elevator to the lobby, declined the doorman’s offer of a taxi and headed south at a brisk walk.
It was a bright summer morning but he’d have walked even if the city was gripped by a January blizzard.
He’d spent most of the night on his terrace, looking blindly into the darkness of Central Park while he told himself what he was going to do this morning was a modern version of an appointment with destiny.
A sly little voice inside him kept describing it in much more earthy terms.
Any way he looked at it, he was about to have sex with a test tube.
He was sure he’d made the right decision but it still made him wince. A healthy man in the prime of his life, a man who’d never met a woman who hadn’t smiled and made it clear she was interested in more than conversation, could not possibly be in any great rush to spill his seed in the romantic confines of a doctor’s office.
Saturday, he’d kept busy reading fifty pages of legalese that spelled out how his “donation” would be stored and how it could be used. He’d gone to bed with all that mumbo-jumbo dancing through his head and awakened to more of the same on Sunday.
Then he ran out of reading material.
Maybe that was why he’d had those dreams Sunday night.
About the blonde. Madison Whitney. The dreams had been intense, erotic … and infuriating. He was a grown man, damn it, not a horny teenage kid.
If he hadn’t awakened just in time, he’d have found himself in a dress rehearsal for what he was scheduled to do this morning.
The only good that had come out of the Friday night disaster was that it had reminded him that he was a prince with an obligation to find a wife, not a man on the hunt for a night’s pleasure.
Still, he hesitated once he reached his doctor’s office.
Don’t be an ass, he told himself, and he raised his chin, tightened his jaw and rang the bell.
The procedure was over in minutes.
Tariq signed some papers, stepped into a small room with a glass vial in his hand, turned down an offer of Playmate magazine with the arrogant assurance of a man who knows the power of his own sexuality.
And his imagination failed him. Nothing happened until he closed his eyes, remembered the woman, remembered her taste, her scent, her silky skin.
Then, only then, he’d done what he had to do.
Now, he could put the humiliation of the morning, his fury at the woman, behind him.
Madison usually began her days calmly.
Serenely, Barb had once said, with a roll of the eyes. Well, why not? Planning ahead, doing things carefully, was how Madison had learned to overcome the uncertainties of a chaotic childhood.
Her automatic coffeemaker was programmed to turn on at six, her alarm at six-oh-five. By six-fifteen, she was always in the kitchen, showered, dressed, ready for her first jolt of caffeine. Ten minutes after that, hair blow-dried into submission, makeup on, she was ready to face the world.
Monday morning, none of that happened.
The coffee hadn’t brewed. Her hair dryer died when she plugged it in. There were no clean panty hose in the drawer. Even her mascara failed her, depositing a smear of black on the lashes of one eye and nothing at all on the other.
Her fault. All of it.
The coffeepot made a carafe of boiled water, not coffee. The dryer had been at death’s door last time she’d used it. Her panty hose were all in the hamper, the mascara had produced a pathetic dab of color because it was empty. Most unbelievable of all, she’d overslept because she’d forgotten—forgotten, for the first time in her life!—to set the alarm.
She’d intended to deal with all that Saturday and Sunday. Go to Zabar’s for coffee, to Macy’s for a new hair dryer, to Saks for mascara, wash her lingerie.
Instead she’d spent both days feverishly doing stuff that didn’t need doing.
She’d cleaned cupboards and closets, floors and furniture until someone from the Department of Health could have done a white-glove inspection and come away smiling and at night, she’d watched reruns of Sex and the City for the hundredth time, made low-cal, low-fat, low-taste microwave popcorn and stuffed her face with it even though she wasn’t hungry.
“And for what reason?” she demanded of her reflection in the bathroom mirror Monday morning.
Because she couldn’t get the SOB, the stranger who’d almost seduced her, out of her head. Because even the memory of what had happened was humiliating.
Because she knew, deep down, that blaming him for everything was the worst kind of lie.
He hadn’t tossed her over his shoulder and carried her away.
He hadn’t lured her into that summerhouse.
He’d kissed her, was what he’d done, and her libido had done the rest, turning her into a creature she didn’t know, a woman who had let a stranger do things to her that still made her blush.
That still made her bones melt, just remembering.
Damn it.
What was the sense in rehashing it all? She’d done what she’d done. It was over.
A deep breath. Another look in the mirror. A lift of the chin.
“Stop whining,” Madison told herself briskly.
Who cared about Friday night? Today was Monday. The Monday. It was the first day of the rest of her life, the day she hoped to conceive her baby, and if that made her sound like a greeting card, so what?
It was the truth.
Madison’s expression softened.
Her baby. A child to love. To nurture. That was all that mattered. Friday night, the man—not worth another second. What mattered was her appointment this afternoon and the sweet, bright promise of pregnancy. She turned her back on her reflection, went to the closet and flung the door open.
It was just that it was crazy that she, of all people, could have been swept off her feet not by a prince, as Barb had teasingly promised, but by the kind of sleazy Don Juans who’d tromped in and out of her mother’s life.
He’d been good-looking but Don Juans always were. Tall. Dark. Drop-dead gorgeous. And with an aura, a hint of something in his bearing, in his speech that hinted at the exotic.
Madison snorted.
He’d probably been born in Brooklyn—and why was she wasting time on him again?
Forget the panty hose. The smooth, tamed hair. Coffee? There was a Starbucks on the corner. Concentrate on the present, not the past.
She dressed quickly. Comfortably. A white blouse. A pale pink skirt. White sling-backs with a comfortable heel, no mascara because
