on treatment.
Nina felt sorry for this person. It had a grief, and he did not hide it. She saw grief and grief in his face. Pain and suffering. It seemed that he was ready to cry out very much. – WHY IT!? – but it restrained. The man did not afford excess emotions, did not afford weakness. But to it it was sore. Nina saw suffering in his eyes. Who will understand the man, only the woman. Hardly anyone will tell in a different way? Men will only tell: – Departed, the hell with her. – then they will list all its shortcomings and why he has to begin to hate it. Then the man, наслужившись friends, will spit everything, and will go to fornication. And next morning, will wake up in a bed together some woman whom friends invited for the night. The head hurts, breaks up into two parts. What was last night he does not remember, and only with awakening of this woman, he understands what occurred yesterday.
The woman is ready to listen to the man. It is created to listen to different stories from the husband and from other people too. In vain say that women the best psychologists. I do not say that men bad psychologists. But they studies as them, women, born psychoanalysts, and much of them can even not study as the psychoanalyst or the psychologist. Their brain in itself is developed so that the woman's thought already created their answer to the man when the man's question was only created, but did not sound yet. Here such this business, female psychology.
– I understand.
– You know, – the stranger told. – as it is terrible to see how the person close to you dies, and you nothing can make. – these words were pronounced with such melancholy and grief that at some point Nin it seemed that he will begin to cry now. Bol, bitterness of the bleeding wound saw Nin in his eyes. He really loved it. Loved the wife so strongly that it was ready to undertake her disease. Let better he would die than it. – only you sit and you observe how the person dies away. The young body burns down. Just about, and he will not become, and it still to live and live.
Nina with grief answered.
– I understand you. – then she added. – It is terrible when the person is powerless to help other person, especially it is terrible when this the close relative. – she made a heavy pause, then added. – Child.
The stranger told nothing. He knew what Nina speaks about. His wife once gave rise, and in a year found cancer in it. In half a year the child died, and in a month cancer was found in his wife. Now his wife departed. Whether it will return or not? He did not know it. He told.
– I lost the child too. Cancer it be wrong. And now wife.
Nina carefully asked.
– Your child was suffering from cancer?
– Yes, so it also is. It had an oncology. – then he added. – Damned cancer! – then he added. – Stole all family from me. – he made a pause, then thought. – Why exactly my family? What we were guilty before god of?
Nina assumed.
– Perhaps this test?
The stranger was indignant.
– TEST? – it neistovat. – No, you are mistaken. This is not test, but punishment! – he made a small pause. Then exclaimed. – For what?
On this question there was no answer. Nobody knows why the person has cancer? One say that this from food, others from an old age. The third try to inspire in us that cancer develops because it it is put in genes of the person. But why it cannot be cured? Nobody knows it. It is possible to eat medicine against cancer, but erudite druggists so far on this subject are silent.
Seeing that the stranger was in despair. He could not recover, and this conversation brought him only suffering, Nina decided to give the conversation another turn. She told.
– We do not know why in life occurs. We will never understand it. – then she offered. – Let's talk about something another?
The stranger answered.
– I cannot speak about something another now. – then he added as if reproaching the woman with something. – I just saw off the wife, and hardly I will see her again. I tell you about my grief here, I confess before you, before absolutely unfamiliar woman. And YOU? – it having waved away added. – I understand, it is hard for you to listen to me, but listen, I ask you.
Nina told nothing. She understood that this person needs to unburden the heart, and she told.
– Excuse that I did not understand you. I thought, having given the conversation another turn you will cease though for a while to remember sad. Well, if it is easier for you, I am ready to listen to you. – then she added. – To tell foreign person about the grieves. – then she added. – I know it as nobody.
The man of nothing told. He just was silent. Looking at this woman, he understood that in vain he told: – I just saw off the wife, and hardly I will see her again. I tell you about my grief here, I confess before you before absolutely unfamiliar woman. And YOU? – it he had no right to speak. You never know who has what problems? It is possible to share them, but who will listen to them? Perhaps will listen to them, but whether will understand heard or to turn a deaf ear? Who knows? Who knows? The man carefully told.
– I understand that I the history could not eat up to you, but who knows how to me now at heart it is heavy. – he made a pause, then added. – Understand! I can any more never I will see Veronika! Maybe this flying away was the last in her life, and back it will not return any more.
Nina told nothing. And there was nothing to speak that. The man could not tell something that could transfer a conversation to other subject. He would like to make it, but could not. He could not think of anything except one now, his Veronika back will return to him or not. Cancer will make the business, will finish the work, and will kill this beautiful creature, his wife, his Veronika.
Nina answered only in a word.
– I understand. – she really understood it. It is difficult to lose somebody in the life. Especially it is difficult, is not present terribly, to lose the relative. At present sister. Where it now? What expects it there, abroad? She did not know it. She considered, everything is predetermined in this life. What will be, that not to pass. At everyone the destiny in this life, and there has to pass a person it, without any help: – All in this world what we got used to consider for the benefit. – she told. – It is necessary to pay for everything.
The stranger was indignant.
– To pay! Yes for what?
Nina heaved a deep sigh, and then said.
– For happiness. – hard she told. – Too it is necessary to pay for happiness. If not during lifetime, then after death.
– What do you want to tell these?
Nina tried to explain.
– Once and to all people the destiny gives you this or that happiness. But the destiny is cruel. Seeing as the person enjoys life it simply takes away from him happiness, tests the person, and gathers at it the most expensive, the most valuable in his life.
– Do you consider what me is tested by destiny?
– Perhaps. – assumed Nin, and asked. – What do you do in life?
– I am a businessman.
– Businessman. –
