like to change that.
The wind gusted around them, sending puffs of smoke from the fireplace once in a while. They sat on the blanket and ate Lorelei’s beautiful sandwiches, roast beef and horseradish mayonnaise with sharp cheddar cheese on a hard roll, egg salad with dill on a thick rye. A bag of potato chips, two bottles of iced tea. And, for dessert, chocolate cookies, thick and dark and chewy. Faith closed her eyes as she chewed. “These are proof of a loving God,” she murmured. “Lorelei should be canonized.”
“She didn’t make them,” Levi said.
Faith opened her eyes. “Really? Oh! Are these the source of that heavenly smell at three o’clock in the morning?”
He nodded, looking, for the life of her, a little shy.
“Good job, big man,” she said. “I should tell Barb at the newspaper. ‘Chief Cooper’s Baking Secrets’ or ‘War Hero Secretly a Midnight Baker.’”
“Don’t you dare.” There was that almost-smile again.
“Why? The townspeople would love it. Don’t hide your light under a bushel, Chief Cooper.”
“Hush, woman. Close your eyes and eat another. You’re fun to watch.”
She obeyed, trying not to think of her thighs and the effect these cookies would have. It was worth it. When she opened her eyes, Levi was looking at her, his face solemn, two lines running between his brows. His eyes looked gray today, same color as the sky.
“I’m sorry I called you a tease that day,” he said. “You weren’t.”
The memory knifed into her heart. That day, when he’d given her the kiss that had so stunned her, not far from this very place. She swallowed the cookie in a lump. “That was a long time ago, Levi.”
“I know. But I’ve been thinking about it, a little. Thought about it a few times over the years.” He looked at the fire. “It wasn’t my finest moment. I’d just kissed my best friend’s girlfriend, and I wanted someone to blame. I’m sorry.”
“Thanks,” she whispered. The fire popped and hissed. Shoot. Now or never. “Levi, is this a relationship, or are we just fooling around?”
Because if it wasn’t a relationship, she’d better lasso her heart and bring it back to the stable, since it was obvious that thing was galloping away.
He looked at her with some difficulty, it seemed. “I don’t know. Are you staying in town?”
“I...I have to take care of some things first. I want to stay, though.” More than ever now.
He hesitated, then nodded.
“So we’re...friends?”
“Is that what you want us to be? Friends?” He wadded up the paper bag and tossed it into the fire.
“I’ve wanted to be your friend my whole life,” she said, her throat abruptly tight.
He looked at her sharply. “Why?” he asked. His face was in its familiar solemn lines, forehead slightly crinkled with a question.
“I don’t know. You were... I don’t know.” And she didn’t. He’d been one of the cool kids, of course, but there was something more to him. Something different. “There was one time, when I had a seizure. Maybe third grade? Yeah, because Mrs. G. was our teacher.” Levi nodded. “And what I remember when I came out of it was you, telling people to back off and stop staring.” She looked at him, and his face was gentle now. “Do you remember that?”
“No.”
“Well. I do, obviously. But other than that, and especially when I was with Jeremy, you never seemed to like me.”
She looked down at the string edges of the blanket. Quite fascinating. Faith braided three of them together, then found her hand covered by Levi’s.
“I like you now, Faith.”
She looked up to see him smiling, just a little. “That’s good.”
“Feels like we’re more than friends, though.”
There was the rush of golden heat, fast and heavy. She nodded.
He pulled her against him, and the nice clean smell of him, soap and smoke, made her chest ache. There was a little bit of dried leaf on his flannel shirt, and she brushed it off, her heart feeling fragile and new in her chest.
Then she kissed him. His mouth was firm and smooth and so, so good at what it was doing, and that golden heat filled her, making her warm and slow and lazy with its sweetness.
And heck, there was a fire and a blanket and a beautiful man, and now rain pattered on the clear roof of the barn, and if there was a better place to make love, Faith didn’t know what it was.
A good while later, the patter had turned into a steady rush, blowing the last of the leaves onto the roof. Blue lay on his back in front of the fire, dreaming of being a ball boy at the U.S. Open, his paws twitching. Faith was against Levi’s side, her head on his shoulder, warm and sleepy from the heat of the fire and her man’s warmth.
Yep. Her man. That worked.
“Can I ask you a question?” Levi’s voice was just a rumble in his chest.
“Sure.”
“What’s it like to have a seizure? You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to,” he added.
“No, it’s okay.” She tucked a bit of hair behind her ear. The question was familiar. “At first, I have what they call the aura. I get worried, like something really bad’s about to happen. Doomsday bad. I can feel my body doing things—I know I pull at my shirt, and I feel almost panicky, and then I just...check out.”
“What’s that like?”
“I don’t know. It’s just...empty.” She ran her hand over his smooth skin, feeling the muscles underneath. “What’s funny is how people act afterward. Or during, I guess, but I only see them afterward.”
“How do they act?” he asked.
“It depends on the person. You were pretty good. Kind of perfect, actually.”
“I get that a lot.” There was that lovely smile in his voice.
“I’m sure. Especially from the over-eighty crowd.”
“Correct. How do other people act?”
She thought a minute. “Well, when we were little, Jack would stay away from me, like I was about to burst into flames. Except, of course, for the time he filmed me for a Boy Scout badge or something. My mother almost killed him. Pru was pretty good. Honor...it’s funny, Honor would cry.”
“Honor cries?”
“I know.” She smiled.
“How about your parents?” he asked.
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