felt like that, to a lesser extent. Affronted when GPs haven’t taken my low blood sugar seriously. Confused when migraines were put down to anxiety and not a brain tumour as I was convinced. My low energy was tested, and my insomnia discussed, but suggestions that I might be feeling things that weren’t ‘real’ was very upsetting. Why? Why would a mental-health issue feel less valid to many of us than a broken leg, say? Partly it’s the stigma, isn’t it? That a broken leg feels serious, totally genuine, more worthy of sympathy – a mental illness might be weak, or seen as our fault, or dismissed as attention-seeking.
Well balls to that. We need to start being comfortable with mental illness being just as worthy of help and attention as anything else. But in order to do that, we need to understand how deeply our minds can affect our bodies. As I’ve said, the first time people have a panic attack, they often don’t know what on earth is going on and think they’re dying. This is a common example, but it’s far from the only time that anxiety will show itself physically, and it can be really terrifying.
Aside from the host of ways anxiety has messed with my mind, it’s also done a number on my body. This is not a comprehensive list BY ANY MEANS, but here’s a list off the top of my head:
• Made my eyelid droop and flicker (I thought it was a stroke).
• Given me rashes, psoriasis and weird red blotches all over my body.
• Made my hair thin.
• Given me tension migraines that lasted for days.
• Made me vomit.
• Made my whole body shake so wildly I thought I was going to die.
• Given me stabbing pains in my chest.
• Made my back ache so much that moving was difficult.
• Made me feel as though my limbs were detached from me (that one is weird).
• Made my vision blurry.
• Made me so tired I found it hard to move.
• Made me lose my memory. Seriously – anxiety can mess with MEMORY.
These things were all very real to me. Not made-up, not fake, not attention-seeking. That’s how strong the mind is. There’s a list floating around the internet that I stumbled upon a few years back called something like ‘100 anxiety symptoms’ and I ticked ALL of them off. It was such a relief to realise that these physical issues could be explained – and a relief to know that I wasn’t alone in dealing with them.
I’m not suggesting that you chalk up all physical ailments to anxiety and never get medical help (norovirus is not all in your head). I am saying that we should all stop and think when we feel a niggle, a pain, a tingle and ask ourselves how our anxiety level is. That isn’t about minimising the physical discomfort or pain we’re in, it’s about taking our mental health seriously and connecting the dots. So here are two little exercises to help unite the mind and body a little more.
Write down all the physical symptoms of anxiety that you’ve experienced, heard about or googled (you know you’ve googled symptoms, don’t lie to this journal). Can be big or small. I’ll start with a common one.
OK, keep that list to hand, add to it when you experience a new symptom – get familiar with the way anxiety manifests itself in your body.
Now make a note of a situation when you felt ill, ‘off’, wrong or rundown. Think about what was going on that day – were you worried about work? Were you having anxiety attacks a lot in that period? No need to be Sherlock Holmes – just jot down anything that comes to mind.
As I said, the impact of anxiety on our bodies is very real. It might all stem from your mind, but an upset stomach is undeniably rubbish. Headaches can knock you out all day. Vomiting can force you to leave important work events. Mental-health-related issues account for the majority of sick days taken at work, and we’re often more likely to tell an employer that we’ve got flu than to explain that our bodies have been taken over by worry.[16]
Anxiety can make it feel as though your body is breaking down sometimes. Night sweats, exhaustion, cold chills (I used to have to blow-dry my feet before I could sleep sometimes) and a propensity to pick up colds made me feel many years older than I was. Those colds might not have been a random coincidence either. There’s growing evidence that when extreme stress and worry continue for a prolonged period of time, the immune system may be weakened.[17] In fact the health consequences more generally can be significant. Anxiety has been linked to heart disease, respiratory problems and digestion issues.[18] I say this not to freak you out (please don’t freak out, I’ll have to give my book money back) but to show you that your anxiety is SERIOUS and VALID and you deserve to be taken seriously and not feel as though it’s not important. It is, and you’re not ‘imagining’ it.
Anxiety makes our minds miserable, but it also makes living in our bodies uncomfortable and painful and tiring. So there’s even more reason to make changes and seek help – you might be able to put up with worries, or have all the symptoms of the flu, but both at the same time is more than one person should have to tolerate.
And the great thing is, the more you understand the ways that your mind and body impact on each other, the more you can break the cycle of anxious thought – adrenaline – more anxiety. There’s nothing radical to suggest here – no potions or expensive equipment to buy. It’s the old classics as usual – sleep, exercise, good nutrition, training your brain to look at things differently (learning to reframe negative thoughts), and listening to what your body needs. Are you full of nervous energy? Maybe a walk would help dissipate some of that. Feeling cold and shaky? Have a hot bath. I hope these suggestions don’t sound too like Pippa Middleton’s party manual (‘consider a cake’, etc.). They can feel obvious but, unfortunately, there’s no quick remedy which fixes all of these physical things. There’s a reason the suggestions given by professionals all tend to be framed around exercise and wellbeing – it’s because they work. And the more you look after your body, the less the symptoms will invade on a daily basis. Since I started running five years ago, I’m ill much less. I sleep better. I don’t feel overwhelmed with adrenaline and I don’t have so many weird and frightening body niggles which used to send me straight to Google to see if it meant I had cancer.
Write down five things you know help with physical symptoms of anxiety:
Try to do at least one a day for a week and see if you feel differently.
