the past 15 years I have written several books with the help of the Beings of Light, something that also was part of my agreements. Writing this book, however, was quite different. I was not just meditating and letting words write themselves through me with the aid of the Beings of Light. This time, I’ve had to talk about my life in my own words -- about matters that were intensely personal. Fortunately, as in all I do I’ve still enjoyed a great deal of help from the Beings of Light as well as from angels in human form – Thank You, MaryAnn -- without which I would never have been able to complete this task.
It has been quite a challenge to steal time away from my family to write what I have considered, at times, a self-indulgent exercise. Then, as I tried to tell this story, I discovered a whole new set of obstacles. As often as I have read how difficult writing an autobiography is, it really never describes what happens when you try it yourself. Just as being a parent, grandparent, spouse, or senior citizen is never fully understood until one undergoes those experiences, so it is true here.
As I remembered my life and tried to tell my story as truthfully as possible, I came to realize that portraying the truth in a manner satisfactory for everyone involved in my life would be impossible. My tears, my pain, my joys, my sorrow all came from within me. Everyone who has contributed to my journey has been there to help me learn. Your contributions have been invaluable. My apologies in advance to anyone in these pages who may feel that I have not represented their influence and presence in my life as they might have wished.
This book in not an account striving for historical accuracy. In order to write as clearly and succinctly as possible, I’ve altered some timelines. Everything that is written here is something I’ve experienced, it may just not be presented in exactly the order that it occurred. Furthermore, I’ve chosen to omit some events and experiences because they were too personal to share and would have violated the privacy of others. Omitting them did not alter the main message that I’m trying to convey. I have also chosen not to name several people because I did not think that it would be fair or wise to do so.
I’ve come to understand that before we are born we all make agreements to meet here on this plane and help each other awaken to the Light. That is why I have chosen to call my story “Agreements.” It is also a way of honoring all those who chose to be part of my life helping me with my awakening process. I hope that I’ve contributed to their lives as well.
About my Story
When I first communicated consciously with the Beings of Light I was delighted -- and then terribly disappointed. I was disappointed because I assumed that once I shared with my friends and family what had happened that remarkable night, the world around me would instantly change and everything would be wonderful. However, this simply wasn’t how the program worked. It took years before I accepted that the changes would have to happen within me before life around me would begin to be wonderful. Opening to the Light could provide me with tools to aid me in the awakening process that would then bring about the internal, and ultimately the external, changes I desired.
Now, as I write this, I can say that most days, life is wonderful. Some days it is not. Awakening and opening to the Light is a process -- and I am still in process.
Parts of my story may seem fairly sensational. Other parts may seem as if I allowed my imagination to run wild. I assure you that this is often how it felt to me, too. It took me quite awhile to reconcile my experiences with the way I was accustomed to think about “reality.” This story is about my struggle to come to terms with those “extraordinary” experiences and accept that, maybe, what I always thought was “real” might have actually been the illusion -- and what I thought of as illusory was, in truth, more real.
Following my first profound encounters with the Light and the Beings of Light, why couldn’t I have accepted all that was happening as my new reality and just live happily ever after? Well, this isn’t what happened. After many years of helping others who have gone through similar journeys, I’ve realized that my difficulties were not unique. In fact, in the Eastern traditions, my path was rather ordinary!
But awakening to one’s Light is easier now than it has been in the past. We are living in the “New Age” now. What was difficult for me need no longer be as difficult for you. I hope my story will help you see that experiencing the Light in all its wondrous possibilities can happen to you as well, and possibly with greater ease!
Chapter 1
Setting the Stage
We make agreements before we are born. Most of us would love to think that we are these lovely little cherubs floating around in the ethers with not a thought or care, just waiting for our debut. Not true.
You see, prior to entry into human form, we are fully engaged with what we call our Totality. Some folks may call this our Higher Self, which directly links us to God. Our Totality consists of everything we have ever been or ever will be. It exists in all time and space and in no time and space; it is eternal. It is where we came from and where we will return. The term the Ascended Masters have given us for Higher Self is Totality. The term they have given us for God is Infinite Source. They have also taught us that whatever term resonates with you is the best term for you to use.
So, this little “cherub” is actually part of a Totality that has already been everywhere and done everything and is planning for this aspect of itself to return once again to this planet to honor its agreements.
The term most commonly used to describe this condition of “return” is reincarnation. Eastern religions describe the laws governing our reincarnation as the laws of karma. What the Masters have taught us is that we choose our karma. It is neither good nor bad. We decide our karmic agenda in conjunction with our Totality prior to birth. We consciously interact with this Totality and make agreements as to what karma we will experience. We also make agreements with everyone we will connect with prior to birth.
Why do we choose a particular karma? We choose our karma so that our life experiences can help us gain wisdom and knowledge so that we can gradually awaken. As we learn life’s lessons, we can become totally aware of why we are alive and who we really are. This act of waking up is often called enlightenment.
I’ve come to realize that a major motivation for me to wake up is my desire to release my need to suffer. The confusion, ignorance, fear, and discomfort that seem a natural part of life are something I have not enjoyed. As difficult as life can still be, the fact that I’ve “woken up” enough to know there is a better way, is quite helpful. I am grateful for every little bit I’ve learned as I’ve honored my agreements.
And I know enough now to know there is always a lot more to learn.
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I waited until the day of the formal surrender of Japan on September 2nd, 1945 before I reentered the human plane. But I didn’t miss out on the horrors of the war that was ended on that day. My current husband, Martin and I remember clearly working in the concentration camps in Europe to help people with their transitions. We were “disembodied spirits” with a very real purpose while we were awaiting re-entry. We were there to help.
It was a pretty grim job and left me with some bad memories that I wanted to forget once I was born. When Martin and I found each other, the memories flooded back in full and we knew it was time to heal them.
We did remember working closely with the Light of Infinite
