SPIDER EATERS
SPIDER EATERS
A MEMOIR
Fifteenth Anniversary Edition
With a New Preface
RAE YANG
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First paperback printing 1998
ISBN: 978-0-520-27602-4
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Yang, Rae, 1950-
Spider eaters : a memoir / Rae Yang.
p. cm.
ISBN 0-520-21598-2 (pbk.: alk. paper)
1. China—History—Cultural Revolution, 1966-1969—Personal narratives. 2. Yang family. 3. Peking (China)—Biography. 4. Yang, Rae, 1950- . I. Title.
DS778.7.Y42 1997
951.05'092—dc20
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To my dear Aunty, Tian Xi Zben,
my grandmother, Zhang Hui Zhen,
and my parents
Many historic lessons were obtained through tremendous sacrifice. Such as eating food—if something is poisonous, we all seem to know it. It is common sense. But in the past many people must have eaten this food and died so that now we know better. Therefore I think the first person who ate crabs was admirable. If not a hero, who would dare eat such creatures? Since someone ate crabs, others must have eaten spiders as well. However, they were not tasty. So afterwards people stopped eating them. These people also deserve our heartfelt gratitude.
—Lu Xun (1881-1936)
Contents
Preface to the Fifteenth Anniversary Edition
Author's Note
1.A Strange Gift from the Pig Farm
2.Old Monkey Monster
3.Nainai's Story Turned into a Nightmare
4.Nainai Failed Her Ancestors
5.Why Did Father Join the Revolution?
6.Second Uncle Was a Paper Tiger
7.The Chinese CIA
8.When Famine Hit
9.A Vicious Girl
10.Aunty's Name Was Chastity
11.Beijing 101 Middle School
12.The Hero in My Dreams
13.At the Center of the Storm
14.Red Guards Had No Sex
15.Semi-transparent Nights
16.“The Hero, Once Departed, Will Never Come Back”
17.In a Village, Think, Feel, and Be a Peasant
18.“The Tree May Wish to Stand Still, but the Wind Will Not Subside”
19.Death of a Hero: Nainai's Last Story
20.Remorse
21.Friends and Others
22.My First Love, a Big Mistake?
23.What Have I Lost? What Have I Gained?
24.Epilogue
Illustrations
Preface to the Fifteenth Anniversary Edition
It makes me sad that, forty years after the Cultural Revolution, the topic is still taboo in China. Serious discussion about this historical event, which involved millions in the 1960s and 1970s, is still unattainable.
As a result, young people born after the Cultural Revolution know next to nothing about it. When I asked my Chinese students at Dickinson College, they told me they knew about it. It was in their history book.
“What does the book say?” I asked them, surprised.
“It says: due to mistaken decision(s) made by the country's leader(s), the Cultural Revolution was a ten-year-long catastrophe.” (Here the Chinese sentence does not reveal if the nouns are singular or plural.)
“That's it?”
“That's it.”
But the Cultural Revolution I lived through was a lot more complex. It meant entirely different things for different groups of people: the élite, the small potatoes, the old, the young, those who had revolutionary families to brag about, and those whose families were condemned ... Some benefited from it. Others suffered unspeakable losses. How can it be summed up with a one-sentence conclusion?
As for those who lived through the Cultural Revolution, many have “joined the ancients.” Those who are
