pH: A Novel. Nancy Lord
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Annabel snapped another picture as a milky jellyfish floated by. Her past was streaming into memory: water lapping at her perfect small toes, the cries of gulls, the salty taste when she accidentally swallowed a mouthful of ocean. Back there, at the Jersey Shore, the child she was had collected shells, of course, and arranged them carefully on her windowsill at home, inspired by their whorls and polished shapes, by their pink and cream colors. She’d brought home starfish, too, and was aghast when they began to stink and she realized she’d dehydrated and killed living creatures.
The intricate designs of bird feet in the sand, the patterns the waves and wind made in the same sand, the different colors of the ocean on different days, the shells and the pebbles and the tiny grains of sand themselves—all of that, she was sure, had shaped her as an artist. She was all about seeing the patterns and finding the sequences, this and this and this going together, and then breaking the pattern, with that.
Naturally, she’d been drawn to Alaska. In addition to having incredible light, it was a good fit for her pioneering, anarchistic bent. She’d lived now for a long time in the Interior, attuned to the curves of oxbow rivers and the lines of birch forests, to feathers of frost and the peach colors of winter days. She’d worked with natural materials like birchbark and branches, always careful to collect only from downed trees and not too much of that. She still had a recurring nightmare that involved writhing starfish, legions of them baking in the sun with all their podia flailing.
Here she was finally on a ship at sea! Her entire boating career to this point had been one summer sternwheeling down the silty Tanana past dog yards and expensive log homes. Her, a cruise guide! It hadn’t been much money, but more than an artist makes, and the tourists had been agreeable enough, even if they were more interested in the chicken dinner than the river and all began to look alike after awhile, which was a terrible thing for an artist to admit.
The shoreline now was already far behind them, lost somewhere beyond a bank of fog. The bottom was a long way down. She took another photo of the water, and then of water meeting fog, distance.
She remembered, from when she was very young, an annoying uncle joking with her: “Why does the ocean roar? Because it has crabs on its bottom!” He had thought it fun to pinch her skinny butt. He would not have known that her own delight came from somewhere else, from within the language. A bottom was one thing, and it was something else compared to that thing. That might have been the beginning, for her, of visualizing possibility.
Later that morning, when she got to put her eye to the microscope focused on Limicina helicina, the shelled pteropod, she was very excited, until she realized she was looking at the fluttering of her own eyelash. This was not easy work—bouncing in a boat while trying to hold still and peer through a lens at a minuscule something that was sloshing around with a bunch of other teenytinies. It seemed they were in the wrong season to find many mature pteropods, which would be visible to the eye—like a lentil pea, Ray had said. She conjured up the images she’d seen on his computer. In those, brownish snail bodies stretched from their spiraling, translucent shells into the parts that were specialized feet, not made for sliming along trails but for moving—flapping, even—through water. In some of the photos the foot was clearly split in two, exactly like wings. The foot-wings, Ray told her now, with what seemed like excessive pleasure, made a mucous that was cast out like a net to catch algae. “That’s how it feeds.”
It was good that she had a well-developed imagination, because when Annabel finally thought she could see the little beast she couldn’t see any shell at all, just a tubish body and fuzzy twitching parts that she assumed were the mucousy wings. It was entirely possible she was out of focus or still looking at an eyelash.
“Especially in the spring, these guys are usually found in swarms in surface waters,” Ray was saying. “Not so much now. The other pteropod we have here, the naked, carnivorous one we were talking about, is larger but much less common.”
It was a pteropod-eat-pteropod world, that was for sure. Annabel remembered seeing the naked one among Ray’s photos, too. It looked to her like a miniature—very miniature—beluga whale, its long bulbous body flanked by stubby foot-wings that were like the whale’s stubby flippers. It was largely transparent, with a peachy sac in its center. Ray had made a point of telling her that in a well-fed animal, the sac, which was its digestive gland, would be bigger and darker.
“You are wearing glitter?” the Russian girl asked, with what seemed like alarm.
“Da,” she said.
“Da?” The girl’s nostrils flared, horselike.
“Yes, I am wearing glitter.” Annabel was not, as a rule, very big on conventional makeup, but she did like to apply a little metallic blush to give her face sparkle. The color in this instance, an orange-gold, was called “perpetual praline.” Heck, she hadn’t bought it for its silly name or the fact that it was “lickable”; she’d just liked the color, and the discount price. It occurred to her now that perhaps the Russian girl was afraid that flecks would fall into her sample and be counted as a new species.
Annabel was, if nothing else, glad to be in the presence of living, moving, perhaps flailing creatures. The previous night the ones from the Multinet looked, once they were concentrated and “fixed” in jars, like pea soup. “Mostly euphasiids,” Robert had said to her, swirling the contents. The deepest tow had picked up a couple of finger-length lantern fish that everyone had seemed excited about. Lantern fish, one of the girls told her, lived in the deep sea and were bioluminescent—except that particular pair were quite dead and squished, their big eyes popping free. But this was cool: each species had its own pattern of lighting up, and males and females of the same species had different lit parts.
“And what is your art?” the Russian girl asked now.
The Project, as she thought of it, was in fact coming together, had all night and all day been forming and reforming in her mind, like a school of fish swimming in circles and grabbing bites of plankton. She hadn’t spoken of it, but now both girls and Ray, smelling of ginger, were staring at her, waiting to hear.
“I’m building paper sculptures,” she said, although she had not yet begun the actual work of the paper folding and softening she had in mind, nor had she settled on the inscriptions they would carry.
“Sculptures of what?”
These very literal, very concrete, very need-to-know people—they couldn’t help themselves.
“We’ll see,” she said. “Inspired by the sea and its creatures. And by your work,” she added pointedly.
Ray looked down his somewhat-reddened nose. “Does it have a title?”
“Titles usually come last for me. You know, given by the work.”
He didn’t know; that seemed clear. He rearranged his face, a jollier look. “Don’t forget our charismatic microfauna.”
Huh?