The City, Our City. Wayne Miller

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style="font-size:15px;">      the floorboards, lifting bales

      of hay from the fields, climbing

      the fence posts, the woodpile,

      rising in the sooted chimney

      stone by stone, up the staircase

      to slide across the wood floor,

      soaking the featherbed,

      past the top of the banister,

      the grayed vanity mirror,

      climbing the trunks of trees

      until the leaves were swallowed,

      the City then scaling the long

      sides of the valley, dilating

      as it rose toward the sky,

      up its own great wall, where

      cars lined the roadway,

      where hands lined the railing—

      then down the long chutes

      in white braids of froth,

      the City spilled out.

      What it was that filled me,

      filled me entirely.

      The only space left

      was inside my fists.

      They came alive with me, as a window

      comes alive with a sudden,

      human shape.

      And I hurled myself against that fucker

      who before

      was my friend, who again

      is my friend. Above us

      the overpass

      seethed with the arriving breakers

      of tires, and when a car

      rolled past

      it honked and cheered us on. And when

      I fell, the pavement confettied

      my palms,

      and I slipped from my hands

      so they became useless. Our shouting

      shuttled between us

      like a piston. And then

      we were parched;

      I found our bottle where I’d left it

      by the mailbox,

      and that was the end of it.

      Except this lip, this knuckle.

      —And you,

      who watched from the windowdark,

      dialtone

      pressed to your ear. Which

      of our words spilled into the pillow

      beside you? What

      crisscross of circles

      lapped at your sleep?

      First: a face—and the light that hits it from the inside.

      And someone notices that light and wants to keep it.

      Soon: a color-slicked finger, then a brush,

      then the void of a canvas—on which a room begins to appear.

      And it goes without saying: there’s all this time while the painter works—the fan’s blur in the window, the plastic rustling of ferns.

      This goes on for days. Only once does he admit

      a vague love for his subject sitting there—

      shaping her face with his brush has a certain erotic appeal—

      though soon he decides such love is merely a love for the work itself.

      Sometimes they break for fruit and beer,

      then almost too soon it’s back to the work at hand.

      So when a gunshot taps at the room’s thin window,

      they hardly notice, and when the war slides in like a storm cloud—

      swallowing her up in its passing—he feels as if the damage done

      is not to the City or to them, finally, but to the painting.

      Then reconstruction is finished; a friend gives him a camera—

      and how he loves the idea of light striking the pictures into being.

      He begins to photograph the façades and alleys,

      the kiosks and cafés. Now the unfinished portrait haunts him;

      he brings it up from the cellar. And the photograph he takes of it

      at first is more to preserve his thoughts of those afternoons with her.

      But then the portrait floating in the fixer’s orange glow

      emerges into a sealed and beautiful distance.

      He blows it up and mounts it on fiberboard—and now

      in that enlargement, more clearly than ever,

      the image remains unfinished. He sets up the print on an easel,

      takes out his oils and brushes, and begins to paint—

       III

      ] and all wes then cleare, some faces

      hath shadowes in them. Mister Preacher

      marke the doores with crosses,

      and ere long there is no winde in me

      to stand on. Blesse us Lorde

      with

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