say to her
tell me why you love him
she was quiet
and then she told me
i do not love him
-darling
he cannot be
who you keep asking him to be
if at any point
you find yourself apologizing
for pulling away from him
please just leave him behind
-it is not your fault
you did not do
what you didnt want to do
who is it
that causes your nightmares
is it the same person
whom you greet every morning
-let go
you have no right to insult me
when you have no idea
who i am
or what i have been through
-my new self knows
that i should have left sooner
you lied to me
you knew the lyrics to my songs
and the name of this book
before anyone else
and all you did was lie
as i gave you every special piece of me
-as you read this book
know the reason i succeeded
was because you broke me
and i flourished
you didnt want to stay
no one ever does
but at least this time
he left before i fell in love
he says
i have never been a fan
of black nail polish
you know
it is quite funny
i have never been a fan
of any of your opinions
sometimes i wonder what she goes through
look in her eyes
how hurt she is
i try to talk to her
she doesnt hold onto anyone
not anymore
-i cant save her alone
it is my job
i am supposed to protect you
you say
i love you
on the phone
as you hold the gun to your soul
and ask permission
from me
to pull the trigger
-good friends who make bad decisions
you don’t notice
the wounds you open
of others
until they are bleeding
all over you
-selfish
she is trying to laugh more
she is trying to smile brighter
she is trying to be kind
it breaks my heart
i know her too well
to believe
that she is really happy
-her smile is wide
but her eyes are sad
you burn your lungs away
and you talk in horrible ways
of the people who try to love you
everyone is drowning in their feelings
while also
trying to seem
like they dont care at all
-no one knows
what they
are doing
you force your heart to beat
for all the wrong reasons
and all the wrong people
-when your heart sinks to the floor
every time he speaks
you dont love him
i refuse to believe
that if you wanted to be with me
you just would
maybe that desire is not enough
-how do I wait
never knowing
if you will come around
as I always do for you
i am the novel
the one you borrow dozens of times
you photograph
the
