The Second Baptism of Albert Simmel. Rodney Clapp
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“I have much to tell you,” Albert’s mother had written. “To be honest, I have something to tell you and much to explain . . .”
Albert had reread the note so many times he had it memorized. After discovering it and first reading it, he had somehow fallen asleep quickly. But he woke a few hours later, in the dead of night, after the alcohol’s effects had worn off. He ignited a candle and lay studying the message. She urgently wanted to see him. She wrote “in light of recent events.” He reasoned that his mother’s note, and the further information she had to convey, had something to do with the repeal of the National Anti-Natal Law. That was, after all, the most significant event of recent days. But then there was her confessional tone—“something to tell you and much to explain.” How could his mother be implicated in any of the woeful effects of that dark law? And what about such inconceivable complicity could cause Mother to owe him an explanation?
Mother Simmel, now in her mid-sixties, was a woman of indomitable character. Like Ray Simmel, she was a member of the generation that came to maturity in the early decades of the Age of the Descent. The parents of this generation had learned through hard experience that surviving in the new world, the world after cheap petroleum, would mean living without the vast array of creature comforts taken for granted before the Descent. Heat or refrigerated air with the flick of a switch, abundant food with no more effort than it took to lift hamburger from a supermarket freezer, frequent long-distance travel, endless hours of diversion via laptops or smart phones—all these were pleasures and securities no longer available, especially to subordinates. Ray and Alva Simmel grew up soaking in the common sub wisdom that the affluent inhabitants of the Western world during the twentieth and the early twenty-first centuries were both scoundrels and wastrels.
A century and a half was a short period in the span of human history. And in that brief interval the privileged masses had squandered fossil fuels that geology built up over millions of years. The squandrels (as these privileged masses came to be known during the childhoods of the elder Simmels) not only eviscerated the earth’s carbon-based guts but mowed down old-growth forests, decimated entire animal species, poked holes in earth’s atmosphere, and spoiled immense oceans with their garbage. It was as if reckless and hateful children threw a party and, once started, would not stop until they had destroyed the home that so generously enabled their revelry. They tore stuffing from all the furniture, filled bedrooms with trash, ripped up the floor and dug into the ground beneath it, heaping dirt throughout the house. They gouged light fixtures from the ceiling and overturned bookshelves and clogged the toilets and broke all the windows. Finally, when they had exhausted themselves and the creation that sustained them, when they had wasted what forebears handed down to them and cheated future ancestors out of their share, they called an end to the party. They and their likes died off without shame, pining for the profligate golden age and assuming, with the bitter pride of the frightened and angry elderly, that they had seen human civilization reach its summit. All that awaited the human race in their wake was reduction, diminishment, and humiliation.
So Ray and Alva Simmel were taught. With the squandrels as a moral foil, Ray and Alva and their peers learned to honor toughness and a self-sufficiency accompanied by concern for your neighbors’ welfare. They prized loyalty and living lightly on the earth. It was clear they would never have much, by way of money or material goods, to hand on to their heirs, so they expected the most valuable bequest they could leave their children was a good name and some semblance of a sustainable world.
Trying to fathom the motives of his mother’s note via what he knew of her character, Albert lay under candlelight until dawn’s first light was announced by noisy birdcalls in the trees just outside his window. He rose at 5:30 and set to work on assignments for his tutelary charges. Bulking up his students’ homework would allow him to depart them early, and arrive sooner at the meeting with his mother.
Al arrived in the city and attended to his tutoring duties. Then, the workday behind him, Al trained out of the city toward Mother Simmel’s neighborhood. Anxious and again attempting to divine the intent of her meeting, he found only bafflement. But reminiscence on her flinty and colorful character brought to mind one of his favorite incidents from her life, and he decided to indulge the memory of it as a diversion from the frustration at the failed anticipation of what his mother might have to tell him.
The incident had occurred in the third year of Alva’s widowhood. She had grieved Ray Simmel severely and, though she refused to move in with her son or close friends, admitted she was terribly lonely. To occupy herself across empty days, she enlarged her garden and, in season, spent many of her daylight hours seeding, cultivating, watering, and harvesting. In late fall and winter she knitted, endlessly supplying neighbors and their children with caps, sweaters, stockings, and blankets. She remained active with her church, but otherwise curtailed her social life. Then she began regular visits to and from a widower neighbor, Harold “Corky” Angleton. Alva had known Corky for years and always enjoyed his company. But now, in the changed marital circumstances of their lives, mild amusement and appreciation morphed into infatuation. It had been decades, a lifetime, since Alva had been “in love,” and she had thought the capability for it had passed with her youth. How was it, then, that she once more felt her heart leap when she heard a man’s voice, and focused on this man with her last conscious thought every night and her first thought every morning?
Corky himself was a bit of a bon vivant, overflowing with stories and a knack for turning the most mundane chore into a small adventure. Corky and Alva were both healthy and energetic, though each one had a significant handicap. For Corky, it was his eyesight—he was basically blind, sojourning now in a world of shadows and dim lights. For Alva, it was her hearing—she struggled to sustain conversation through a sonic murkiness of dull plinks and echoes, as if she were underwater. Typically, though, the couple suffered their impairments with humor, suggesting that with Alva’s eyesight and Corky’s hearing, they could get on just fine.
The most pleasing proof of their elegant complementarity occurred one evening in Albert’s presence. He, Corky, and his mother were dining at a restaurant when a tall, grandly stomached gentleman ambled up to the table and talked, familiarly, with Corky and Alva. It was clear from the gentleman’s demeanor and address—he called them “Corky” and “Alva”—that he knew them well. And that they should know him. But after a few minutes, it was just as clear to Albert that neither his mother nor Corky were sure who was visiting with them. Their laughter was forced, their agreement with his suggestions cautiously delayed, then greeted with over-eager enthusiasm once the suggestions appeared innocuous. If the visitor detected their struggle at recognition, he betrayed no hint of the detection. After five minutes he departed as amiably as he had arrived. Corky held his tongue until the gentleman’s voice faded into the distance, then he queried Alva: “Who was that man? What did he look like?”
“I don’t know,” she responded. “What did he say?”
It said much about Mother Simmel that she never complained about her ailments or limitations, that she laughed delightedly at her foibles when Al retold this and similar anecdotes. He loved her not least for her courage, for her strength in weakness.
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Alva Simmel ushered her son into her cozy apartment with maternal enthusiasm. Her head came no higher than his shoulder, and he braced himself for her hug—which was always accompanied by stinging slaps on his kidneys. After the painful administration of her affection, he unstiffened and kissed her on the forehead. She clucked approval. He could restrain himself no longer, and burst out, “Mother, what’s going on?” She took a step backward. It was her turn to stiffen. Recovering her sense of command, she ordered him to a seat in her parlor. She insisted that she prepare cups of tea before they began their talk.
Al seated himself on the front edge of a floral-printed couch. He heard her knocking about in the kitchen, occasionally sending forth perfunctory inquiries