Now, before we say another single word, I need to clear something up. I did not create you and you are not answerable to me. I have my own very deep and private relationship with the supreme Creator - as do you. Whatever you believe, you believe. Whatever you don’t believe, you don’t believe. It is very important that, throughout this book, I do not influence or alter, in any way, your existing view of what some people call the ‘Divine’. I can carry on speaking to you only if you understand this. Are we clear? Good. Then, let’s get straight to business.
You want to know how you can fill your life with more of what you want - and less of what you don’t want. I am here to tell you that this is gloriously possible. And, what’s more, it’s easy.
What? No hidden drawback? No impossible price to pay? Absolutely none. I guarantee it. We are not talking here about some strange, archaic magic or some pact with a dark and dangerous power. We are simply talking about a natural facility. A process that is happening automatically, the whole time you are alive. A relationship that already exists, albeit unconsciously.
I am here to help you become just a little more aware of this natural phenomenon so that you can take full advantage of all it has to offer. You don’t question your breath. You don’t ask why it comes in and out of your body, nor do you wonder on what terms it is being granted to you. You don’t wonder about how your heart beats. You don’t ask, ‘Why have I got a brain?’ You just accept these gifts without a second thought. You use your intuition, too, whether you know it or not. Sometimes you ignore it. Sometimes you heed it. And, sometimes, you doubt its very existence.
Nevertheless, something deep within you functions like a radar screen. You get good feelings about some situations and bad ones about others. You have strong, seemingly illogical reactions to particular individuals, and though you may be able to hide this, you certainly can’t deny it.
I need to point all this out to you because I want you to understand where I fit into your world. I live somewhere in between your intuition, your instinct, your intellect, your willpower, your determination, and your luck. I am none of these things…and yet, somehow, I am all of them. I am your genie of the lamp, your wish-granting fairy, your lucky leprechaun, your magical familiar. I am the source of extra help that you have been secretly summoning ever since you were a tiny child…and I have been waiting a long time for this chance to talk to you.
I’d like to take my time over this conversation because I want to make sure that I explain myself as clearly as possible. If you are in a mellow mood, you will hear me more distinctly. If you are just in a hurry to get to the end of this book, our dialogue will be rushed and our opportunity will be wasted. So stick with me. All should become clear if you keep on reading with an open mind. And if I repeat myself from time to time, forgive me. There are some things I would rather say too often than not enough. We are, after all, talking about something pretty important here. We are discussing my ability to make your dreams come true and your ability to aid me in that process. That, surely, is worth a little of your quality time and a bit of your best concentration. So relax, please, and give me a chance to express myself and I will endeavour to give you…whatever you want!
First, with your permission, I had better give myself something: a name. As you will have noticed already, there are lots of names for the job that I do - and for the type of entity that I am. None of them, though, are quite right and some of them are very problematic. Nevertheless, I must give myself a label of some kind because I am talking to you…and you live in a world where labels are very important. So, rather reluctantly, I think from this point on, you had better call me a guardian angel.
The guardian bit isn’t, strictly speaking, accurate. I’m really much more a servant than a guardian. I’m a good servant, so I can be put to work as a guardian if required. But guardians should give guidance and provide protection, and for reasons that will become clear once we get to know each other a little better, we don’t always do that.
If I’m not necessarily much of a guardian, I am even less of an angel. I mean, if you are talking about a disembodied spirit, an excarnate being, an esoteric, multi-dimensional, non-physical yet reasonably conscious force or presence, I guess, ‘angel’ is fair comment. But I’m not really an angel in the traditional religious sense. Angels are all over the Bible. They have a long complex mythology. They play harps, dress in long white gowns and have wings. They float on clouds. Sometimes, they ‘fall’. Up is to down as north is to south as right is to wrong as angel is to devil. Well, you know how it goes on from here. Devil bad, angel good.
The trouble is, I can’t really relate to any of that stuff. You are a human. I’m sure it makes perfect sense to you. But from where I’m standing (metaphorically speaking, of course) there are no such distinctions. Where I come from, we don’t ‘do’ judgement. We don’t do past and we don’t do future, either. In my world it is always here…and it is always now. So, if you ask me something, I don’t ever sit and think, ‘Hmm, do you deserve it?’ I’m not Santa Claus. I don’t know if you’ve been good or bad - and I don’t care, either. I mean, I do know, in one way. I know how you are feeling, deep down inside. I know whether you think you have been good or bad and I can tell whether you are just justifying something or expressing a truly deep belief. It still doesn’t make any difference to me.
I’m here to do your bidding, wherever I can, whenever I can, regardless of whether you love yourself or hate yourself. My job is to get you what you want, if it is at all possible. Ah! Thank you for noticing. That’s very astute of you. You are quite correct. I did say want. I did not say need. That was deliberate. Whatever you want, I’m here to supply it. Think of me as astral room service. I’m a spiritual butler, an esoteric genie. Oh, and by the way, I’m right by your side 24/7. I don’t ever go away, I only go to sleep. The nanosecond you call for me, I wake right up.
I don’t have a worldly life of my own. I can communicate only in whispers, in dreams, or in quiet psychic moments. Yet, for all that, my sense of identity is quite strong. I know who I am, I know what I’m supposed to be doing - and I know who I’m supposed to be doing it for. I take all this very seriously. It gives me great pleasure. I feel fulfilled when I am carrying out my role, and the rest of the time I feel nothing at all.
When I’m not being called upon, I become a kind of silent witness. I just sit around, passively observing the soap opera of your life. I don’t look back, I don’t look forward, I don’t go off and play Scrabble with the other guardian angels, I just watch you on a kind of TV screen until you remember that I am available…and that you can reach out for me. Then, I do my best to fulfil whatever request you make; after which, as long as I have been reasonably successful, I just resume my position in the audience.
Infinite possibilities
Is there a limit to the number of things you can ask me for? You must be joking! Do you know why you think there has got to be a limit? Because you are a human, a mortal. Once upon a time, you didn’t exist. Not too long from now, you won’t exist again. Or, at least, not in the form you are currently taking. Something within you is infinite, but your shape, your frame, your very identity, is distinctly, definitely and sometimes rather depressingly finite.
It isn’t that way for me. I have been here forever. I’m going to stay here forever and though my relationship with you is going to change when you move on, nothing else is going to alter much.
Here in the midst of eternity and infinity there are no limits, no restrictions. Three wishes, three thousand wishes, three million billion wishes…it’s all the same to me. Really, you should feel free to use me more often. I’m not like a car that’s going to need its engine changing if you drive it too far. I’ll try my best to do anything for you. Anything you want. Any time you want me to. As often
