and slate farmhouse of the most common sort, without even an awning, with a basement of bare earth and an attic carpeted with dust fallen from the sky. Isolated from the village, on the edge of Long Road, you’d think it’s abandoned, despite its vegetable garden and fence. The stable, the cowshed, and the hayloft in back under the green oaks and the big cedar, are all housed next to the pond in the same shed that leans slightly due to a landslide. This afternoon, after class with Miss Pearl, the reverend’s daughter, Katie and I explored the overgrown shores all the way to the forest where the water disappears, more and more dark. It’s surprising, a pond that doesn’t reflect the clouds; it was as if every schoolgirl who’d ever died of consumption, smallpox, or meningitis had dumped her inkwell into it. Katie started singing in her high-pitched voice. Based on all the swirls and bubbles, I think the carp and pike were following her all along the bank.
That first night when we went to bed in our new bedroom upstairs, the wind and rain whipped against our uncurtained window. We could hear the old roof groaning. A far-off cloud rumbled in the hills. Autumn was charged with electricity after a torrid end to summer. Lightning pulsed soundlessly in the distance. When the window lit up with a bluish glow, preposterous shadows roamed the ceiling and walls. With the covers tucked under my chin, I was paralyzed like a rabbit beneath a barn owl’s wings. Next to me I saw the shine of Kate’s open eye, her pupil black as a beetle. She wasn’t afraid. Katie was only afraid of herself.
Her slightly strangled voice scolded, “Don’t you ever sleep?” She started to laugh softly and then a sigh passed through her. “Do you know what they say in the village?” Without waiting, with her little girl’s eagerness, she invented for me the story of our haunted house. The former tenant of the farm, a certain Mr. Weekman, wouldn’t have anything to do with their father, Mr. Fox . . . At the first clap of thunder, I started to tremble like tree branches in a tornado. My sister, on the lookout, was silent. The beetles of her pupils ran back and forth across her face, which seemed to me at that moment pale as death. The son of the widow in High Point, a tall youth who’d come to watch us moving in, sitting on the roadside under the pretext of having brought us the keys of Mr. Weekman who had parted in a hurry with his horses and cows, found a way to take my sister’s side. He wanted to spare this darling the habit of big chores because of her fragile lungs. With his sealskin face, Samuel Redfield, the widow’s son, took the opportunity to tell her that the house was cursed, that it moved all by itself at night, with moaning and scratching on the walls and floor and some sort of floating lights or apparitions; the ex-occupant had to have been scared yellow several times before deciding to leave the place. And I, hardly more educated than our mother or even Old Billy the horse, laughed to the brink of tears. Those are the superstitions of the Iroquois, or the Scots, nothing more. That’s what I told myself at the beginning. A new house always makes you worry a little; you think about the people who lived and died there. The dead always outnumber the living, and if you could see them all, it would be dreadful, like the huddled crowds at the rodeo. A new house must be broken in like riding a bull or a wild horse so as not to be thrown off in eight seconds. Our father didn’t really seem to like it here. He came home later and later from the pastures or the bar, where he drank much more than he had before, and one could often hear him grumbling about who knows what. It was actually because of his reputation as a drinker that we’d had to leave Rapstown. Every drunk in the area was his friend. He couldn’t go anywhere without a cowboy grabbing him by the arm and leading him off for a drink. Here in Hydesville, based on what I could observe, it seemed like men were watched much more closely by their spouses or mothers, all those sanctimonious devotees of Reverend Gascoigne. The
Methodist church preached moderation in all things, that’s what I learned last Sunday. One shouldn’t be beholden to anyone, above all the seller of rum and whiskey, and we should love one another, that was the doctrine the pastor gave us to digest, always pointing his finger in the air, himself a widower with large coal-colored eyes. Sturdy in his boots, he wore starched collars and a black hat. When he speaks, you’d swear it was thundering. His eyes blaze and then flash with lightning. A magistrate who was ordering us all to hang wouldn’t sound any fiercer.
Miss Pearl, his daughter, in no way resembles her father, as blonde as he is dark-haired, all rose petals. Her hair, her lips, even her eyes gleamed like honey. But at eighteen, she doesn’t lack authority in the classroom: that’s because of the minister. It is said that her mother suffered from melancholy. Such a pretty word seems so innocuous. Could that be when, under the weight of being sad, one takes a kind of pleasure in one’s sadness? Just like how a drinker starts to acquire a taste for his misfortune. Yet Violet, the minister’s wife who was by turns elated and depressed, was found one winter morning in the pond. One night she threw herself in wearing just her nightgown, that’s what they say. Alerted by Samuel Redfield, the High Point widow’s son, stuttering with emotion, some hunters who headed for the woods didn’t take long to identify a human form. Mrs. Gascoigne lay suspended in the water under a pane of ice. Her gown had risen up to her face, leaving her naked like one of those large freshwater fish without scales. Lily Brown, the eldest of Miss Pearl’s pupils, told me that the minister was publicly accused of having lacked charity for the unfortunate woman. He had performed the act of repentance while preaching the Sunday after her burial. Then, having become easily offended over time, he turned against the faithful parishioners and began to threaten them with hell on Earth, the affliction of those without ideals, since eternal life begins at our birth. Every Sunday for months, Lily Brown claims, he threatened the entire village with damnation. That was his way of grieving. Finally one Sunday, terribly emaciated, his black hair standing up on his head and cheeks, he proclaimed the remission of sins, swearing that all men were resurrected in Christ.
We arrived in the village without knowing any of its dramas. But children are quick to reveal everything to you. Lily told me of the unfortunate Joe Charlie-Joe, the son of a former slave of a Mansfield ranch, who was hung from a great oak in Grand Meadow for taking a walk in the valley with the beautiful Emily. Before committing their crime, the lynchers would have obtained her vow that he had kissed her. If every stolen kiss of the young warranted the rope, there’d be none of us left to marry. It’s true, not everyone is black. The beautiful Emily Mansfield was full of remorse. Because of her, a black man hardly twenty years old went to heaven with a kiss for his last rite of Viaticum.
If my dear Lee had been a Negro, the people of Rapstown would’ve had more than one occasion to put a rope around his neck. Tears come now just from thinking of him. Lee and I had promised to write each other every day. My letters were scented with lavender and decorated with petals. I grew tired after a week: there was nothing in return, not a single word. I dream of Lee almost every night. How can I describe him? He’s blond and tan from the sun, with brown eyes, a spice-colored mixture. In my dream, we’re riding bareback on a blazing thoroughbred and, impossibly, both of us are holding on by its long mane as if seated side by side. The stallion gallops so fast that it catches up with the setting sun and, suddenly, as if our mount were disappearing into a precipice, it’s Lee metamorphosed in flight that I’m astride. I feel that soon, in a convulsion, we are going to melt into each other, rider and mount, and that we will reach the sun while crying out our joy. At that final moment, I wake up in a sweat with a feeling of happiness mixed with dissatisfaction. What could a dream like that mean?
Tonight the old bones of this house are creaking. Undoubtedly because of the north wind. The north wind seeps in between the boards in the walls and in the cracks in doors and windows, it rushes down the chimney flue. It also causes sudden death, they say. Especially in autumn. It’s the great sweeper away of leaves and souls. Disturbed by its howling, Katie talked in her sleep. She was saying something about a devil with a cloven foot. And then she started to sing in a soft funny voice:
Oh! it’s a boy!
Super! it’s a boy
It’s a leprechaun, it’s a demon!
