gave it a shake and put its shoulders around a hanger. “Every culture finds a way to explain the inexplicable.”
“Like Rolf said—folklore.”
“Oh, you know that, do you? You’re so worldly-wise, so all-knowing, that you can dismiss it just like that? Centuries and centuries of belief?”
“Centuries and centuries of storytelling. That’s where all the Irish fables come from.”
“Be careful, Gabriel. You wouldn’t want to be so scornful about something you don’t understand.”
Sometimes she was there; sometimes she wasn’t. She chose her moments; Gabriel chose to believe. He chose, also, to stay with her rather than with his sister.
The night before they moved to the new house, he told Annie he wanted to stay in Muttrah.
She was packing a suitcase, putting in the last of their belongings. “How do you mean?”
“I’ll pay the rent and hang on for a bit.”
“But why?”
“It’s central, which is handy when I don’t have transport, and you shouldn’t have to put up with me every single day.”
“I don’t mind that.”
“Really?”—
She rolled some socks one into the other. “I don’t . . . I haven’t exactly been good company, I know, or maybe as welcoming as I should have been but—”
He stood up and put his hands on her shoulders. “You’ve been everything you should have been, but I’m not really in the right frame of mind for lounging around the suburbs in between dinner parties and barbecues, and you need space. Us being on top of each other every hour of the day is proving counter-productive, wouldn’t you say?”
“Being on your own could also be counter-productive. Too much time to think.”
She believed, no doubt, that he thought a lot about Max and, if left alone, would do so even more as he tried to come to terms with what had happened—a laughable concept. None of them would ever come to terms with it, least of all Gabriel, and although he could have grieved for Max—that much at least, in his empty time—he did not. Even when he walked under that high, light sky, with seagulls coasting overhead and goats wandering about, even then he didn’t think much about Max any more, or of his parents, or his spoiled prospects and the prominent stain on his character. But he did want more time alone to think. To think and delight in this intriguing woman.
Annie resumed her packing, piling in clothes way beyond the capacity of the suitcase. “I suppose, if you’re going to stay for a while, it makes sense to have your own place,” she looked up, “but how long are you planning to stay?”
“A bit longer, if I can, but I don’t want to tread on your toes.”
“Don’t be stupid. I don’t own Muscat.” The suitcase lid, as she pulled it over the mound of clothes, was like a glutton’s jaw closing over a greedy mouthful. “What about money?”
They leaned on the suitcase. “I could get a job.”
“You’ll have to talk to Rolf about that. We can’t ask Rashid for too many favors.”
“Let’s sit on it.”
They sat on the case. “We’ve paid the rent until the end of next month,” said Annie, “so you might as well stay. But I hope this doesn’t have anything to do with that specter of yours.”
After they had made the final move the next day, Rolf dropped Gabriel back to Muttrah in the early evening. Walking toward his house was like walking from one world into another. He had longed for solitude these many weeks, and the dark alleys were like a squiggled path leading out of his head. When the time was right, he planned to make his way back into it by another route.
In the empty house, he sat in the dim light of an inadequate lamp and waited.
He had left the front door unlocked when he went to bed, then lay, listening, and staring across the darkness toward the doorway.
He didn’t see her come. When the mattress dipped by his hips, his eyes struggled to fix on her outline, but her warmth spread over to him like a low mist. He found her wrist and gripped it in an uncompromising hold. “How much are they paying you?”
It was the first of many questions; she answered none.
And yet she lay like this in a stranger’s bed. . . . What were the limits, he wondered, and the rules? What would she allow? With a restraint just short of painful, he contained the urge to make love to her, because he would have done so with neither tenderness nor affection, only with the desperation that had festered over months of enforced celibacy. In all that time he had enjoyed not one shared spasm of pleasure, no intimate release, and yet turned on, again, at last, by the woman lying alongside him, he managed to hold back.
The drip-drop of conversation became as tantalizing, over the next few days, as her body. It wasn’t that she didn’t speak—she did, in short, neat sentences, although when he thought about it after she’d left, he was aware more of her having spoken than of having heard her voice. There was no substance to any of it. She answered questions with questions and spoke in vague terms about little of consequence, which explained nothing about anything. She was there and that was all; she didn’t know much else. Not even her own name. Apparently.
When he said one day, “They say you might be a jinn,” she put her hand on his thigh. This was more dangerous than ice on the roads. If someone was trying to frame him, this was the way to go: one accusation of rape or assault and he’d never see the light of day again. But even that didn’t stand up. His family hated him, for sure, but not forever. They couldn’t wish to have him jailed for a long spell in some distant outpost.
“Why do you keep coming here?”
She needed to be away from somewhere else, she said.
“Like me,” he muttered.
She could hear the sea, she said.
“Not possible.” He ran the backs of his fingers along her neck. “The sea is as languid as jelly out there.”
Her eyes lost focus, as if she were listening to something on a frequency unavailable to him, and she insisted that she could hear the sea.
“I wish I could.” A snapshot of the Irish coast followed the thought—the white of the Atlantic throwing itself against the last rocks of Ireland. “I remember standing on a walkway near Mizen Head when I was a kid, near the lighthouse there. A small bridge crossed a gully and we’d been told—me and my brother and sister—that you could see seals frolicking in the surf far below so, heads hanging over the railings, we watched and watched, the waves breaking up in this gash in the rocks, sending up bubbles of foam, until finally we saw a flash of silvery brown slithering around down there. The sea was throwing itself about, deadly dangerous, but the seal was having a lark, diving into the gush of nasty-looking waves, like a kid in snow.”
Don’t talk, she said. Listen.
Gabriel held himself still, eyes closed, until he
