bucket fur my good buddy, Hy-ink.”
Hatch steps in. “We don’t need that. Fitzy can hold his liquor.”
Abe shakes his head. “I don’t think so.”
“No really, Abe.” It’s Claire’s turn to stand up for me I guess. “Hank will be fine.”
“Maybe…” Abe looks at me, pointing at my face. “But judgin’ by his color, and the fact I just barfed my brains out ’bout five minutes ago, I’m uh guessin’ Hy-ink ain’t too far bu’hine me.”
Hatch volunteers to drive us back. These days it’s all too easy to guilt him into being designated driver. One casual reminder about disintegrating into a weeping pussy and leaving you for the cops, and presto—instant DD. We figure it’s best to drive around the country roads outside Empire Ridge until I can string more than three syllables together without needing a translator.
Beth and I take the backseat, my head in Beth’s lap. Beth gets all karaoke on me, singing along with the radio while she runs her hands through my hair. A post-Cetera Chicago tune called “Look Away” followed by Phil Collins’s “Groovy Kind of Love.” Cheesy-ass songs. Beth doesn’t have the best voice. But I don’t care.
“Beth?” I’m on the road to recovery, or at least cognizant enough to now realize how far away my genuine recovery still is.
Beth pushes back my hair behind my right ear, kisses me on the lips. “Yeah, babe?”
“Can you hand me my puke bucket, please?”
Chapter twenty-three
I’ve always been a mediocre football player who loves football and a natural-born wrestler who abhors wrestling. Such is my curse.
Wrestling is the hardest, most arduous activity ever invented by man. Three two-minute periods equal six minutes of exhaustive hell on earth. As our coach once said, “There is no more intense combination of aerobic and anaerobic exercise in all of sports.” He also told us that Dan Gable, the greatest amateur wrestler ever who compiled a 132–1 record at the University of Iowa, “is regarded by many experts to be the most complete human specimen in the history of athletics.” Most complete? What the fuck does that mean?
And did I mention I hate wrestling?
I tipped off my coaches about my latent ability early on. I was a sophomore when one of our varsity wrestlers decided to get mono. Weighing in at 155 pounds soaking wet and with a grand total of five practices under my belt, I was the Ridge’s last minute substitution in the 171-pound weight class in our dual meet versus Prep. Not only were we facing our archrivals, but my opponent was Kevin Stark, the undefeated #6–ranked wrestler in the state at 171 pounds, a guy who two nights prior (against wrestling powerhouse Perry Meridian) pinned the #3 wrestler in the state in the first twenty seconds of the first period. I lost the match, by a wide margin. By rule, if one wrestler gains a fifteen-point lead over his opponent at any point, that wrestler is declared the winner of the match by technical fall. Stark whooped my ass 18–3, but it took him until the third period to beat me, and he didn’t pin me.
Three years later, that match against Kevin Stark continues to be the highlight of my career. I throw matches during big tournaments so I can have the weekend to myself. I fake bronchitis for weeks at a time to rationalize losing to my coach. I’ve lost more matches than I’ve won. And the only reason I don’t quit is because my arms and legs look fucking awesome.
About three feet away from me, Mom and Dad sit in the bleachers at the Major Taylor Memorial Gymnasium in downtown Taylor. On any other day, I might pause to note the perverse irony of Taylor, a racist southern Indiana hollow whose namesake was a turn-of-the-century elite cyclist and the world’s first great black athlete, but right now I’m just warming up for my match. Per the program, “Hank Fitzpatrick’s 9–8 record earned him the fourth seed in the 171-pound weight class of the 1989 Indiana High School Athletic Association Major Taylor Wrestling Sectional.”
The 171-pound bracket only has four seeds.
“Hank.” Mom motions to me. “Come here for a second.”
I jog over to her, spinning my arms. “Mom, I’m up next. What do you want?”
“I want you to at least try today.”
“Okay,” I say, more dismissive than responsive.
“No, I mean really try.”
“It’s just wrestling.”
“Yeah…well, your father and I have been sitting up here talking.”
“About what?”
“About spring break.”
“Is now the time to get into this?”
“Son, I know you’re upset about us not letting you go down to Panama City with all your friends.”
“Mom, we’ve been through this a hundred times, and it’s still January.”
“And I still say you have no business going down to Florida unchaperoned when you’re seventeen years old.”
“Never mind I’m turning eighteen two weeks after spring break. Are you just telling me all this to piss me off again? Maybe give me some motivation?”
“Oh, I’m going to give you some motivation.”
“Let me know when that starts.” I jog in place, the hood of my warm-up pulled over my head.
Dad listens in on our conversation, interrupting at a no doubt predetermined moment. He puts his hand on my shoulder. “Your mother and I want you to do your best today. If you win at least one match, you can go on spring break with your friends.”
I try to stifle a laugh. “You do realize I have a combined career record of something like 0–10 versus the guys in this tournament, right?”
Dad scans the program. “Taylor, Rosehaven, Prep—not exactly a rogue’s gallery of wrestling powers.”
“Rogue enough to beat my butt ten times,” I say.
The buzzer sounds, ending the last match of the first round of the 160-pound class. It’s a close match. I still have some time to kill. I turn to leave.
Dad grabs me by the sleeve. “Wait a second, son.”
My father is a part-time motivational speaker. He does some seminar work on the side for Oldsmobile, even volunteers for the occasional Catholic retreat. But it’s a part of him I’ve never seen.
I have a feeling that’s about to change.
“Hank, look at me.” Dad stares me down. He’s never stared me down before. “You know and I know you’re a much better wrestler than you pretend to be. I’ve watched you sleepwalk through years of wasted talent.”
I shrug his hand off my sleeve. I take off my warm-ups. “What do you want from me, Dad?”
“I want you to realize your potential.”
“Maybe
