I tried to hold you. I tried so hard.
Rampart, New York
The calm clip-clop of a passing Amish horse and buggy carried through the window of the Rampart Police Department, belying Kate Page’s unease.
After her plane had landed in Syracuse, she’d made the two-hour drive in a rented Chevrolet Cruze. Mile after mile her knuckles were white on the wheel, until she’d reached the edge of town where Rampart’s sign welcomed her to the Home of the Battle of the High School Bands.
Following the GPS, she went straight downtown to the limestone building housing police headquarters. A receptionist directed her to a creaky hardback bench where she waited for Detective Brennan. Still anxious from her trip, Kate checked local coverage on her tablet.
Mystery Surrounds Double Death. The headline in the Rampart Examiner stretched over a sweeping aerial photo of the crime scene. The charred blotch of the obliterated barn was branded on the lush woods like a wound.
Is this where my sister died?
For much of her life Kate had cleaved to the remote hope Vanessa was alive, and, now, to learn that she might’ve died here was overwhelming. But Kate held on to her composure by concentrating on news reports.
A new one posted on a radio station’s site said police still hadn’t identified the victims. However, sources had told the station that the male was believed to be Carl Nelson, an IT technician at the MRKT DataFlow Call Center. They described him as a shy, “near-reclusive” man, whose truck was found near the burial grounds, the site of the fire. Mystery continued to swirl around rumors that a note was left in the apparent murder-suicide. Police remained tight-lipped about the investigation, the report said.
Kate saved the story with others she’d collected.
As she wondered about Carl Nelson, she looked up when someone said her name.
Two men in sport jackets stood before her.
“I’m Ed Brennan, this is Paul Dickson. We appreciate you coming all this way. How was your trip?”
“It was all right.”
“Good. We’ll go in here to talk.”
They went into a windowless meeting room, where Brennan offered Kate something to drink.
“Thank you, water would be fine.”
“I understand you’re a reporter in New York with Newslead, the wire service.”
“Yes.”
A shadow of concern passed over Brennan’s face and Dickson shot him a subtle glance.
“But you’re not here to report on this case. This is a personal matter.”
“Yes.”
“What we discuss here must remain confidential, do you understand?”
“I do.”
“Good.”
Brennan positioned a chair for Kate and gave her a bottle of water. She sipped some, reached into her bag for the angel necklace and put it on the table. Brennan looked at it then opened his notebook to a clean page.
“For our benefit, Kate, would you please give us an overview of your family’s background?”
Kate recounted the history of the necklace again.
“Would you be willing to volunteer your necklace for us to process for comparison?” Brennan asked.
“Of course. May I see the one you found?”
Brennan was silent for a moment.
“No, I’m sorry, that’s physical evidence. But we’ll show you this.”
He slid a file folder to Kate. She caught her breath at the crisp, enlarged color photograph of an angel necklace. It was battered; the engraving was illegible. It was blackened, set against a white backdrop, next to an evidence tag and photo-document ruler to show scale.
“They are similar,” Brennan said. “We’ll pass yours to the forensic unit.”
Absorbing the charred necklace in the picture, Kate’s thoughts rocketed to Vanessa, the barn fire, the agony she must’ve suffered.
“I just don’t understand,” Kate said.
“What?”
She lifted her head from the photo. “If this is my sister’s necklace, then how did it get from our accident in Canada to here?”
“If it’s hers, there’re a number of possibilities. It could’ve washed onto the shore. An animal could have carried it off. Someone may have found it. Then, over the years, it made its way through flea markets, yard sales and jewelry stores, pawn shops, who knows, back into the world, as it were. We have a lot of theories and questions.”
“So you’re discounting the possibility that my sister survived and somehow turned up here?”
“We haven’t confirmed anything, so we’re not discounting anything. In fact we’ve made some inquiries with the Royal Canadian Mounted Police.”
“Into my sister’s case?”
“Listen, we’d rather not go into detail, but there are other aspects.”
“What aspects? I’d like to know.”
“I know how this sounds but we can’t discuss our investigation.”
“I read that there was a suicide note—what did it say?”
“We’d rather not discuss any other aspects.”
“Well, I’d like to see her, the woman who was killed.”
Brennan exchanged a look with Dickson and shifted in his chair.
“Given the condition, I don’t think it would be beneficial.”
Kate sat there not knowing what to think or say as a long silence passed.
“We’re doing everything we can to confirm identification,” Brennan finally said. “I hate to ask this, but is there any chance that you would still have your sister’s hairbrush or access to her dental records?”
Kate stared at him.
“No, I don’t.”
Kate looked away for a moment.
“Kate, would you be willing to volunteer a DNA sample?”
“Of course, if it helps.”
“It
