told him, because that’s how they were. Always honest. Always there for each other. Loving but never lovers. “Someone’s done a lot of talking out of turn followed up by incompetent research.”
“Okay.” His tone told her to get on with it.
“They say that there’ve been an unusual number of SIDS deaths in the valley over the past year….”
“That’s not true. Our educational seminars have had an impact already. The statistics are changing.”
“Yeah, they mention that.” Hannah’s voice dropped. Since shortly after her son’s death, she and Brian, a mother and a doctor, had been traveling around the state speaking to groups of expectant parents, offering two different perspectives but delivering the same message. There were ways to lessen the chances of SIDS. Easy ways. “Which is why it’s a concern to this reporter that there’s one doctor who’s seen an upswing in sudden infant deaths among his patients.”
“Me.”
“Right.”
His silence was difficult to take.
“He doesn’t name his source but he claims that he’s gone through public records to verify his facts.”
“Which are?”
“You have three-hundred percent more cases of SIDS than any other doctor in the city.”
Again, he said nothing.
“Is that true?”
“If every other doctor in the city averages one death a year, yes.”
“You’ve had four.”
“And you knew about all four of them.”
Yeah. She had. She just hadn’t realized…
“He says that all four of your patients were Hispanic babies.” Hannah could hardly hear the words she was speaking for the undertones in this conversation. If Brian…
But that was impossible. She’d known him since college. Had loved him like a brother. He’d been a great friend. And a great husband to her best friend, Cara. More, he’d helped Hannah adopt Carlos, had been her son’s doctor and watched over Carlos as diligently as if the baby was his own. His and Cara’s.
Cara. He’d taken her death hard.
Hard enough to quietly, gradually, unhinge him as the article implied?
“You know better than anyone how much time I dedicate to SIDS awareness, education, research and fund-raising.” Brian’s voice, lacking any hint of his usual charm, fell flat.
“Yeah,” she said, also remembering the months after the accident. The bitterness that had poured out of Brian in his darkest moments, usually after imbibing more alcohol than he’d had during even the most raucous college parties. His wife, the only really close female friend Hannah had ever had, was killed by an illegal immigrant—a young man who’d crossed the Arizona/Mexico border with his parents as a child, without paperwork and, therefore, without the means to take drivers’ training or get a license.
“The fund-raising is part of the problem.”
“How so?”
“Without some SIDS deaths, there’d be no funding.”
“Without SIDS, we wouldn’t need the funding.”
“The implication is that some of the funds we raise line your pockets.” Hannah didn’t believe it for a second. If for no other reason than because Brian didn’t need the money. That wasn’t the implication that bothered her.
“You know me better than that,” he said when she didn’t continue.
“I think he only put in that part to explain away the volunteer time you spend on behalf of SIDS victims. They can’t write an ugly exposé and have you coming off looking good.”
“So why write one at all?”
And here was the real problem.
“It talks about Cara and the accident.”
Hannah could tell by his silence that he was hurting. And she hurt with him. Even while looking for reassurance that he was as sane as anyone. As incapable of killing another human being as she was.
“There’s a picture of the car, a line about you screaming at the other driver while they tried to cut Cara free from the wreckage.”
“Which I don’t remember at all,” he said softly.
Brian had hit his head in the accident. His memories were select. The doctors had warned that he might never remember everything.
“And they talk about the trial….”
“And the fact that the kid wasn’t tested for drugs at the scene? That he got away with some misdemeanors and a few months in jail?” Even while she understood his anger, shared it, it scared her for a second.
Because she was stressed. Worn out. Not at her best.
“What’s this got to do with SIDS?”
“They imply that you’re trying to rid the state of immigrants because of Cara. They printed a picture of you, taken ten years ago, at that rally downtown….”
“For stricter enforcement of immigration laws, I remember. But this guy can’t actually think that because I support immigration patrols, I’d resort to murdering innocent children. I’m a pediatrician, for God’s sake!” Brian’s incredulity struck a chord in Hannah. Her momentary doubts dwindled into nothing—the result of a long day, a long week. A trial that still hadn’t ended.
“Crazy, huh?” she asked her dear friend. Cara’s death had changed Brian forever. Changed them both. But he wasn’t unstable. He wasn’t disturbed enough to take the law into his own hands, as the article implied.
“I’d say someone has way too much spare time. Does it say how I supposedly bring about these deaths? Or how rich I’m getting with the supposed kickback I’m getting from the SIDS fund-raising?”
“Of course not.”
“Did they mention Carlos?”
She blinked. And blinked again. She’d only had her sweet boy for eight short weeks, but what an impact he’d made on her heart. On her life. For eight weeks out of forty years she’d been what she’d always dreamed of being—a mother.
“No,” she said when she could speak. She’d accepted that her grief was going to be a permanent part of her. And had learned to live with it. “None of the children were named.”
“So the only mention of you was regarding the seminars?”
“Yes.”
“I should sue them.”
“All they did was state facts and then imply. You can’t
