RENDANG. Will Harris
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In West Sumatra they call rendang
randang. Neither shares a root
with rending. Rose and rose
have French and Frisian roots
you can’t hear. Context makes
the difference clear. Here lies one
whose name was writ in bahasa.
Here are words I’ve said
in memory of her who I could
never speak to. Tjandra Sari,
I call you wrongly. Rend me
rightly. Rootless and unclear.
1/
Holy Man
Everywhere was coming down with Christmas, the streets
and window displays ethereal after rain, but what was it –
October? Maybe I’d been thinking about why I hated
Tibetan prayer flags and whether that was similar to how
I felt about Christmas: things become meaningless severed
from the body of ritual, of belief. Then I thought about
those who see kindness in my face, or see it as unusually
calm, which must have to do with that image of the Buddha
smiling. I turned off Regent Street and onto Piccadilly,
then down a side road by Costa to Jermyn Street, where
a man caught my eye as I was about to cross the road
and asked to shake my hand. You have a kind face, he said.
Really. He was wearing a diamond-checked golfer’s jumper
and said he was a holy man. As soon as he let go, he started
scribbling in a notepad, then tore out a sheet which
he scrunched into a little ball and pressed to his forehead
and the back of his neck before blowing on it – once, sharply –
and giving it to me. I see kindness in you, but also bad habits.
Am I right? Not drinking or drugs or sex, not like that, but bad
habits. 2020 will be a good year for you. Don’t cut your hair
on a Tuesday or Thursday. Have courage. He took out his wallet
and showed me a photograph of a temple, in front of which
stood a family. His, I think. A crowd of businessmen
flowed around us. Name a colour of the rainbow. Any colour,
except red or orange. He was looking to my right, at what
I thought could be a rainbow – despite the sun, a light wind
blew the rain about like scattered sand – but when
I followed his gaze it seemed to be fixed on either a fish
restaurant or a suit display, or maybe backwards in time to
the memory of a rainbow. Why did he stop me? I’d been
dawdling, staring at people on business lunches. Restaurants
like high-end clinics, etherized on white wine. I must
have been the only one to catch his eye, to hold it. What
colour could I see? I tried to picture the full spectrum
arrayed in stained glass, shining sadly, and then refracted
through a single shade that appeared to me in the form of
a freshly mown lawn, a stack of banknotes, a cartoon
frog, a row of pines, an unripe mango, a septic wound. I saw
the glen beside the tall elm tree where the sweetbriar
smells so sweet, then the lane in Devon where my dad
grew up, and the river in Riau where my mum played.
It was blue and yellow mixed, like Howard Hodgkin’s version
of a Bombay sunset, or pistachio ice cream; a jade statue
of the Buddha. I remembered being asked – forced – to give
my favourite colour by a teacher (why did it matter?),
which was the colour of my favourite Power Ranger,
of the Knight beheaded by Gawain, of the girdle given
to him by Lady Bertilak, and chose the same again.