from his Irish homeland as if they were as everyday as the village priest. A running joke he’d played with Mem since the day they adopted me. I tried to tell them I was too old for all their shenanigans, but Pep just told me they’d have to be leprechauns to get up to any, so that was that.
Coming in from the garden with some nasturtium greens for the salad, Mem said, “All that Parker girl would have to do is eat a bit of salt before she spits, Ronan. You should know the way around that test better than anyone.” Dumping the greens into the bowl next to Pep, she elbowed him, saying, “Mr. ‘I’ve got tickets to see the Chieftains in Dublin.’”
“I had them. Just couldn’t use them. A bit damp they were.”
They laughed. I’d heard the story of the soggy concert tickets he found on a rock along the shore a thousand times, how he used the promise of them to get Mem to finally go out with him, then hid them until they’d reached a pretty cove south of Dublin for a moonlit swim. I knew that story word for word, but I still loved the way it made them laugh, then start chattering in Irish, their hands flashing to the rhythm of the memories they told each other.
They’d smile, fall shoulder to shoulder, then finally remember I was still standing there and one of them would say, “Sorry, sweet, little swim down the memory channel, there.”
No matter. I’d taken a little trip down memory lane, myself. I prefer land travel. I went back to the day I finally got my shot of the purple hairstreak. I’d been hanging out in the Garrington Gardens on Clark Street for days. My kind of place. In the center of the town of Perryville, high in the Pocono Mountains of Pennsylvania, plenty far from the ocean. The park didn’t even have a pond. I spent my days there hovering over flowers, my camera focused and ready for just the right bug to fly into view. I had shot after shot of bees and moths, and I almost caught a hummingbird beak-deep in a honeysuckle, but I sneezed, so all I got was a big blur of a photograph and a bruised eye from where I clonked into the camera.
But there’s something triple-chocolate-cheesecake good about hanging there with my camera ready, the I’m-going-to-get-it-today tension of waiting for just the right shot that can’t be beat. Not with skateboarding or tree climbing or any of the other kooky kid things my classmates are always going on about. I’ll take a camera and a roost on a good rock any day.
And the gotcha moment makes it worth the leg-cramping wait. After two weeks at my flower post, I snapped the shot just as the purple hairstreak opened its wings a flutter above a yellow rose and I knew I’d caught a miracle right by the antennae. You couldn’t buy that with a zillion dollars or a truckload of blue ribbons.
And I even got my picture in the paper for all of that hard work. Actually, the whole family is in the picture. Me in the middle with my picture held up, Mem and Pep on either side, squeezing me for pride’s sake. So what if it was only half the size of Gaylen’s and on the fourth page of the family section. This year I’d take a picture no silly computer could touch. They’d pin that pretty blue ribbon on there and we’d have a nice big picture on page one.
That was the plan until Mem and Pep came up to my room in the attic, looking all “we’ve got something to tell you and you’re not going to like it.” Didn’t matter if I had a summer full of plans. Sure, I wanted to get a shot not even Gaylen Parker could beat. But I also had some great ideas for summer upgrades on my tree fort in the backyard and my best friend Hillary and I planned to start our Get With the Land project for Girl Scouts in the state park by mapping all the walking trails complete with nature guide signs along the way. I even saved up my allowance to buy a compass. I had my whole summer set for great adventure, but no, Mem and Pep had other plans that washed all of mine away.
They plopped down at the end of my bed, knee to knee, knuckle to knuckle, as they cranked up the smiles.
“What?” I asked, not wanting to know.
They put on their fake chipper voices, then Mem said, “We have a plan.”
Pep must have seen the bury me now look on my face, because he said, “An opportunity, really.”
“We’ve rented a cabin for the summer.”
No way would they pull me in with their little bait. I’d just wait for the hook. The hard barby piece of the news I couldn’t swallow.
“And . . .” Pep couldn’t say it. That spelled bad news to me. I gripped the seat of my chair.
Mem leaned forward and whispered, “It’s on a lake.”
Pep jumped in with, “A magical lake with silkies in it.”
A lake?! Felt like they’d sucked all of the air out of my lungs with straws. I couldn’t live on a lake. I’d rather be chopped up and fed to lions. Live in the middle of the desert in a tin shed. Spend the summer on a frozen tundra ice floe with a parka and a pick. But not near water. Please, no water.
WATER
Water scared me. Freaked me out so much I couldn’t walk through a rain puddle. My bones locked up. My muscles shrank. I turned to stone. The whole world went blue. Water scared me that much and Mem and Pep wanted me to live by a lake for the summer. A magic lake they said. Filled with silkies—the seal folk who take on human form when they leave the water. I didn’t care if the lake itself could fly!
I didn’t want to live on a lake. I didn’t want to live near a lake. I didn’t want to even see a picture of a lake.
Moving from the bed to kneel next to me, Pep said, “You don’t have to get in the lake, Kyna. You won’t even be able to see the water from the house. It sits high up on the shore. Nice and dry.”
“But I’ll know the water’s there, Pep. I’ll hear it,” I said, diving on the bed to roll up in my quilt.
Kissing me through the quilt, Mem said, “You can’t let your fears grow bigger than you, Kyna. They’ll swallow you up.”
My fear of water was as big as a lake. And I’d drown in it.
But I knew the rules. Face your fear one step at a time. Speaking through the quilt, I asked, “I don’t have to go in the water?”
“Not until you’re ready.” Mem rubbed my back.
Pep and Mem always said, “Not until you’re ready.”
They got this great slogan from Dr. Clark, the therapist they dragged me to every week. Worked just fine for me when it came to being ready to sleep over at a friend’s house or ride my bike downtown, but sometimes Mem and Pep thought I was ready before I really was. Last fall, they wanted me to take a shower. Not a slimy sponge bath in my nice dry bedroom on the third floor, but a shower in the tub that could fill up with water.
I refused and locked myself in my closet, yelling, “If you make me take a shower, I’ll never bathe again.”
Speaking through the door, Mem said, “Then you’ll smell so bad animals will roll on you for the scent.”
Our cat, Kippers, loved to roll on dirty socks and stick her head in my smelly shoes. I imagined myself walking outside, attracting every cat in the neighborhood. They’d rub all over me until I fell into the grass and disappeared under a pile of purring fur.
But the closet felt too small and dark.
