is shorter than I thought. Ten bucks a night even if I don’t eat, I’m out of cash in twenty days. And if I can’t find Mountain I’ll need an alternate plan quick. Too bad I don’t have one. I wash my face and change my shirt and walk back down into town, where up close I see my first two Rastafarians, crabby black hippies playing reggae songs about Bob-eel-on on their boom boxes. Across the way is the fastidiously manicured cricket field called the Queen’s Park Cricket Grounds. A game has just ended. I catch myself disapproving of cricket, thinking that baseball is proof of evolution, and then decide to quit being a snob and learn the game, when I notice a crazy, almost naked, and extremely bowlegged man no taller than a barrel of pickles, with a machete on his hip, arguing with a taller man in blue-and-white cricket silks with a Bible clamped under his arm. I cannot make out what is being said, but the conflict appears to be over religion and has risen to such a pitch I think the men will come to blows. I move closer, my betting instincts whetted. I would definitely wager on the crazy one with the knife. But the Bible carrier is ultracalm in his cool cricket silks.
“Do you know what amen mean?” he is saying.
“I’m not out of dat,” spits the savage one.
The cricket-dressed Christian says: “It mean ‘so let it be.’”
The bandy-legged one winces at this. He seems to be made of mud. His eyes are red as a bull’s. The muscles on his right arm flex as if he is about to free his blade and lay his adversary out like a ring bologna. He growls a gutteral reply.
“Ode it now, Chollie Legion,” someone calls with an almost affectionate snicker from out of the crowd.
“Dot right. Yer too close to de church.”
Civilized Man keeps his chest thrust out, his chin high, like the posture of virile courage I have seen in history books depicting British redcoats being shot down like ducks in a gallery. The man believes his faith will triumph. How quaint he would be in America. And how probably dead in the gutter.
Nevertheless, the bowlegged one finally climbs down off his toes in a disappointing shudder of sneezes and barks, and struts away, looking very much like an offended bulldog, his machete wagging mightily, a ripple of relieved laughter and head-shaking in his wake. The Rastafarians, not deigning to acknowledge the contest, move imperiously down the road among the pink and flowery tourists. “You ah fouling up de I-lawn,” warns the reggae song ringing from their box.
I rest for a minute in the plaza, wondering which side was right. Though I admire Christianity in principle and on a number of occasions have tried to practice it, I have not trusted it fully since my first encounter with a televangelist at the age of five. I have known some real Christians, but most of them are frauds and hypocrites, spreading the gospel among the heathen while sinning opulently behind the duck blind of their pious conceit. Perhaps the bowlegged one wields the truth or is merely punished for being different or disfigured. I know that things are not always as they seem—no, let me clarify: things are often the opposite of what they originally seem.
It is evening, magical in beauty. The sun has tangled itself in the sails of the boats out in the bay. I buy a johnnycake and a semicool Old Milwaukee from the woman in the portable booth above the plaza and sit at a sticky picnic table equipped with a giant bottle of hot sauce. The johnnycakes, only 80¢, are simply fried, unleavened flour. Mosquitoes descend. I pour hot sauce all over my johnnycake. The hot sauce gives me the hiccups. A sign across the street cheerfully announces the construction of a Chase Manhattan Bank. The Rockefellers are sewing up the island. San Diego is already the sixth borough of New York City. The Caribbean will soon be the seventh. I get the feeling that the bowlegged one is fighting on the right side, a pagan, a naturalist, a purist, an environmentalist, a Rousseau, a Thoreau. Perhaps I have found an ally.
I ask the woman standing in her hot little booth about Mountain. You can hear the grease in the vat crickle and crack as the smoke pours up between the frying baskets. The sweat drips down her forehead. She shakes her head, popping out a fat bottom lip. My question not only fails to yield even scanty results, but seems to produce within my listener genuine melancholia. Perhaps Mountain has a role in the construction of that bank building across the street. I hiccup and tell myself everything will be OK. The best journeys always start out rough. Soon I will find my trail down into that gentle meadow. When Columbus came to these isles for “the riches of the Orient” half a millennium ago, he missed his mark by more than six thousand miles, yet he returned three more times before finally dying here. I will find Mountain eventually, and he will fix everything. This is a gut-felt certitude I cannot explain. It rains on me. I finish my Old Milwaukee and trudge back up the road to Gladys Hooks’ Blue Haven Inn.
14.
IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT I WAKE UP SEIZED BY asthma. I have not had an attack like this since I was a child. It feels as if an octopus has mistaken me for a mollusk. I have no medication. I walk outside in the dark and try to recover my breath on the front steps. The air is so thick and wet you have to be a fish to get the oxygen out of it. The insects scream and the frogs, like half-witted sidekicks, cheer gar – rup gar – rup. I glance to the jungle and understand that the cause of the attack is fear.
In the morning I crush my package of cigarettes into a ball and drop them with a satisfying plunk into the metal trash can. I am a natural man now with no use for dirty habits. I wander down through town again, feeling more futile and alien than ever. The sense of not belonging here is now overpowering. Around noon, I return to the bar called Harry’s, hoping to find Mountain. I take a stool next to a jewel-decked woman in a sailor suit and sneakers, who ignores me, and order a bottle of beer. A red-legged, potbellied man in a pith helmet down at the end is bragging about a thirty-pound wahoo. Through the tinted window all the sails of the boats in the bay are pink. A television is snowing green up in the corner next to the stuffed remains of an enraged-looking fish in the form of a spiked balloon. An unruly blue parrot squawks from the top of the door, through which everyone on the island appears to pass except Mountain. There are ships’ emblems and cricket plaques all over the walls. I study a framed verse from my father’s era:
I’M NOT DRUNK.
Starkle, Starkle little Twink, Who the hell you are I think I’m not as drunk as some Thinkle peep I am Besides I’ve only had ten martonis And anyway I’ve got all day Sober to Sunday up in. I fool so feelsh, I don’t know Who’s me yet But the drunker I sit here The longer I get.
I nurse two more frosty bottles of Red Stripe than I can afford, glancing at the door every forty-five seconds, certain that Mountain will appear. No one speaks to me or asks me of my whereabouts or intentions. Not a soul yet except for Alvin in his taxicab has endeavored to make me feel welcome. I’m certain it’s my mood, combined with my class, and I know I am giving off these I-don’t-belong rays. Finally I tear myself away to go sit in the plaza again under the mahogany trees, where I know Mountain has just passed after picking up supplies and has returned for the month to his tepee on the remotest part of the island. I congratulate myself because I’ve quit smoking for good, but then I feel depressed because I have $178 and I am an imbecile. I watch the ferry dock and unload its glazed cargo. The white people who live here are the least friendly of all the residents and I make it a point not to be numbered among them.
Two unmarked roads intersect the middle of town. I have time to kill but I don’t want to take the road that will return me to Gladys Hooks’ before it disappears into the forbidden forest, the Road Less Traveled for a Jolly Good Reason. Eventually I’ll have to take this road, I know, which will one day soon lead to loincloths, roasted wild piglets, and sweet, barbarous freedom. But for now I follow the crowd up the safe tourist route lined with shops, restaurants, a nightclub, a bakery, and a vulgarity called Saul Schwartz’s Rent-a-Thing, silver-and-green
