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A Book About Unconscious Human Behavior
Rauf Kuliyev
© Rauf Kuliyev, 2017
ISBN 978-5-4485-4134-6
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Copyright 2017 by Rauf Kuliyev. All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, including photocopying, recording, or other electronic or mechanical methods, without the prior written permission of the publisher, except it the case of brief quotations embodied in critical reviews and certain other noncommercial uses permitted by copyright law.
If some sudden sound scared me it means I wasn’t present at that moment!
Introduction
In 2003 I moved to another country. I was 24. By that time I have graduated from Institute and spent one year in the military in my homeland. When I was driving to another state, I had no idea what was waiting for me there. I was hoping that I’d get a job in my specialty and would live like everyone else. But something went wrong.
When I arrived, I started looking for work in my profession, but all people that I was calling for help kept telling me, no. In search of work, I began traveling to other cities, but people continued to ignore me.
I was a good-looking and intelligent young man, but at that time I didn’t understand what was going on. I was too young and never expected to face such madness. It was surprising to see such human behavior. People ignored me because I was not local and had an accent. They rejected me because I was a person of another nationality. God knows, what they have in their mind. My accent has an impact on these people like an electric current. And many years later, when I became more conscious, I realized that it was the collective human ego.
In 2012 I suffered from very deep depression. That suffering was caused by my life situation I found myself in. And one day on the Internet I found an audiobook, which was called «The Power of Now.» When I started listening to it, I immediately realized the meaning of that book. At that moment I already didn’t need any explanation, because I was ready to listen to this teaching. By that time I’ve already suffered enough to realize that it was my salvation.
When I am unconscious
If the person is unconscious, it is evident from his behavior. You may have noticed how your wife or husband shake their legs while you sit around and talk. It can also happen when your partner watches TV or sits at his or her computer. You may have noticed it also in your own behavior. Many people do that without realizing it. But why this happens? Have you ever thought about it?
It’s often the case that all of a sudden you take a deep breath and then exhale. You do it as if you’re tired. In the past, when I was mainly unconscious, my father used to ask me at these moments: «What happened? Do you have any problems? Are you not good? Why are you sighing?»
I don’t know and can only guess why he asked me about it. Maybe he recognized this symptom and wanted to hear what I think about this. I used to say him, that I don’t have any problems and it was true. At that time there were no apparent life’s challenges by which I could justify these deep sighs. Nevertheless, at these moments I felt some tightness in my chest. I didn’t know where that pain came from. Periodically, many people feel it, but no one knows – what it is. It arises, you again sigh, and then it seems you feel better for some time.
While walking, I often pay attention to the faces of people who walk pass me. Watching people, I can see how they burdened by their thoughts. Some people’s faces look like as if they are in physical pain. But the thing is these people do feel pain. Only this pain is not physical, but emotional. These people are constantly in emotional pain. Eckhart Tolle calls it pain body.
You may notice that in your unconscious state, you often talk to people not looking at them. Most people talk not looking at each other. There is no direct contact so to speak. It feels as if they are talking to themselves, and it happens very often. In the process of communication, your mind draws an image of the person who is standing in the front of you. Even though this man is next to you, you are unable to find a contact with him. You talk to an image that was drawn by your mind for you. It turns out that you talk to himself.
There are times when some incomprehensible depression and sadness comes to you. And you don’t see any reason for this. You’re not hungry, and you have a roof over your head. It’s even possible that you are a relatively successful man but despite all this, you become dawn. In these moments you just want to cry. But where does this melancholy come from? No one can help you to escape this pain, even doctors. It’s a common problem, but no one knows how to deal with that. It is the area of spirituality.
I imagined him a very different person
There is a girl in my neighborhood, who was dating a guy. This guy lives in another area of the city, and we hadn’t been close, just the occasional «hello» on the street. After some time I formed some opinion of him. To be more precise, my mind did. In a short amount of time, my thinking created a mental image of this guy. Now I can’t say anything about that opinion, but clearly, it was not a good one.
One day we ran into each other on the street. And this was on the way, so I walked with him for about 100 meters and talked about something. I was very surprised when I got to know him. He was an entirely different person, in contrast to what I imagined before. My mind has drawn an entirely different picture for me, but this man was very gentle and friendly. All this time I thought I knew him, but it turned out that this was not true.
As we passed along this small distance, we talked about something. It lasted not for long, maybe a minute or two, but to get to know this guy it was enough for me. After I talked to him and saw the way he behaves, I immediately realized what kind of person he is. I suddenly realized that this is a very decent and kind man.
What I’ve noticed it’s so precious to me. After this incident, I realized how much our mind could affect the relationships between people. Our thinking creates the world that is very different from the reality we live in.
I had a chance to adopt a child
When my wife brought a baby girl from the orphanage, I almost left her. At that time I sensed much fear in me. I said to her, I couldn’t live like this, and left. My wife named the kid Sonia. At that time Sonia was only one year old.
I hadn’t a willingness to accept that child, and I thought: «How could this happen to me. I’m a healthy man, and I will have children of my own. Why do I need this child? It is not my destiny. I should have own son or daughter.» My parents were also against me accepting and bringing up that child.
It was very hard for me to take this step because something’s been holding me back. The egoistic state of consciousness that ruled my life totally. It’s the core reason why so many people live without children. Because of their beliefs, they don’t even know that they have a chance. They have such a great opportunity – to adopt a child and to raise it. But they can’t make a decision to do that.
What kept me and why I couldn’t do that first step? It’s simple – I didn’t know what love was. I didn’t even expect the love would come to my life, and therefore
