tall, sturdy woman with straight legs and broad hips and a little secret fat that she was very much afraid might show. She dressed mostly according to fashion, often at the expense of comfort, and on this blustery autumn day she was wearing a bright green 1930s coat, nylon stockings, and thin brown patent leather boots with platform soles. She was carrying a small square handbag with a large brass clasp slung over her left shoulder. This too was brown, as were her suede gloves, Her blonde hair had been well sprayed, and she was carefully made up.
She didn't notice him until he stopped. He leaned over and threw open the passenger door.
‘Want a lift?’ he said.
‘Yes,’ she said, a little flurried. ‘Of course. I didn't think…’
‘What didn't you think?’
‘Well, I didn't expect to get a ride. I was going to take the bus.’
‘I knew you'd be here,’ he said. ‘And it's not out of my way, as it happens. Jump in, now, look alive.’
Look alive. How many seconds did it take her to climb in and sit down beside the driver? Look alive. He drove fast, and they were quickly out of town.
She was sitting with her handbag in her lap, slightly tense, flustered perhaps, or at least somewhat surprised. Whether happily or unhappily it was impossible to say. She didn't know herself.
She looked at him from the side, but the man's attention seemed wholly concentrated on the driving.
He swung off the main road to the right, but then turned again almost immediately. The same procedure was repeated, and the road grew steadily worse. It was questionable whether it could be called a road any more or not.
‘What are you going to do?’ she said, with a frightened little giggle.
‘You'll find out.’
‘Where?’
‘Here,’ he said and braked to a stop.
Ahead of him he could see his own wheeltracks in the moss. They were not many hours old.
‘Over there,’ he said with a nod. ‘Behind the woodpile. That's a good place.’
‘Are you kidding?’
‘I never kid about things like that.’
He seemed hurt or upset by the question.
‘But my coat,’ she said.
‘Leave it here.’
‘But …’
‘There's a blanket.’
He climbed out, walked around, and held the door for her.
She accepted his help and took off the coat. Folded it neatly and placed it on the seat beside her handbag.
‘There.’
He seemed calm and collected, but he didn't take her hand as he walked slowly towards the woodpile. She followed along behind.
It was warm and sunny behind the woodpile and sheltered from the wind. The air was filled with the buzzing of flies and the fresh smell of greenery. It was still almost summer, and this summer had been the warmest in the meteorological institute's history.
It wasn't actually an ordinary woodpile but rather a stack of beech logs, cut in sections and piled about six feet high.
‘Take off your blouse.’
‘Yes,’ she said shyly.
He waited patiently while she undid the buttons.
Then he helped her off with the blouse, gingerly, without touching her body.
She was left standing with the garment in one hand, not knowing what to do with it.
He took it from her and placed it carefully over the edge of the pile of logs. An earwig zigzagged across the fabric.
She stood before him in her skirt, her breasts heavy in the skincoloured bra, her eyes on the ground, her back against the even surface of sawed timber.
The moment had come to act, and he did so with such speed and suddenness that she never had time to grasp what was happening. Her reactions had never been especially quick.
He grabbed the waistband at her navel with both hands and ripped open her skirt and her tights in a single violent motion. He was strong, and the fabric gave instantly, with a rasping snarl like the sound of old canvas being torn. The skirt fell to her calves, and he jerked her tights and panties down to her knees, then pulled up the left cup of her bra so that her breast flopped down, loose and heavy.
Only then did she raise her head and look into his eyes. Eyes that were filled with disgust, loathing, and savage delight.
The idea of screaming never had time to take shape in her mind. For that matter, it would have been pointless. The place had been chosen with care.
He raised his arms straight out and up, closed his powerful suntanned fingers around her throat, and strangled her.
The back of her head was pressed against the pile of logs, and she thought: My hair.
That was her last thought.
He held his grip on her throat a little longer than necessary.
Then he let go with his right hand and, holding her body upright with his left, he struck her as hard as he could in the groin with his right fist.
She fell to the ground and lay among the musk-madder and last year's leaves. She was essentially naked.
A rattling sound came from her throat. He knew this was normal and that she was already dead.
Death is never very pretty. In addition, she had never been pretty during her lifetime, not even when she was young.
Lying there in the forest undergrowth, she was, at best, pathetic.
He waited a minute or so until his breathing had returned to normal and his heart had stopped racing.
And then he was himself again, calm and rational.
Beyond the pile of logs was a tangle of fallen branches from the big autumn storm of 1968, and beyond that, a dense planting of spruce trees about the height of a man.
He lifted her under the arms and was disgusted by the feel of the sticky, damp stubble in her armpits against the palms of his hands.
It took some time to drag her through the almost impassable terrain of sprawling tree trunks and uptorn roots, but he saw no need to hurry. Several yards into the spruce thicket there was a marshy depression filled with muddy yellow water. He shoved her into it and tramped her limp body down into the ooze. But first he looked at her for a moment. She was still tanned from the sunny summer, but the skin on her left breast was pale and flecked with light-brown spots. As pale as death, one might say.
He
