The Message of the City. Patricia E. Palermo
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The shock of my life today. This little tiny constant pain in my heart, the X-ray and Dr. Witt says, is a tumor or cyst over it and between the lungs. Nothing to worry about, he says, just a question of waiting. And waiting for what? . . . Nothing to worry about! . . . I walked down Madison Avenue not looking in shops for the first time because I thought it extravagant to buy or even want things for so short a while. It doesn’t matter what the corpse wears. (69)
If the entry sounds self-pitying, the next one, four days later, says simply, “Finished play ‘Jig-Saw’” (69). Powell had taken no time off to lament: despite the terrifying news, the disciplined writer continued working. A few pages later, readers are treated to a taste of something quite different, one of countless examples of the “mirth” Teachout mentions:
To dinner at Catalan’s3 with Sue4 and Esther5—down under Brooklyn Bridge. Lots of fun with some men eager to be gay. One told me he ran a column. “Where? I’ll read it,” I said. “Don’t be silly, Baby, you never read a word in your life,” he said. In fact by his comments I judged I looked more a fine lay than an intelligentsia. He said to Sue, “You’re a waitress, aren’t you, sister?” and since anybody would rather look like a tart than a waitress Sue was secretly mad at me.6 (76–77)
Powell moves from one entry to the next with ease, one day wretched, the next joyous, sometimes a combination of the two, much as she moved from the tragedy of her own life to working on yet another comic piece. Richard Selzer, reviewing the Diaries in the Wilson Quarterly, praises her “intuition for the relationship between tragedy and folly” (77), as readers see in the following passage. Writing of an overly talkative woman whom she has just met at a cocktail party, Powell at first wishes “to escape the incessant bombardment of her chatter” (114), then softens at hearing of the woman’s insane son:
People were very gay. It was odd for two women in the middle of this confusion, sandwiches and martinis politely being passed . . . to find that strange bond in common—a 14-year-old only son—one 20 years ago and the other now—quivering on the brink of a nightmare future. I understood then her incessant gay chatter—for 20 years she had sparkled and chattered to drown the roar of her own tragedy, a little boy raving mad. (115)
The Diaries, widely varied in subject matter, mood, and tone as they are, provide a living, colorful portrait of Manhattan and its inhabitants, all its delightful multiplicity mirrored in the reach of the prose. That Powell could so easily in the space of a day or two move from paralyzing dread—“Fear is such an utterly disrupting force—fears of no publisher, fear of cringing once more before debtors, fear of being trapped in the Middle West again and dependent on relatives” (100) to the ludicrous: “At Lafayette, Berkeley Tobey,7 [age] 50, begged us to drink to Eloise, his very young wife, who is at last to have a baby. ‘Whose?,’ we all wondered, as we drank reverently” (100)—is remarkable and at the same time understandable. For Powell, as she said many times in her journals, “the oxygen of humor” (456) was the only thing that made life bearable.
Powell herself ruminated on the habit of diary writing in an entry of February 5, 1954:
Virginia Woolf’s diary. People keep diaries because they don’t enjoy exposing themselves in conversation and furthermore they trust no one to understand. As soon as a writer finds a group that does understand him he stops writing and starts hamming. In diaries, revealing the innermost soul, the entries stop when anything interesting happens or whenever the writer is happy. Diaries tell nothing—chips from a heroic statue. (335)
But Powell’s diaries reveal more than she knew, or more than she was prepared to say, as readers clearly see.
A brief, unsigned New Yorker review of the Diaries sums the volume up nicely:
Socialist theatre, all-night parties, advice-dispensing taxi drivers, perfume girls at Bergdorf’s: as a diarist, Powell was an urban magpie, and a little bit of everything ended up in her journals. They are also brimming with agonizings, professional and domestic, and razor-sharp remarks (“Lou feels that a cold wife who has a headache is a pure one, a high-class one.”) But, as much as anything, these diaries read like a love letter to the city itself. (120)
Yet for all their entertainment value, the diaries provide a view into the mind of the writer, concerned as they are with depicting “the lonely struggle of an artist driven to create” (Begley, 7). The Village Voice calls Powell’s Diaries not its favorite book of journal entries but its “favorite book about books” (“Our 25,” SS23). Still, not everyone praised them: the composer and diarist Ned Rorem, in an 1999 interview called “The Art of the Diary No. 1,” was asked whether he admired Powell’s diaries, which were located in plain view on his bookshelf. Rorem answered, “There are certain things I can’t get the point of. Bagels, for instance. Why do people like them? I can’t get the point of Berlioz. I can dislike a composer, while admitting what others see in him or her. But not Berlioz. Likewise Dawn Powell” (McClatchy).
Most other commentators disagree, among them Teachout, who says that, from the very first entry, the diaries are not only a pleasure to read but are in fact “a writer’s notebook, concerned less with earthshaking events and true confessions than with the raw material of what later became her novels” (“Far,” 4). And so I turn to them here, not only to be entertained, not only to learn about the life, personality, friends, and associates of the woman who wrote them, but to learn something about Powell’s creative process. The diaries, “an engrossing if painful account of a writer’s life” (S. Keen, 25), allow readers to observe the author as she plots and strategizes, includes and discards, works and reworks, writes and rewrites. For example, as Powell begins thinking about Turn, Magic Wheel, readers of the diaries can clearly see her thoughtful plotting of the novel, her testing out of the many scenes and sketches that she may or may not some day include in this book or the next, and events from her life that she later will transform into fiction.8
In “A Diamond to Cut New York,” a 1995 New Yorker article attributed to the long-deceased Powell, the unnamed columnist describes the included diary selections, which were chosen by Tim Page, as “vignettes of the bohemian low life and the literary high life, and evidence of how one woman managed to fit an entire city