to help us formulate appropriate, proportionate, and productive responses to what is going on in the here and now. But sometimes the process goes a little haywire. For instance, what if something your wife says makes your right brain recall some hurtful thing your mother said when you were five? In that case, it will make perfect sense to you that the only logical response is to pout — or even throw a tantrum. Of course, this response will seem completely insane to your wife, who would have no idea why you’re acting that way.
Worse, what if your memory bank is filled with unhealthy experiences of people treating you poorly through neglect or abuse? These experiences are not uncommon, but fortunately, they don’t define the way most human beings normally treat each other. Even so, if those are the only experiences your right brain has to choose from when it looks for a guide to current events, you’ll automatically assume — on an unconscious, gut level — that many people have more malicious intent than they actually do. For instance, a study by the University of Vermont published in the Journal of Social and Personal Relationships showed that children raised in households where moms and dads engaged in non-abusive but chronic arguing were more likely to assume a negative intention behind even the neutral actions of others. Their brains were primed to assume the worst about others, because when they encountered a new social situation, their right brains took them back to memories of people assuming the worst about each other.
To understand where your particular brand of self-talk originates, it is helpful to ask the question, “What experiences taught me to feel that way?”
To answer this question, you’re not looking for that time on Wednesday, September 4, when your mom sat you down and said, “Now, honey, when someone doesn’t return a text right away, that means they hate you and you’ve driven them out of your life. Got that, dear?”
Resist the temptation to overthink this. Instead, sit with the feeling you are having and reflect on the thought going through your head. In our example, Karen’s thought is, “I’m an annoying pest who drives away people I care about.” As she reflects on this thought, she should allow whatever memories that may be associated with that thought to float up to the surface of her mind. These memories don’t have to make sense. Often, our first reaction to these memories will be, “That couldn’t have anything to do with this. Don’t be silly.” She should just sit with it, trust the process, and write down whatever memories come up, regardless of what they are.
As our fictional client, Karen, does this exercise, perhaps she will be reminded of a time when she was bullied in grade school, or a time when her sister refused to play with her and called her a “pest,” or her father was having a bad day and carelessly told he was too busy for her stupid games. Of course, it could also be something more recent, but a good rule of thumb is that the deeper and stronger a particular reaction is felt, the earlier the memory that’s associated with it. Regardless, one memory might come up, or several. Whatever emerges from your reflection will tell you, for better or worse, what your right brain is making of this present event.
Processing This Information
I’ll give you a step-by-step process for dealing with this information later in the book, but for now it’s enough to ask yourself, “Do these specific memories really describe my present experience?” For instance, if Karen’s right brain is taking her back to a time when she was bullied in grade school, she might ask if it’s really fair to paint Julia with that same brush. If Julia has been mean or disrespectful in the past, it may very well be appropriate to lump her into the same category as the bullies in her past. But if not, it would be very unfair to assume that Julia is thinking about Karen the same way. Karen might not know what Julia is thinking, and Karen can now admit that. Rather than feel and act as if she is being aggressively shunned by Julia, she is free to look for another explanation that takes into account the way Julia has actually treated her in the past.
As I mentioned, we’ll talk through what to do with all this information later on, but for now, it’s important to become aware of these different layers of experience. The more anxious people are, the harder it is for them to get past even the first layer and hear their own self-talk, much less the memories that underlie their automatic interpretations. Those who experience serious anxiety tend to become so fixated on getting their external environment under control that they don’t think to ask these questions. Because of this, much of their emotional experience remains unavailable, and they can’t avoid the patterns that set them up for failure again and again.
Think about it. What would happen if Karen didn’t ask herself these questions and eventually realize that it wasn’t fair for her to automatically compare Julia to bullies in the past? Karen might avoid Julia in an attempt to protect herself from the imagined slight. Then Julia would probably be hurt because she wouldn’t know why Karen didn’t want to see her anymore, and she would stop trying to reach out. In fact, Julia might even complain to mutual friends about Karen’s poor treatment of her, which could further jeopardize Karen’s social position.
In response, Karen would experience all of this as proof that she truly is annoying and really does drive away everyone she cares about; and she would become even more anxious in future social situations. Imagine how crippling it would be if this same dynamic happened a thousand or even a hundred thousand times over the course of Karen’s life. Our self-talk and memories have tremendous power to shape our experiences. It’s important to become aware of these messages and memories — and exercise good stewardship over them — so that we can control them rather than allowing them to control us.
Exercise: Self-Talk Practice
To practice identifying the self-talk and memories that inform your unique experiences, take five minutes a day with your notebook to reflect on the following questions.
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