I couldn’t disconnect, could never go with the flow. If only the flow would just come and take me, throw me up on its racing tide and carry me, swirling in white water, into the depths where real, unforced pleasure lay. I knew it existed. History showed that it was real. Why couldn’t it ever be real for me?
His head rose, his eyes peering at me from above my breasts.
‘Bloody bras,’ he muttered. ‘Whoever invented them wants shooting.’
He plucked at the underwires until I obligingly sat up and unhooked it myself. I looked down at my breasts, amazed at how much larger my nipples could grow, then turned my face back to Will when he cupped them and rubbed his thumbs around the sensitive nubs.
‘I hope it didn’t kill the moment too much,’ I said apologetically.
‘Sh, don’t be daft. The removal of the bra is a rite of passage. I’m used to it.’
‘I bet you are.’ I reached out for his T-shirt, pulling it out of his jeans waistband. He followed my cue and removed it himself, his arms stretching up away from an expanse of mouthwateringly taut chest above a flat abdomen, everything where it should be. His skin was golden and he had a tattoo on his right bicep, one of those Celtic knots encompassing the muscle.
‘I like your tattoo. Celtic blood?’
‘Nah. Everyone was having these done back then.’
He flexed his arm then pounced back down, his nose hovering millimetres above mine.
‘You don’t have any little surprises for me, then? Tattoos? Piercings?’ His fingers drifted over my nipples, my navel, towards my trousers, under the waist …
‘No, no,’ I gasped, before he came to land, palm-first, in my pubic bristles. Damn. Why had I not realised I was going to let him seduce me tonight? I squirmed, pulling my lower body away from his explorations. ‘Nothing like that.’
‘Hey, hey.’ He held up his hand, his lower lip jutting a little. ‘It’s OK if you don’t want to –’
‘I do want to. It’s just … I didn’t wax.’
‘Oh God, do you think I care about that?’ He shook his head and set to unfastening my buttons. ‘You can perm it and dye it pink for all I care.’
The trousers were yanked off, followed by my knickers.
He put his hand, sideways on, between my lips, as he gazed down at my unclothed pussy.
‘As long as it’s wet and ready for me …’ he murmured.
I hoped I was. Was I? I couldn’t really tell, too much performance anxiety muffling the sensation, warping my sensual urges.
He bent lower, pattering, remarkably delicately, on my clit with his thick, callused fingers.
‘Nice and warm,’ he breathed.
I sat up and reached for his belt, but he batted me away.
‘Hey,’ he said, slightly reproachful, and I blushed in agony at making a wrong move. ‘I want to pay attention to you first. It’s not a game of tit-for-tat. Relax.’
Relax. Yeah. Nothing like asking the impossible.
‘Relaxation doesn’t come easily to me,’ I muttered, still mortified.
‘No kidding.’ He kissed my forehead, then my lips, then he patted my cheek sympathetically. ‘Just try, eh? For me.’
I tried. I lay back and shut my eyes and channelled all my awareness towards his fingers and my clit. His touch was rough but sure, but he didn’t say anything, leaving too much silence so that the ticking of his clock and the strange gurgles of the hot-water pipes intruded. How did it feel? How would I describe it?
‘You are enjoying this, aren’t you?’ he said, sounding puzzled.
‘Yes, but … can you just fuck me?’
His fingers stopped what they were doing and he drew them out.
‘Sure,’ he said.
My eyes were still screwed shut. I heard the sound of his belt coming off, then his jeans.
‘Most girls like a bit of foreplay,’ he said.
‘I’m just … it’s been a long time. I want to remember what it feels like.’
I heard the opening and shutting of drawers then the snap of rubber.
‘OK. This is what it feels like. You could open your eyes, you know.’
‘I like to keep them shut.’
‘Didn’t realise I was that hard to look at.’
‘It’s not you. Please …’
My plea was answered by the blunt arrival of a rounded cock head between my legs. His heat and scent moved down close to me, wrapping me in them, taking me out of my isolation, making me want him now. I put my hands on his shoulders, shivering pleasurably at the way they flexed and moved underneath his skin. He was so strong. I wanted him to make this hard, make it fast, pile-drive into me, obliterate my senses.
‘Please,’ I whispered.
He thrust forward, just the forceful way I wanted it.
‘Yeah?’ he said. ‘That what you want? That good enough for you?’
‘Oh, yes. More. Please. More.’
I opened my eyes and looked at his forearms, braced either side of my shoulders. How tense and powerful they were, holding him steady while he worked me. His chest heaved up and down, brushing my nipples with each jerking motion. He was handsome and he was fucking me. I was being fucked. What did it feel like?
It felt like a series of shocks, stretching my hidden channel, a jolt jolt jolt. I looked for the sense of being overpowered, but as always, I looked too hard and couldn’t quite place it.
I tried to reach out for it.
‘I need this,’ I said.
‘Yeah,’ he agreed, panting with exertion. ‘You need this. You’ve been needing it ever since you got here. Keep those legs wide, baby, cos you’ll be getting more and more of it.’
Yes. This was working now. This was moving me towards my goal. He had been watching me, seeing the desperate slut inside the Peter Pan collars, he had known all along that what I needed was to be pinned down and given a good seeing-to. He understood what would keep me sweet and it amounted to being kept on my back with my thighs spread, taking plenty of hot, hard, grimy, sweaty fucking. He would give it to me and then he would tell his friends and they would give it to me and then …
I was almost there. I slipped my fingers between our grinding pelvises and touched the spot, my hand immediately hot and damp.
His cock was a nice one, firm and substantial, if not quite in proportion with his godlike body. My
