one.
The best chance was a transplant involving either marrow or umbilical cord blood. By far the best donor of either would be a healthy sibling.
Nealie had no sibling.
Briana paused, then plunged on again. “If she has a crisis, she’ll need a donor immediately. But finding a match can take months, years. We need to find a donor before a crisis occurs.”
“I understand that,” he said. “But how much time are we talking here? It’s inevitable this disease gets worse?”
“Yes. It’s inevitable.” In her voice resignation warred with determination to fight.
Josh swallowed. “So…how long could she live?”
He heard her take a deep breath. “Without a perfect donor? The average life expectancy is—she’d live to be fifteen. Maybe longer. Maybe not. She’s—already outlived some children who’ve had it.”
A shifting blackness wavered before his eyes. He shut his eyes and began to think, God, God, God. He didn’t know if he was cursing or praying.
He said, “With a perfect donor?”
“She might get well.”
Might, he thought, pressing his eyes shut harder.
Briana said, “So I’ve thought about it, Josh. I’ve thought about all of it. The best chance for her—is for us to have another baby.”
He fought to think. “But we both carry this gene. We could have another child who’s sick.”
“No. There are ways to make sure we have one who’s healthy.”
He frowned, eyes still shut. “What do you mean?”
“Josh, I’ve talked to the doctors about it. I mean, it can be done. It’s complicated to explain. It’ll be easier to talk about it face-to-face.”
“Just tell me.”
She was silent a moment. “We don’t even have to touch each other. We can have my eggs artificially inseminated.”
His eyes snapped open in shock. “What?”
“There are tests,” she said. “The doctors can tell if there’s a healthy embryo that’s a match for Nealie. If there is, they can implant it in me—”
This was crazy, Josh thought. This was mad-scientist stuff, fantasies out of a future world.
Was she really saying they’d have a child but they wouldn’t touch? That under the cold lights of a lab, strangers would quicken the eggs into life without either of them being there? And that then tests—not nature—would decide which of these tiny entities would survive and which would not?
Something deep within him rebelled.
“You want us to play God, Briana?”
“Josh, it’s for Nealie.” Her voice broke, and with it so did his heart. There was no answering her argument.
Still, he tried. “Look, I love her, too. You know that. But have you thought about—”
“I’ve thought of nothing else.”
“Briana, let’s talk this over—”
“I can’t talk much longer right now or people will get suspicious. Rupert’s already banging on the door.”
Josh could hear him. Larry’s boys were little louts, and they were the plague of Nealie’s life.
Oh, God. Nealie’s life. Nealie’s life.
“Aunt Briana, come out!” It was Rupert’s voice. “Neville made the cat throw up!”
Josh furrowed his brow in concentration, as he tried to block out the kid. He said, “Briana, tell me one thing. Does Nealie know how sick she is? Does she suspect?”
“No. I told her all the testing was for allergies. I told everyone that. I’ve lied to the whole world. Only you know the truth. Oh, Josh, please come home. Together maybe we can save her.”
“I’ll be there as soon as I can.”
Rupert was banging louder. Josh heard Briana shush him. “Nealie’s asleep,” she told the boy. “Be quiet. You’ll wake her.”
“Nealie’s a wimp,” Rupert shouted. “I didn’t mean to give her a nosebleed. I said I was sorry.”
Alarm and anger rose in Josh. “A nosebleed?”
“She gets them all the time,” Briana said wearily. “I made her lie on the couch with a cold cloth on her face. She fell asleep. I put her to bed. She has no energy lately.” To Rupert, she said, “Rupert, stop that. If you wake Nealie, you’ll be in real trouble.” To Josh she said, “I’ve got to go. And I’ve got to pull myself together before I face them. I’ve been dreading telling you this. I’m sorry, Josh. So sorry.”
“Tell Nealie I love her and that I’m coming home. I’ll let you know when as soon as I get a flight.”
“Thank you. Josh. Goodbye.”
She sounded almost humble—his proud, cheerful, independent Briana.
The line went dead. He sat for a moment, then hung up the phone on its gold-colored hook.
His head swam with sorrow and shock. He did something he had not done since he was eleven years old. He put his face into his hands and wept.
RUPERT WAS JOINED at the door by his brother Neville, who began to kick. “Aunt Bri, Aunt Bri,” Neville called. “You’ve gotta come. The cat threw up. Mama tried to clean it up, but she started to get sick. And Marsh spilled root beer on Grandpa’s pants.”
Briana was torn between laughter and weeping in despair. It was all surreal—the downstairs decked with balloons and streamers, her rambunctious nephews, the tormented cat, the nauseated sister-in-law, her father with his pants full of root beer.
She fought the hysteria and dashed the tears from her eyes. She forced her mouth to stop quivering and by sheer willpower composed herself.
Josh was coming home. That’s what was important. He would help her face the tumultuous emotions, the terrifying decisions about Nealie. As for her feelings about Josh, she could not worry about that now.
She swung open the door and looked at her two oldest nephews. “Rupert,” she said calmly, “you are never to batter this door again. Or any door in this house. Or anything else.”
Rupert looked hangdog. He often disobeyed his mother, but Briana had a steely moral force that could wither him when she got him eye to eye.
“I thought you’d want to know about the cat,” he said sulkily.
“I got the message the first time you said it.” She swung to face the other boy. “The same
