said I’ve been trying to call you for a week. You never answer.”
“They have scallops today,” I said—his favorite. I didn’t want to tell him I’d been avoiding the phone because a credit card company or two might be wondering about payments. But his face clouded, and I knew he wouldn’t let me change the subject that easily. “Sorry I didn’t call back,” I said. “I’ve been so busy planning.”
“Planning?”
“Helloooo.” I laughed. “Our wedding.”
“Oh. Right. Um, listen—”
“Will you come to Mr. Whistle’s after lunch? We need to finalize the menu, and I want your opinion.” And your wallet.
“No. I can’t go to the caterer.”
Nuts. “Have to get back to work so soon?” Maybe I could slip his Visa from his wallet when he went to the bathroom. The scallops are spicy, and he always visited the men’s room to blow his nose after eating them. But how could I get him to leave the wallet?
“Ellie,” he said. “I’ve met someone else.”
Should I ask him to leave his wallet, so I could pay the bill? Maybe I should pretend I wanted to check he still had my picture—what?
“You what?”
“In Iowa. I met someone.”
“In Iowa you did what?”
He flushed. “I—I met someone else.”
“A woman? You met a woman?”
“We can’t get married, Elle. I’m sorry.”
A deep breath. Calm, calm. Six years is a long time, it was only natural he’d be getting cold feet. We’d laugh about this in a month. After he paid dearly.
“Of course we can still get married. Don’t be silly. It’s only one last flirtation.” The word flirtation stuck in my throat, but I refused to let the groom ruin my wedding.
Louis shook his head and mumbled.
“I understand, marriage is scary.” I patted his hand. “No matter how committed or in love two people are. So you met another woman on your trip. It’s nerves, of course, you—”
“I didn’t just meet her, Ellie.”
Something cold dripped down my spine, but I ignored it. The wedding dress had been purchased. The Wedgwood pattern (Classic Garden) chosen. “So, you slept with another woman.” I gulped my iced tea, feigning calm. “I’m extremely disappointed in you. But our time together means more than some one-night stand.”
“No. Ellie, I’m sorry, but—”
“If it makes you feel better, I’ll sleep with another woman.” A joke to lighten the mood, despite the anger I felt simmering.
“Elle. Listen to me. We didn’t just sleep together. We got married.”
“Married?!” I slammed my glass on the table. “What about Mr. Whistle?”
“And that’s when I grabbed the crème brûlée,” I tell Maya and Perfect Brad. “It was passing by on a dessert tray.”
I drain a third bourbon before Brad takes my glass and returns the bottle to the kitchen. I slobber shamelessly and tell Maya how much I love her. I yell to Brad that I love him, too.
“Is she gonna be all right?” he calls to Maya.
She tells him she’s seen me like this before, tucks me into my bed on the living room couch and follows Brad to the bedroom. I wonder if they’re going to have sex. I wonder how long it will be before anyone wants to sleep with me again.
I stare at the two towers of suitcases stacked next to me in the dark. Why don’t they make skyscrapers out of nylon, Velcro and wheels? Lightweight and durable. Suitcase apartments with zipper closets…
An hour later, I abruptly wake and lurch to the bathroom. Careful of my hair, I retch two gallons of Bloody Mary mix and Maker’s Mark, and seven little bags of honeyed peanuts. I flush as Maya knocks on the door.
“Elle? Are you okay?”
I open the door. “Better now.”
“Still a puker? Some things never change.”
Which is exactly what I’m afraid of.
Chapter 3
I wake with the Sunday edition of the Santa Barbara News-Press on my belly. I’m depressed and hungover, and unsure how to take the newspaper delivery. Helpful encouragement, or a hint that I’m not welcome for long?
The headline of the Lifestyle section is about Oprah buying a fifty-million-dollar house in Montecito, the über-rich suburb of Santa Barbara. Eager to jump into the job and apartment hunt, I make a list to evaluate my present situation:
Oprah: Recently moved to S.B.
Me: Recently moved to S.B.
Even Steven.
Oprah: Between forty-five and fifty.
Me: Twenty-six.
I’m ahead!
Oprah: Famous and beloved.
Me: Not so famous. And even my lovers don’t belove me.
Back to even?
Oprah: Offers wisdom, advice and companionship on nationally syndicated hugely successful talk show.
Me: Interviewed once on the street. Local news-woman asked what Christmas gift I’d give the world. I said, “Miatas.”
Oprah slightly ahead.
Oprah: Owns her own magazine: O. Graces cover each month in cheerful, feel-good outfit.
Me: Own many outfits.
Gap widening.
Oprah: Never lost fiancé to Iowan Floozy.
Me: Lost fiancé to Iowan Floozy.
Oprah shoots forward.
Oprah: Billionaire. Driven, smart, self-made.
Me: Credit risk. Coasting, smart, self-conscious.
Can taste Oprah’s dust in my mouth.
Oprah: On the chubbier side.
Me: The less chubby side.
Cold comfort.
Maya enters, bearing fresh coffee. “Did you see Oprah’s moving to town?”
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