jobs.”
“Who wants to be ordinary?” was his response.
He had a point. But so did she. I miss Mother sooooo much, Diary.
Last night I dreamed about her. Again. Which is what I wanted to write about. Because I am still shaking and I do not think I shall ever sleep again.
Wednesday, 12:09 A.M.
SORRY. HAD TO put you away. Father fell off the bed and I had to wake him up, which took a while.
Where was I?
Oh, yes, the dream.
Okay, all I saw was Mother’s back. She was walking along the shore, wearing a long, brocaded gown. I shouted to her but she didn’t turn around. No! Her pace picked up … and she was headed directly into the sea. Of course I followed, screaming at the top of my lungs, trying to pull her away, but she wouldn’t even turn to face me. Next thing I knew, we were both underwater.
Diary, I was breathing—and nothing scared me! Not even the eels and jellyfish (who you know I hate with a passion)! They were tickling me like the softest feathers as I walked along the ocean bottom. I could hear a voice, coming from Mother, saying over and over …
“You have such a strong soul, my dear …”
“You have such a strong soul, my dear …”
Strong soul? Really? I giggled. It sounded like one of the scary voices Mother used when telling us ghost stories. When I finally caught up to her, I tugged on her hand. “Where are we going?” I asked.
My fingers slid away. The skin had just … slipped off like dried masking tape. I sprang back, holding it in my fingertips. I wanted to scream, but no sound came out.
Then she turned. It wasn’t Mother at all, but a haggard old witch with a mummy’s face and a smile like a stab wound. “Let me see the back of your head, my dearie,” she said, as if that made perfect sense.
I couldn’t answer. My mouth just flapped open and shut like a fish.
“Do you have it?” Her voice was growing less patient, sharper.
“Have … what?” I asked.
I backed away, shaking my head. I didn’t know what she meant. Before I could run, she grabbed my arm, turned me around, and let out a shriek …
The next thing I knew, Father was shaking me awake. His eyes were bloodshot and desperate. Osman, of course, was fast asleep. But there was someone else in the room—Father’s ugly friend, Gencer. I could recognize him even in the dark. His back is curved like an S, and one tuft of hair juts from his head like a sprig of scorched grass.
I caught my breath. That thing was not Mother … that thing was not Mother … that thing was not Mother … I repeated to myself over and over.
I thought about Mother’s smile. I thought about the way she could make Father—all of us—happy.
Then I thought about how much she disliked Gencer. How she’d banned him from our house. “What are you doing here?” I asked, gathering up my courage.
Old Gencer leaned forward, into the light that reflected off the wall from Father’s flashlight. As always, his face was twisted in agony, as if he’d bitten down on a razor blade. “Either the girl is possessed,” he said, “or she ate your cooking last night, Khalid. Heh! Now be silent, girl. How can you expect a man to think in peace …”
He turned to leave, waving a half-empty bottle, before falling down and passing out at the doorstep. And I realized he hadn’t said the word think after all, but a much uglier word that rhymes with it. And begins with dr.
Wednesday, 1:00 A.M.
RAKI.
No, whiskey.
No, raki.
Father is curled up on the floor, snoring. Each of his breaths wafts over me like a gust from a drainage pipe. I’m pretty sure it’s raki, because of the faint licorice smell.
I used to like licorice. But not anymore. I have smelled it one too many times in our shack, in the form of a foul alcoholic drink that changes Father’s personality.
Yup, still awake, Diary. Will this night ever end??? In a few hours, just after sunrise, we go to the beautiful city of Fethiye on another Great Adventure—a search for the Missing Ring of the Great King Harpagus of Lycia. Apparently it is worth gazillions.
Wait, you say, there are holes in this logic! Well, yes. First of all Harpagus was not a king, because Lycia was not its own country—part of the Persian Empire, technically. So he was technically a satrap. A lesser ruler. Second, no one knows where this ring is, or if it ever existed at all.
And that is where Safi the Magical Ferret comes in. She will find the Ring That May Not Ever Have Been, which belonged to the Guy Who Was Not a King. And we will live happily ever after.
Is this just insane? Have we heard this kind of story before?
Yes. Last month it was missing pinkie of the Statue of Zeus from Olympia. Six weeks ago it was King Tut’s mustache. Three months ago, Cleopatra’s golden toenail clippers.
All wild-goose chases.
Okay, I admit, I’m a little excited. I have never been to Fethiye but it sounds wonderful, all beaches and seaside cafés. Whoa, here come the Most-Girl thoughts, as in when Most Girls go to the beach with their fathers, they’re not robbing tombs with a smelly ferret. Of course, Osman says
Sorry, Diary, had to put you away for a few minutes. Father woke up. I think he saw you. You know what he said to me? “Aliyah, promise me you will keep your brother safe.”
I didn’t know what to say. “Of course I will,” I stammered. “Why do you—?”
“He will be a great man,” he said. “But his soul is wild, untamed, and incautious. And you will need him someday …”
I was on the verge of saying So what am I, chopped liver? when he smiled, and his eyes seemed to gain a sharp focus I hadn’t seen since Mother died.
“… Because you, my daughter,” he said, “you will save the world …”
At that last word, his eyes closed and he drifted to sleep.
I am smiling now. Sometimes Father’s dreams reveal the foolishness in his head but also the love in his heart.
I think I will sleep now, Diary.
Wednesday, 10:32 P.M.
UCCCH. SORRY, DIARY, for the coffee stain.
Yes, yes, I know, I hate coffee. But as the others yammer and argue around the fire, I need to stay awake and write down what happened today. Because I am worried about all of us.
