented him from pressing his suit on those lines. Anyway, my love of romance rebelled.
‘It’s extremely kind of you,’ I said. ‘But it’s impossible. I could never marry a man unless I loved him madly.’
‘You don’t think—?’
‘No, I don’t,’ I said firmly.
He sighed.
‘But, my dear child, what do you propose to do?’
‘Have adventures and see the world,’ I replied, without the least hesitation.
‘Miss Anne, you are very much of a child still. You don’t understand—’
‘The practical difficulties? Yes, I do, doctor. I’m not a sentimental schoolgirl—I’m a hard-headed mercenary shrew! You’d know it if you married me!’
‘I wish you would reconsider—’
‘I can’t.’
He sighed again.
‘I have another proposal to make. An aunt of mine who lives in Wales is in want of a young lady to help her. How would that suit you?’
‘No, doctor, I’m going to London. If things happen anywhere, they happen in London. I shall keep my eyes open and, you’ll see, something will turn up! You’ll hear of me next in China or Timbuctoo.’
My next visitor was Mr Flemming, Papa’s London solicitor. He came down specially from town to see me. An ardent anthropologist himself, he was a great admirer of Papa’s work. He was a tall, spare man with a thin face and grey hair. He rose to meet me as I entered the room and taking both my hands in his, patted them affectionately.
‘My poor child,’ he said. ‘My poor, poor child.’
Without conscious hypocrisy, I found myself assuming the demeanour of a bereaved orphan. He hypnotized me into it. He was benignant, kind and fatherly—and without the least doubt he regarded me as a perfect fool of a girl left adrift to face an unkind world. From the first I felt that it was quite useless to try to convince him of the contrary. As things turned out, perhaps it was just as well I didn’t.
‘My dear child, do you think you can listen to me whilst I try to make a few things clear to you?’
‘Oh, yes.’
‘Your father, as you know, was a very great man. Posterity will appreciate him. But he was not a good man of business.’
I knew that quite as well, if not better than Mr Flemming, but I restrained myself from saying so. He continued: ‘I do not suppose you understand much of these matters. I will try to explain as clearly as I can.’
He explained at unnecessary length. The upshot seemed to be that I was left to face life with the sum of £87 17s. 4d. It seemed a strangely unsatisfying amount. I waited in some trepidation for what was coming next. I feared that Mr Flemming would be sure to have an aunt in Scotland who was in want of a bright young companion. Apparently, however, he hadn’t.
‘The question is,’ he went on, ‘the future. I understand you have no living relatives?’
‘I’m alone in the world,’ I said, and was struck anew by my likeness to a film heroine.
‘You have friends?’
‘Everyone has been very kind to me,’ I said gratefully.
‘Who would not be kind to one so young and charming?’ said Mr Flemming gallantly. ‘Well, well, my dear, we must see what can be done.’ He hesitated a minute, and then said: ‘Supposing—how would it be if you came to us for a time?’
I jumped at the chance. London! The place for things to happen.
‘It’s awfully kind of you,’ I said. ‘Might I really? Just while I’m looking around. I must start out to earn my living, you know?’
‘Yes, yes, my dear child. I quite understand. We will look round for something—suitable.’
I felt instictively that Mr Flemming’s ideas of ‘something suitable’ and mine were likely to be widely divergent, but it was certainly not the moment to air my views.
‘That is settled then. Why not return with me today?’
‘Oh, thank you, but will Mrs Flemming—’
‘My wife will be delighted to welcome you.’
I wonder if husbands know as much about their wives as they think they do. If I had a husband, I should hate him to bring home orphans without consulting me first.
‘We will send her a wire from the station,’ continued the lawyer.
My few personal belongings were soon packed. I contemplated my hat sadly before putting it on. It had originally been what I call a ‘Mary’ hat, meaning by that the kind of hat a housemaid ought to wear on her day out—but doesn’t! A limp thing of black straw with a suitably depressed brim. With the inspiration of genius, I had kicked it once, punched it twice, dented in the crown and affixed to it a thing like a cubist’s dream of a jazz carrot. The result had been distinctly chic. The carrot I had already removed, of course, and now I proceeded to undo the rest of my handiwork. The ‘Mary’ hat resumed its former status with an additional battered appearance which made it even more depressing than formerly. I might as well look as much like the popular conception of an orphan as possible. I was just a shade nervous of Mrs Flemming’s reception, but hoped my appearance might have a sufficiently disarming effect.
Mr Flemming was nervous too. I realized that as we went up the stairs of the tall house in a quiet Kensington square. Mrs Flemming greeted me pleasantly enough. She was a stout, placid woman of the ‘good wife and mother’ type. She took me up to a spotless chintz-hung bedroom, hoped I had everything I wanted, informed me that tea would be ready in about a quarter of an hour, and left me to my own devices.
I heard her voice, slightly raised, as she entered the drawing-room below on the first floor.
‘Well,
