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All Is Not Forgotten
For my sisters and brother-Becky, Cheryl, Jennifer, and Grant
According to the Greek myth, Narcissus was a hunter who was exceptionally beautiful and proud. He was so proud, in fact, that he rejected anyone who tried to love him. Nemesis, the goddess of revenge, decided to punish Narcissus. She lured him to a pool of water where he was able to see his own reflection. He fell madly in love with himself and stared at his reflection until he died.
Contents
ONE: Cassandra Tanner—Day One of My Return
TWO: Dr. Abigail Winter, Forensic Psychologist, Federal Bureau of Investigation
NINE: Cass—Day Two of My Return
ELEVEN: Cass—Day Three of My Return
FOURTEEN: Dr. Winter—Day Four of Cass Tanner’s Return
EIGHTEEN: Dr. Winter—Day Five of Cass Tanner’s Return
TWENTY-ONE: Cass—Day Six of My Return
TWENTY-TWO: Dr. Winter—Day Seven of Cass Tanner’s Return
Cassandra Tanner—Day One of My Return
We believe what we want to believe. We believe what we need to believe. Maybe there’s no difference between wanting and needing. I don’t know. What I do know is that the truth can evade us, hiding behind our blind spots, our preconceptions, our hungry hearts that long for quiet. Still, it is always there if we open our eyes and try to see it. If we really try to see.
When my sister and I disappeared three years ago, there was nothing but blindness.
They found Emma’s car at the beach. They found her purse inside, on the driver’s seat. They found the keys in the purse. They found her shoes in the surf. Some people believed she had gone there to find a party or meet a friend who never showed. They believed that she’d gone for a swim. They believed that she’d drowned. Maybe by accident. Maybe a suicide.
Everyone believed Emma was dead.
As for me, well—it was not as simple as that.
I was fifteen when I disappeared. Emma would never have taken me to the beach with her when I was fifteen. She was a senior in high school and I was a nuisance. My purse was in the kitchen. Nothing of mine was found at the beach. None of my clothes were even missing from the house, according to my mother. And mothers know things like that. Don’t they?
But they found my hair in Emma’s car and some people clung to this, even though I had been in her car countless times. They clung to it anyway because if I had not gone to the beach with Emma, if I had not drowned in the ocean that night, maybe running in to save her, then where was I? Some people needed to believe I was dead because it was too hard to wonder.
Others were not so sure. Their minds were open to the possibility of a bizarre coincidence. One sister drowned at the beach. One sister run away, or perhaps abducted. But then . . . runaways usually pack a bag. She must have been abducted. But then . . . bad things like that didn’t happen to people like us.
It had not been an ordinary night, and this fueled the coincidence theories. My mother told them the story in
