the secondhand store on her own since the day her grandmother packed one shallow suitcase and booked a flight to Orlando, Florida, only a few months before. Her grandmother’s sister lived there in a condo in a retirement complex near a beach, along a street called Seashell Circle. “Now that Lily’s out of school,” her grandmother announced the night of Lily’s graduation in June, “you girls can look after yourselves.” Though Mabel and Lily were sad to see her go, they were mostly shocked to see her emerge from her room at all, let alone smiling and wearing a brand-new red dress. She also wore a Raquel Welch wig she’d ordered from an ad in a tabloid sometime before but never removed from its box. It was as if the undertaker had crept in with brush and makeup palette to make her grandmother look exactly as she had looked in life. For a long time, Mabel’s grandmother had been nothing more than a squeak of the floorboards and a thin stick of light beneath her shut bedroom door.
So Mabel took to the roads and salvaged anything she could from the old places, finding something to steal from even the emptiest of ruins—steam-heat radiators, cement gargoyles, the drawer pulls off built-in wardrobes, antique keys left in old locks. As the banks foreclosed on the area farms, rich people from town, the bankers and lawyers, bought the land for their dream houses and a few horses and maybe a Zen garden of fountains and imported rock. These people liked to fill their new luxury homes with artifacts of old farmhouses. They haunted the junk shop for doors of ornate woodwork or squares of stamped tin or ball-and-claw foot tubs.
Mabel loved her solitary drives across the counties, though all she had was a beaten-down Jimmy that frequently clunked to a complete stop on a back road. Deep in the country there wasn’t a junction every mile, and the highways, though marked on a map, were often nothing more than weed-choked paths of broken pavement that dead-ended no place special. In the daytime, Mabel didn’t mind the search for help. She’d jump a fence and cross a feedlot to drink from the pipe of a windmill. She’d watch the hawks circle then land in the trees planted for windbreaks at the edges of the fields. She’d eventually scare up a farmer who’d probably make fun of her lack of mechanical know-how, but the mocking was usually playful and flirty and Mabel enjoyed it. The fact was, Mabel had taken a few courses in mechanics from a community college, but she liked getting lost and needing help. She liked kicking up new people from a landscape so forsaken.
With Lily in her bedroom, Mabel returned to the fainting sofa. “Eat me,” Mabel mumbled, to Lily maybe or to no one in particular. “Bite me.” You’re much too easygoing, Mabel remembered her mother telling her, back when Mabel’s father was still alive. People will stomp all over you, if you’re not careful. What kind of a thing was that to tell an eight-year-old girl, Mabel now wondered. “Kiss my rosy red,” she said. She picked up a fedora from a hat stand, spanked off its dust, and put it on. Size 7
Jordan drove up just as all the old clocks for sale on the wall began their fractured chiming. “Anybody got the time?” Jordan said, smirking and stepping in. The shop’s light glinted on the key he wore on a shoestring around his neck. Mabel and Lily first met Jordan a year or so before when he’d come out to sell some torn-up Louis L’Amours. Mabel bought everything he brought out over the months. She paid much too much for the metal ribs of an old barrel and the red tailfin of a wrecked ’57 Chevy. Jordan’s teeth were already yellow and broken from too much nicotine and sugar, so he had a shy, tight-lipped smile Mabel and Lily both fell for.
He leaned over the back of the sofa and Mabel touched at the key swinging from the end of its string. “What’s that key to, anyway?” Mabel said.
“Some lock somewhere,” Jordan said, shrugging. “But I got this deal I’ve got to strike up with you. Think you’ll buy this?” He held out a silver egg-shaped container, and he twisted off its top to show her the green stains inside. He said, “In this, you’d cure your betel nuts in lime.”
“I don’t know,” Mabel said, suddenly tired of contemplating the price of junk.
Jordan set the betel-nut thing next to Mabel on the sofa, and he shouted out for Lily. He took a swig from a little bottle of Vicks Formula 44 he carried in his pants pocket. “Oh, Lily,” he sung out.
He loved Lily very much, Mabel knew, but Lily was devoted to no one in her life. She was only moved by the attention of strangers, particularly strange men in their late twenties, men who maybe had a divorce already, or at least some well-earned disillusion. Lily worked nights at the steak-house and days at the counter of a bakery in Bonnevilla. The bakery was across the street from a Texaco station and down the street from the police station and the library. Mechanics and cops and mustached librarians in tweed would come in to buy stale pastries at half price and to tease her about the coffee as black and nasty as bilgewater.
It did seem to Mabel, as she watched Lily come down the stairs, that Lily wore their father’s suicide almost seductively. Maybe the men sitting alone in the bakery, leaning in toward her as she poured her awful coffee, would smell her perfume, a perfume as uncomplicated, as unoriginal as White Shoulders, and remember some other’s throat, some other’s wrist. They’d notice her looking vaguely wrecked—her lipstick smeared a little or an earring gone or a button gone from her blouse—and these men would love her for a sadness they hadn’t caused.
Lily walked slowly down the stairs having put on a pair of white pumps too long in the toe and too high in the heel. Her dress was unzipped again, and she turned her back to Jordan without a hello. “Do me up, hon,” she said, and Jordan obliged, moving in close behind her, putting his lips to the skin of her shoulder as he zipped her dress. He noticed an insect on her neck, and he blew it away before kissing her there. The insect landed on the back of Mabel’s hand. It was a strange black ant with wine-colored wings that looked like ornate paper-cuttings. Mabel suspected these odd bugs, these winged ants and white bees she’d been noticing lately, were a result of the new genetically altered crops farmers were resorting to.
Lily winked at Mabel as Jordan kissed her, and she stretched her neck for more of Jordan’s affection. “I’m sorry we fought, Mabel,” Lily said, nearly whispering. “You’re welcome to hate me for the rest of the night, just don’t hate me forever.” Mabel often daydreamed of hating Lily forever. She wished she could sustain her anger the way Lily did, the way Lily might spend days not speaking because of some slight, shut up in her room with old Vogues and a handkerchief wrapped around her hot head as if she were convalescing. Lily had convinced herself that her pain was original, unique, unlike the pain endured by anyone anywhere in the history of time. Over the years, Mabel had tried to teach her otherwise by collecting short articles depicting worse tragedies from the back pages of the newspaper. She’d leave these clippings on Lily’s pillow, stories like the one about the girl who pushed her twin down an old well or the one about a woman who slowly poisoned her sister by stirring iron filings into her nightly cup of chamomile.
Lily unrolled the short sleeve of Jordan’s shirt to get at the pack there. “This is candy,” Lily said.
“Yeah,” he said, “I’m trying to quit smoking. But look here,” and he took one of the bubble gum cigarettes from the pack and held it to his lips. He blew into it and a dusting of fine, powdery sugar made a cloud. “Just like smoke,” he said.
“Where’s the car?” Lily said, waving her hand in the air, refusing the bubble gum. Jordan took Lily’s wrist, then Mabel’s, and led them out to the front porch. Beneath
