She’d stitched the damned thing four months ago, right after getting fired from her job. She had been so angry, she could barely see straight, and the project had been an effort to channel all that negative, destructive energy into a positive direction. She’d written it off as a failed experiment, though. Especially since every time she looked at the thing she wanted to rip it off the wall and hurl it across the room.
Oh, well. It was the effort that counted. And she had to at least try to think positively. With Dad in jail, Mom crumbling in on herself, and Cindy acting out, she couldn’t afford one instant of self-pity.
She printed out Mueller’s e-mail and the e-ticket itinerary attached to it. First class. How lovely. Not that she would’ve minded economy. A Greyhound bus would’ve been fine. Hell, she’d have cheerfully agreed to hitchhike down to Silver Fork, but being pampered was such a balm to her bruised ego. She glanced around the water-stained walls of the dismal studio apartment, the single window that looked out at a sooty, blank brick wall, and sighed.
First things first. She grabbed her organizer, riffled through it until she found today’s To Do list, and added: Call temp agency. Call Tonia to feed Edna. Call Mom. Pack. She dialed the temp agency.
“Hello, this is Erin Riggs, leaving a message for Kelly. I won’t be able to make it in to Winger, Drexler & Lowe on Monday. I have a last-minute business trip tomorrow. I’m caught up on all the current case transcriptions, so all they’ll need is someone to cover their phones. Of course, I’ll be back in on Tuesday. Thanks, and have a nice weekend.”
She forcibly suppressed her guilt about missing a day’s work with no notice as she hung up the phone. Her fee for one of these consulting jobs equaled almost two weeks’ pay from the temp agency at thirteen bucks an hour. And wasn’t that what temping was all about? Less commitment from both parties, right? Right. Like one of those relationships where you were free to see other people. Not that she was an expert on those. Or any other kind of relationship, for that matter.
The easy-come, easy-go temp concept was hard to get used to. She liked to fling herself into her work and give two hundred percent. Which was why it had hurt so badly when they had fired her from the job she’d gotten out of grad school. She’d been the assistant curator for the growing Celtic antiquities collection at the Huppert Institute.
She had worked her butt off for them, and she’d done an excellent job, but Lydia, her boss, had trumped up an excuse to get rid of her during the media furor surrounding Dad’s trial. She claimed that Erin was too distracted by her personal problems to do her job, but it was clear that she considered Erin a liability for the museum’s image. Bad for future funding. “Unappetizing” had been the word Lydia had used, the day she’d fired her. Which, coincidentally, had been the same day that a pack of bloodthirsty journalists had followed Erin to work, demanding to know how she felt about the videos.
Those celebrated X-rated videos of her father and his mistress, which had been used to blackmail him into corruption and murder. The videos which, God alone knew how or why, were now available on the Internet for all to enjoy.
Erin tried to shove the memory away, using her shopworn sanity-saving mantras: I have nothing to be ashamed of; Let it go; This too shall pass…None of them worked worth a damn anymore, not that they ever had. Lydia had all but blamed Erin personally for the whole thing.
To hell with Lydia, and with Dad, too, for getting them into this sordid, public mess. Her anger felt like poison running through her body, making her guilty and sick. Dad was paying the highest price he could for what he’d done. Being sour and pissy wouldn’t change things, and she had no time to mope. Busy was better.
That phrase was another sanity saver. The best of the lot. It was dorky and uncool, but she was already a lost cause when it came to cool. Look up uncool in the dictionary, and you’d find a photo of Erin Riggs. Busy, busy, busy Erin Riggs.
She sharpened a pencil and crossed off Call temp agency. Sure, it was stupid to put items on her list just to immediately cross them off. Grasping for a cheap, fleeting sense of accomplishment. She didn’t care. Every little bit of accomplishment helped. Even the cheap kind.
Mom’s bills still headed the list. The scariest, most depressing item. She decided to stall for a couple more minutes, and dialed her friend Tonia’s number. Tonia’s machine clicked on. “Hi, Tonia? I got a last-minute job from Mueller, and I have to go to the coast tomorrow. Just wondering if you could pass by to feed Edna. Let me know. Don’t worry if you can’t, I’ll find another solution. Talk to you later.”
She hung up, her belly fluttering with anxiety as she gathered together Mom’s checkbook, bank statements, her calculator, and the stack of unopened mail that she’d collected from beneath the mail slot on her last visit home. Throwing away junk mail cut the pile down to half, but many of the remaining envelopes had FINAL NOTICE stenciled across them in scary red block print. Brrr. Special pile for those.
She arranged them neatly in piles. Unpaid property taxes, due months ago. Threatening letters from collection agencies. Past due mortgage payments. Past due phone bills. Medical bills. Credit card bills, big ones. A letter from the bursar’s office of Endicott Falls College, “regretting the necessity of withdrawing Cynthia Riggs’s scholarship, based on poor academic performance.” That one made Erin close her eyes and press her hand against her mouth.
Moving right along. No point in dwelling on it. Organization was calming. It put things in perspective. She piled collection agency letters in one pile, past due notices in another, and made three columns in her notebook: Urgently Overdue, Overdue, and Due. She totaled the sums, and compared it to what was left in Mom’s account. Her heart sank.
She couldn’t cover the shortfall in the Urgently Overdue column, not even if she drained her meager checking account dry. Mom had to get a job; it was the only solution, but Erin hadn’t had much luck even getting Mom out of bed lately, let alone out into the workforce.
But it was that, or lose the house she had moved into as a bride. That would push Mom over the edge for sure.
Erin let her face drop down against the neat piles of bills and fought the urge to cry. Sniveling was not constructive. She’d done enough of it in these past few months, so she should know. She needed fresh ideas, new solutions. It was just so hard to think outside the box, all by herself. Her tired, lonesome brain felt like it was padlocked inside a box. With chains wrapped around it.
This job from Claude Mueller was a godsend. He was a mysterious figure, a reclusive, art-loving multimillionaire, the administrator of the enormous Quicksilver Fund. He had found her in a random Internet search on Celtic artifacts, which had landed him on one of her articles, posted on the website she’d designed when she started her own consulting business. He’d begun to e-mail her, complimenting her on her articles, asking questions, even requesting a copy of her doctoral thesis. Oh, boy. The ultimate ego rush for an antiquities nerd like her.
But then he had asked her to come to Chicago to authenticate some new acquisitions, and he hadn’t blinked an eye at her fee. Or rather, his staff hadn’t. He had been in Paris at the time. She hadn’t met him on that or any of the three subsequent jobs, the fees for which had been providential. The first had paid for her move from the apartment on Queen Anne to this far cheaper room in the run-down Kinsdale Arms. The second and third, in San Diego, had covered the insurance deductibles of Mom’s recent medical bills. The Santa Fe job had paid two of her mother’s past due mortgage payments. And this one, hopefully, would almost cover the Urgently Overdue column.
Working for Mueller had been so dignified. First class, all expenses paid. It had been lovely to be treated with deference and respect. Such a pleasant
