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with unseeing eyes at the shadowy little front yard. Morton might be there. She might see him. But—was it womanly to go there—for that? There were other reasons, surely. She had longed for freedom, for a chance to grow, to do something in life—something great and beautiful! Perhaps this was the opening of the gate, the opportunity of a lifetime.

      "You folks are so strong on duty," the doctor was saying, "Why can't you see a real duty in this? I tell you, the place is full of men that need mothering, and sistering—good honest sweethearting and marrying, too. Come on, Rella. Do bigger work than you've ever done yet—and, as I said, bring both these nice girls with you. What do you say, Miss Lane?"

      Vivian turned to her, her fine face flushed with hope, yet with a small Greek fret on the broad forehead.

      "I'd like to, very much, Dr. Bellair—on some accounts. But——" She could not quite voice her dim objections, her obscure withdrawals; and so fell back on the excuse of childhood—"I'm sure Mother wouldn't let me."

      Dr. Bellair smiled broadly.

      "Aren't you over twenty-one?" she asked.

      "I'm twenty-five," the girl replied, with proud acceptance of a life long done—as one who owned to ninety-seven.

      "And self-supporting?" pursued the doctor.

      Vivian flushed.

      "No—not yet," she answered; "but I mean to be."

      "Exactly! Now's your chance. Break away now, my dear, and come West. You can get work—start a kindergarten, or something. I know you love children."

      The girl's heart rose within her in a great throb of hope.

      "Oh—if I could!" she exclaimed, and even as she said it, rose half-conscious memories of the low, sweet tones of Mrs. St. Cloud. "It is a woman's place to wait—and to endure."

      She heard a step on the walk outside—looked out.

      "Why, here is Mrs. St. Cloud!" she cried.

      "Guess I'll clear out," said the doctor, as Susie ran to the door. She was shy, socially.

      "Nonsense, Jane," said her hostess, whispering. "Mrs. St. Cloud is no stranger. She's Mrs. Williams' sister—been here for years."

      She came in at the word, her head and shoulders wreathed in a pearl gray shining veil, her soft long robe held up.

      "I saw your light, Miss Elder, and thought I'd stop in for a moment. Good evening, Mrs. Pettigrew—and Miss Susie. Ah! Vivian!"

      "This is my friend, Dr. Bellair—Mrs. St. Cloud," Miss Elder was saying. But Dr. Bellair bowed a little stiffly, not coming forward.

      "I've met Mrs. St. Cloud before, I think—when she was 'Mrs. James.'"

      The lady's face grew sad.

      "Ah, you knew my first husband! I lost him—many years ago—typhoid fever."

      "I think I heard," said the doctor. And then, feeling that some expression of sympathy was called for, she added, "Too bad."

      Not all Miss Elder's gentle hospitality, Mrs. Pettigrew's bright-eyed interest, Susie's efforts at polite attention, and Vivian's visible sympathy could compensate Mrs. St. Cloud for one inimical presence.

      "You must have been a mere girl in those days," she said sweetly. "What a lovely little town it was—under the big trees."

      "It certainly was," the doctor answered dryly.

      "There is such a fine atmosphere in a college town, I think," pursued the lady. "Especially in a co-educational town—don't you think so?"

      Vivian was a little surprised. She had had an idea that her admired friend did not approve of co-education. She must have been mistaken.

      "Such a world of old memories as you call up, Dr. Bellair," their visitor pursued. "Those quiet, fruitful days! You remember Dr. Black's lectures? Of course you do, better than I. What a fine man he was! And the beautiful music club we had one Winter—and my little private dancing class—do you remember that? Such nice boys, Miss Elder! I used to call them my acolytes."

      Susie gave a little gulp, and coughed to cover it.

      "I guess you'll have to excuse me, ladies," said Dr. Bellair. "Good-night." And she walked upstairs.

      Vivian's face flushed and paled and flushed again. A cold pain was trying to enter her heart, and she was trying to keep it out. Her grandmother glanced sharply from one face to the other.

      "Glad to've met you, Mrs. St. Cloud," she said, bobbing up with decision. "Good-night, Rella—and Susie. Come on child. It's a wonder your mother hasn't sent after us."

      For once Vivian was glad to go.

      "That's a good scheme of Jane Bellair's, don't you think so?" asked the old lady as they shut the gate behind them.

      "I—why yes—I don't see why not."

      Vivian was still dizzy with the blow to her heart's idol. All the soft, still dream-world she had so labored to keep pure and beautiful seemed to shake and waver swimmingly. She could not return to it. The flat white face of her home loomed before her, square, hard, hideously unsympathetic—

      "Grandma," said she, stopping that lady suddenly and laying a pleading hand on her arm, "Grandma, I believe I'll go."

      Mrs. Pettigrew nodded decisively.

      "I thought you would," she said.

      "Do you blame me, Grandma?"

      "Not a mite, child. Not a mite. But I'd sleep on it, if I were you."

      And Vivian slept on it—so far as she slept at all.

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      Sometimes a plant in its own habitat

       Is overcrowded, starved, oppressed and daunted;

       A palely feeble thing; yet rises quickly,

       Growing in height and vigor, blooming thickly,

       When far transplanted.

      The days between Vivian's decision and her departure were harder than she had foreseen. It took some courage to make the choice. Had she been alone, independent, quite free to change, the move would have been difficult enough; but to make her plan and hold to it in the face of a disapproving town, and the definite opposition of her parents, was a heavy undertaking.

      By habit she would have turned to Mrs. St. Cloud for advice; but between her and that lady now rose the vague image of a young boy, dead,—she could never feel the same to her again.

      Dr. Bellair proved a tower of strength. "My dear girl," she

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