Chapter 1 Shed light unto me and before me!!! Look at this title!
tired of struggling with the name. Prove me wrong/ I don't want to go on what all has been calling God but what we supposed to call him. I can she proof and I want to compare. I got the pleasure of seeing all the guy as they stood out across from the gas station. having a meeting. When I say pleasure on this note it's not in good way.
i asked God to reveal all that's involved to me. Shower me with the faces of all, let them rain upon me so that I am no longer blinded by them. this whole group set before as we went to get gas. The man on the second floor came right in with his dog and I opened the door. others has been revealed. Perry Wallace is in the mix still and stop defending him , he get no props here. I don't care how yall think I feel so let it be know This man id the from right from the devil. To hell with all thoughts any one has of me not letting him go or he left me. you crazy right with him. I left him and didn't look back. no matter how many times he tried ti call. it's no turning back once you got out of hell. I ran for my life and was trying to run before any of this took place. Now you all have clear facts!!! He had on a burgundy hoodie, the female was in front of the store with a green sweat suite on. hair brown and blind , light brown skin chick who was shocked to see my face. all she could say say was oh F. and got out of doge but too late I seen her. the same one I seen sitting outside of louis house. The same one from guess where, I don't even have to tall yall. Read book one. Smh her side kick stood on the other side of the door. I don't understand why all don't get it , We are being attacked ever night!!! I may be wrong and some players as some may be set up as these traffickers attend to do often, They make it look like another is doing it to keep the heat off them. I seen them frame many people around me for me to get them away from me and through blame. Remember that!! many thing may be wrongly called about, a lot that's why I write for other to figure this out with me. I spoke on Harvey Collins in the first book but I'll give a reminder as it was brought back to my attention after his sister tried to reach me last night. Harver Collins brother was good friends with me. My cousin killed him for no reason , no reason at all. call me a snitch but I told on my cousin , I was scared and in shock that my friend was gone. It's been over 30 years but it still seem hard to talk about R.I.P. Howard. His family never came to ask nothing about what happened to him, or even to find out why. They came to snatch everything he owned with not one question. So I'm very clueless to why the hell do they chase me around now. Clueless to why his brother hate me and has been after me for so long. So what we call this a love hate thing. one brother cared and the other hate they were twins. Could Howard have been angered of the fact that he let my cousin get away and gave him money for the cab to get away and I still told. Or is it the fact of watching Edell take the gun but no one asked about it, cause you darn right I would have told that too. My friend lost his life is what all fails to understand. I would have told every detail of it step by step. It was wrong and it was for no reason that man lost his his life. If questions are asked to this very day I would still tell his story. they all hang together.. it's a pack of them . Another friend killed in her sleep. they said I'm not gonna have no one. God wanted his angel that's all. Listen to what the Bishop said About my friends and family. I don't forget no words. R>I>P. Wanda.
I was tied and dragged again in my sleep last night. I worry bad about my girls. as each one are targets, I worry about my little sister. I worry about all family members and close friends that are linked to me. I don't know what I did so wrong to one to bring them to this point. They know where I am but refuse to come talk to me about what I did and how it can be corrected. Only four names keep ringing in my head. Darryl Gordon, Meat ball, my nephew, and Jeff. but Harvey Collins is sticking there. He took a picture of himself on our block and made sure it got to me to see it. I was told by doctors to watch out for him. It's time to go, and just leave all behind. They have scattered all my friends and family away from me with threats to kill or bring harm to all they know. So I am clear and very correct on that.
The only way they could have gotten to the Bishop and the other pastors is when I started following him over 30 years ago. Someone thinks the worse of me and I don't know why. I can only think of my mouth and temper that I have a problem with controlling I have changed all but that. I don't cuss no more but the mouth is still crazy as the sward still dwells inside. I think of the last bad fight I had but they were all bad . The fights I should have backed down from but my temper didn't allow me too. I have a mouth and a temper that moves faster than my brain. By the time the brain catch up things are said and done. Now the brain is left only saying what the hell have you done. I realize it's a big problem in my life and I'm trying hard to change it. I have ignored so much but somethings come across that's hard to ignore, some things you really have to defend yourself on. Once I find out who this is , I don't even think I can remain angry at them because i realize now that I must have done or said something that hurt them deeply. I now would just like the chance to apologize to them. Hug them and pray for them and with them.. This has to be bone breaking deep, earth shaking deep, world crashing deep that brought them to this amount of anger. I know I can't change things but maybe we can heal together. I don't just feel my pain but I feel the pain of another now..
Dear God, I have done something awful to someone so bad that my heart cries out to them now. I ask that you bring us together face to face , bring us to know each other , to forgive each other allowing us to pray for each other . I pray for a new found friendship with this person I ask that you heal the heart of this person , cleans the mind of the hate they feel for me. Remove every womb that I have placed in they heart and soul. Allow them to share my wrong doing with me and find some kind of peace with the sight of my face , the sound of my voice and please bring peace upon them when it comes to me Lord. I ask that you give them understanding in their heart that I mean them and meant them no harm. and I ask that you allow them to forgive me. I feel they anger for me , their hate for me and I know now of the harm they seek for me. Bring us face to face oh Lord I beg of you. If it came to this point Lord I must have done something unrepairable. Lord I ask that you soften the heart of this person so they will carry no more heart of stone towards me.
Lord I ask that you forgive me as well and show me what I have done wrong to bring this type of drama upon me. Lord I ask that you show mercy upon us both. and soften my heart as well. I no longer feel angered but sorrow as it rise up running through me. please no longer hide their face from me. I ask that you bring this person before me LORD. in jesus name amen.
My Lord Jesus If I have not wronged this person that have brought this drama and pain unto me than show me nothing but bring them before the law to justice. in the name of Jesus I pray. Lord I feel someones anger and pain. Identify these feelings that I feel from this person. If of no wrong doing I have done to them is this the pain they feel from what they are doing to me and my family. Identify this anger that i feel from them it runs through me now. Identify the sorrow Lord now Lord ask of you in the name of Jesus. in the name of Jesus , in the name of Jesus. Lord if it's you, and your will that I have crossed I come humble as many times and more asking for your to forgive me. for I did not understand. in the name of Jesus amen. I must continue to pray. in the name of Jesus amen!!!
I so believe the all the pastors are being framed. I just still can't see them all going this route although one seem to have apologized for “THE CHURCH” if that was the case I for give THE CHURCH, I need a church and all didn't do wrong. I'm sure. SHED LIGHT ON ALL OF THIS. and again identify these feelings
The stories keep coming but God is gonna shake this earth. I believe the war has began. They are now using the church to continue to carry out the work of trafficking. Thy shall not kill . but many death has occured from heart failure, men and women. If the bible is being replayed then the Lord is gonna surely shake this earth and all of evil will parish and the earth will be made as new. I spoke of a war but never understood of how it will take place. I don't full understand none of what's going on but I do understand that the Lord almighty is coming , King of all kings will show upon us all. God if you made me to preach then allow your will to be done. What so ever you ask of me I will gladly do before you with no questions asked. give me full knowledge to do your will. If I am doing your will now as I believe show
