His behavior had changed from being shy and docile to energetic and obnoxious like Kiki. He also started sleeping in Kiki's bed and house. I think he sensed that he was gone and was missing him. I truly believe animals can communicate with each other. I feel like either part of Kiki's soul is living inside Spooky or that Kiki somehow told spooky to act like him in order to comfort me. His mannerisms are so much like Kiki that it was reminding me that Kiki is not totally gone. He is still living on through Spooky.
11/22/11
I was at work and it was getting towards the end of the day. I was looking at my calendar and I started doodling flowers around Kiki's name. I had marked the day that he passed away. I'm not sure why I did this, I just did. Then I picked up "High Desert Dog" magazine that was on my book self. I forgot it was there. The first page that I opened up and looked at was a page that Kiki was on. I had entered him into a contest the year before and he made it into the magazine. I looked at the picture closely; it was Kiki in his prime, surrounded by beautiful yellow flowers. I felt happy looking at him and I smiled. I felt like it was his way of saying hello.
When I got home, my roommate Val walked over to me and handed me a wooden box. It contained the remains of Kiki. I had him cremated and the vet's office said it would be at least another week until we received them. I was in shock but happy to get them sooner than expected. On the outside of the wooden box were engraved flowers, just like the ones in Kiki's picture. Of course, I cried. It was another message from Kiki. Then she told me he was cremated on Saturday around the same time that I felt the strange sensation of happiness. I believe that was the moment that Kiki's soul went to Heaven.
11/27/11
I received from the vet's office an ornament with Kiki's footprint. I didn't know that I would be getting this in the mail. I was surprised and very emotional. I started crying. I started looking through the rest of my mail and I noticed a catalog. I flipped through the magazine and I came across a book titled "All Dogs go to Heaven". The book is an inspirational book that has quotes. It states you will see your dog again in heaven. Then I glanced over to the left side of the book and saw a statue of a pug. I couldn't believe it. I felt like it was Kiki's or a guardian angel giving me a message that I will eventually see him again.
12/7/11
I was driving home from work and feeling sad about Kiki, I started crying while I was driving. Then a song called "Heaven" by the Psychedelic Furs came on the radio. I stopped my car at the light; there was a car in front of me. For some reason, I looked up at the license plate and the first letter was a K. Once again, I felt like this was a message from Kiki letting me know he is ok, happy and in Heaven. I looked over at the picture of him along with a small vial of his ashes that I keep hanging from my rear view mirror. I smiled and felt a little better. It seems every time I am extremely sad, he does something to cheer me up and make his presence known. When I got home that day, I was looking through a box of photos of Kiki. The first photo that I picked up was Kiki, surrounded by yellow flowers. It was the same picture that I had sent to the magazine about a year ago. I forgot it was in there. Once again I was amazed. It made me think that Kiki is happy and in a better place. This is probably how he looks now in heaven; young, beautiful, healthy, and pain free. He is probably playing on a cloud somewhere surrounded by flowers. I believe that was the message that he was giving me.
12/23/11 - Christmas Eve
I asked Kiki to come visit me on Christmas Eve or Christmas Day. I told him I missed him and it would be a wonderful gift he was able to do this.
I woke up suddenly at 5:29am from a deep sleep. My birthday is on 5/29. I felt the bottom of my bed move. Then I felt something pacing back and forth for fifteen minutes non-stop. I was a little scared at first, then I realized it must be Kiki saying hello. I used to make a big deal out of the holidays. I would always bring him presents and tell him it was Christmas Eve. It has always been a sentimental day for me because that is the last time I saw my mom before she passed away. If he had energy to come back and see me I believe he would have chosen this day.
Later that day, Val, Spooky and I were taking Christmas photos. When I looked at the photos, I saw two orbs. It looked like they were moving. One was next to me and another was next to Spooky. I believe it was Kiki and my mother.
12/24/11 - Christmas Day
Val took some photos of Spooky and I. An orb appeared near the right side of Spooky, who was wrapped in a blanket. That's what I used to do to Kiki when he was little. Every year I would dress Kiki up in a Christmas outfit and take his picture. I believe the orb was some form of Kiki's energy coming by to say hello and get his picture taken.
7/22/12
The following year I went to Flagstaff, Arizona. I was on my way to Sedona, Arizona so I could go visit Oak Creek Canyon. This is a very beautiful, spiritual, area. There is a stream where I scattered some of Kiki's ashes. Oak Creek Canyon is supposed to have natural healing waters. I was going to take Kiki there for Thanksgiving and put him in the water, but he passed away seven days before we could get there. My friend and I were staying at the La Quinta Hotel in Flagstaff, Arizona.
The most amazing thing happened to me there. It was about 3:30am. I had just dozed off to sleep, and then I felt a warm body press up against my stomach. This was on the left side of the bed. This is the area where Kiki used to sleep. I woke and glanced over and saw a partial apparition from the waist down. I knew instantly that it was Kiki. I saw his legs, tail, and part of his body. I tried to grab him and said "don't go". As I was trying to grab him, he dove under the blankets and disappeared. I felt him run to the edge of the bed and plop down. He used to always do this at home.
After he disappeared I felt the bed in front of me. The area in front of my stomach felt warm to the touch. It lingered for a few minutes. It felt warm as if something was lying next to me. This is where Kiki would sleep every night. I felt very emotional. I felt happy and sad at the same time. I started to cry. I was in shock that I just saw him but very happy that he came back to say hello. I was thinking about him earlier in the day and the day before. I wanted to go visit the area where I scattered his ashes.I was only about thirty minutes from the area. Since the rock formations and vortexes in Sedona hold on to so much energy, it only makes sense that Kiki's spirit absorbed this energy in order to manifest and appear to me that night.
There is a theory that ghosts come to people when they are sleeping. This is because the brain is the most active at this time and it is the most receptive to seeing an apparition or a visitation from the loved one that has passed on.
On my way home from Flagstaff, it started raining. My friend said to me maybe we will see a rainbow. As soon as we pulled off the highway entering Albuquerque, New Mexico, I looked over at the Sandia Mountains. There was a dark cloud hovering above. Then I noticed the most amazing rainbow. I felt it was a sign from Kiki. He was letting us know he is still around and in the cloud, probably running over the rainbow. The last few months, every time I would think of Kiki, I would look up at the sky and see something beautiful; whether it was a cloud, or just a simple ray of light I felt it was his way of showing me some beauty in the world. I believe he is my guardian pug Angel looking down and watching over me. I am not sure if he is able to visit me again but I know that life does exist after death. There were too many signs and messages that he gave me to discount it.
6/20/14
I was driving to work one morning and thinking about Kiki. Then I glanced over to my left, and I saw a truck that had a logo on the side of the door and it said "Kiki's Tree Service". I smiled. Then a little
