slanted her a wry glance. “You’re in the database, Erin, even if you’re not in the book. Anyone could find you.” He parked in front of the decaying facade of the Kinsdale Arms and killed the engine. “This place is grim. What happened to your apartment on Queen Anne?”
Another surprise. “How did you know about—”
“Ed bragged about you when you got that hotshot job at the museum and moved into your own place,” he said. “We all knew.”
She winced at his mention of her father, and stared down at her lap. “This place is cheaper,” she said simply. “Thanks for the ride.”
His car door slammed, and he followed her into the lobby. “I’ll walk you up to your apartment.”
“That’s not necessary, thank you,” she told him.
Her words were futile. He fell into step behind her as she started up the staircase. She had no idea how to deal with him. He was so stubborn and determined, and she didn’t want to be rude to him.
Six flights took forever, with his huge, quiet presence behind her. She stopped in front of her door. “Good night,” she said pointedly.
He stuck his hands in his pockets and stared down at her with unnerving intensity. “Erin. I really didn’t want you to get hurt.”
“I’m all right,” she whispered. It was a lie, but she couldn’t resist the impulse to comfort him. She’d always been a hopeless softie. She found herself staring at the hollows under his cheekbones. The sensual shape of his lips, bracketed by harsh lines. It had been so long since she’d seen his gorgeous, radiant grin.
The words flew out of her mouth. “Do you, um, want to come in?”
“Yeah,” he said.
Her stomach did a terrified back flip. She unlocked her door.
He followed her into her apartment. She flipped on the floor lamp she’d found at a rummage sale years ago, with a wicker laundry basket she had rigged for the lampshade. It cast a strange pattern of warm, reddish slices of light and shadow around the cramped room.
“It’s not much,” she said hesitantly. “I had to sell most of my stuff. Here, let me move this pile of books. Sit down. I can make you some coffee, or tea, if you’d like. I’m afraid I haven’t got much to offer in the way of food. A can of tuna and some toast, maybe. Or cereal.”
“I’m not hungry, thanks. Coffee would be fine.” He wandered around, studying her pictures, scanning the titles of the books piled against the wall with evident fascination. Edna jumped down from her favorite perch on the bookshelf and stalked over to investigate him.
Connor crouched down to pet her cat, and Erin hung up her jacket and put the kettle on. His eloquent silence unleashed too much dangerous speculation in her mind. She turned around.
The chitchat she’d been rehearsing froze in her throat. The raw force of his gaze sent a shock wave of feminine awareness through her. He was staring at her body, measuring her with intense interest. She felt naked in her jeans and T-shirt. “You’re thinner,” he observed.
Her instinct was to back away, but the sink was already pressed against her back. The room was terribly small with him in it. “I, uh, haven’t had much of an appetite, the past few months,” she said.
“Tell me about it,” he murmured.
Edna arched and purred beneath his hand, which was very odd. Edna was a nervous, traumatized ex-alley cat. She’d never let anyone but Erin touch her, and now look at her, flinging herself onto her back. Writhing with pleasure beneath Connor’s long, stroking fingers.
Erin wrenched her gaze away from the unsettling spectacle. “This has been the one time in my life I’ve managed to lose weight without trying,” she babbled. “And I’m too stressed out to enjoy it.”
“Why did you ever try? Your body is gorgeous.”
His tone was not flattering or flirtatious, just a flat request for information. “Well, I, uh…I’ve always been a little too—”
“Perfect.” He rose to his feet with sinuous grace, still studying her body. “You’ve always been perfect, Erin. You don’t need to lose weight. You never did. Try not to lose any more.”
She was completely flustered. “Ah…OK.”
A sweet, brief smile transformed his lean face as he sat down in the chair she’d cleared for him. Edna promptly leaped into his lap.
Erin scooped coffee into the filter with trembling hands. Busy, busy, busy—
“Erin, can I ask you something personal?”
Her skin prickled at his tone. “That depends on the question.”
“Last fall. At Crystal Mountain. That guy, Georg. Tell me the truth. Did you go to bed with him?”
She froze into agonized stillness, keeping her back to him. “Why does it matter to you?” Her voice was small and tight.
“It just does.”
His question brought all the burning shame rushing back. She turned, and lifted her chin. “If I say yes, that means you’ll lose all respect for me, right?” She flung the words at him.
“No,” he said quietly. “It means that when I hunt him down and start beating him to death, this time I’ll finish the job.”
The kettle began to warble. She couldn’t respond to it. She was paralyzed by the bleak intensity of his eyes. The warble rose to a shriek.
Connor jerked his chin toward it.
Erin grabbed the kettle with shaking hands. “I think you’d better leave,” she said. “Right now.”
Her voice sounded tight, breathless. Not authoritative at all.
Connor’s gaze did not waver. “You promised me coffee.”
His face was implacable. He would leave when it suited him, and not before. And she had no one but herself to blame for inviting him in.
Connor placed Edna gently on the ground. He got up and wandered over to her desk, studying the photos and cards pinned to the corkboard. The travel itinerary and the printed-out Mueller e-mail lay on the desk in plain view. He picked them up and examined them. “Going someplace?”
“Just a work thing.”
He frowned. “Didn’t you say you lost your job?”
“I work for myself now. I’ve started my own consulting business.”
“And you’re getting by?” His gaze swept the tiny, wretched room.
“I’m not supporting myself with my business yet,” she said stiffly. “I’m temping to make ends meet. But I have high hopes.”
He held the e-mail up to the light and read it.
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