monstrous, something hideous. Something…hungry.
Then a hairy, jointed leg extended delicately, prodding with its hooked claw. The chittering rasp grew louder.
Sean’s heart thudded, but he couldn’t run. He leaned down to grab the first boulder heaped on his brother, and the thing burst from its hole, eyes glittering, barbed feet slashing at Sean’s face like whiplashes—
Sean jolted bolt upright, gasping for air. Heart racing. Gasps racked his torso, as if he’d been sprinting. The dreams about his lost twin had been getting more frequent, more intense. He was zonked out from sleep deprivation. As if it wasn’t enough for them to deal with, the fallout they’d worked through together from that horrific encounter with the mad psycho scientist Christopher Osterman. They’d been supremely lucky to get through that with their lives and their sanity intact. More or less.
They’d been doing better. Convinced they were through the worst of it. And now, here he was. Tormented by fucking nightmares again.
Liv stirred, lifted her head. She shoved fuzzy, sleep-snarled dark curls back from her face. She touched his shoulder, in silent question.
“Shit. Sorry I woke you.” He hardly got the words out, his chest jerked so hard.
Liv sat up, curling her legs up, and putting an unconscious hand over her pregnant belly. “Another dream? Same one, I take it?”
His shoulders jerked in assent, and he hunched. Trying to hide, like a turtle in his shell. “I got farther into the cave this time.”
“Ah. That’s good.”
A harsh laugh jerked out of him. “Oh, yeah? Is it?”
She shrank from his ugly tone. “Sorry. Just said that, you know. To say something.”
He kicked himself. “I’m the one who should be sorry. I shouldn’t snarl at you.” He forced himself to go on. “I saw him, this time.”
She didn’t even have to ask who. “And? How was it?”
He let out an explosive sigh. “Bad. He was blindfolded. Laid out on a stone altar. Covered with a pile of boulders. Staked out in front of the lair of some gigantic insect. Could I dream up anything worse?”
“I see.” She had that careful voice his brothers used. Talking Sean down out of his freakout. Let’s scrape Sean off the ceiling again.
He hated it from Con and Davy. He hated it from his wife, too.
“Sounds like a picture on a Tarot card,” she commented. “How did you know it was Kev, if he was covered with rocks and blindfolds?”
“I just knew. You know how it is in dreams.”
“Yeah.” Liv dropped a kiss onto his shoulder. “Hey. Sean? Have you considered that these dreams might not be about Kev at all?”
“What do you mean? Who else could they be about?”
He could feel her caution, how she chose her words carefully, so as not to set him off. It made his teeth grind. “It’s been about four months since you started having these dreams,” she began.
“No,” Sean said. “I’ve had these dreams for eighteen years, Liv. Ever since Kev disappeared. And when we found out it wasn’t him, in the grave…” He shrugged. “I know he’s not dead.”
“I know. But nightmares where you wake up screaming? These are new.” She kissed his shoulder again. “I feel compelled to point out to you that they started right about when I found out that I was pregnant.”
He went rigid. “You think this is about that?” His voice was so tight, it felt like his throat would implode.
“Don’t be mad. Please, consider it. I’ve read that images in dreams are self-referential. Whoever you dream about, and whatever they do, it’s mostly about you. Your own feelings, your own issues.”
“Maybe for most people, but not these dreams,” he said.
“No? Why not?”
“For a lot of reasons!” He stopped, tried to modulate his voice. “Kev woke me up when Gordon kidnapped you. He stopped me from walking off a cliff. That’s not fluff crap about my issues, Liv!”
“I never said it was fluff crap,” she said quietly. “But couldn’t those incidents have been you all along? Your own awareness, your own intelligence? Just using Kev’s image to get your attention?”
“No.” His rejection of the idea was violent and absolute. “It is not.”
“Sean, please. I just want you to—”
“You think I’m scared because we’re having a kid?” His voice cracked. “You think I’m freaked out by fatherhood, Liv? That I consider myself buried under a ton of boulders? What does that make you in this dream? The monster? A giant bug who eats her mate? Jesus, Liv! What kind of coward wuss do you take me for?”
She pulled her hands away. “Well. I guess you’re a whole lot braver than me, then.” Her voice was clipped. “I’m certainly afraid. I keep having dreams that I’ll leave the baby at a public bathroom, or the seat of a city bus. But that just means I’m a cowardly wuss, hmm?” She swung her legs over the side of the bed. “Fine. Whatever.”
Sean lunged, grabbing her waist and wrapping his arms above her baby bulge before she could slide off the bed. “No. Stop.”
“You stop.” She batted at his arms, and he could feel the anger, but he just held her there, in a steely grip, taking care not to put any pressure on that precious bump.
She could pick and pry and pummel him to her heart’s content, but he wasn’t letting her go. No way. He knew what was good for him.
She finally gave up, with a sharp sigh of irritation. He took that as a cue to drag her back onto the bed, pulling her down, and rolling her over so her stiff, resistant body faced his.
He pressed his face against her throat, dragging in her sweet, hot scent of her skin, the silken tickle of her hair. “Please, don’t be mad at me,” he said, his voice muffled against her. “I can’t take that, too.”
He held onto her with all his strength. After a few minutes, she relaxed, with a shuddering sigh, giving in. She wound her fingers into his hair, which had grown into a shaggy mop almost to his shoulders.
“You piss me off,” she said, petting him. “You big, rude jerk.”
“I know. I’m sorry.” He lifted his head, fixing her with a pleading gaze. “But that guy in my dream? He’s not me, babe. I swear.” She opened her mouth, but he cut her off. “And I’m not scared about the baby. Really. At least not any more than a normal guy would be.”
Her eyes narrowed. “And what would you know about normal?”
“You have a point,” he conceded, wiggling down the length of her body until he could press his face against her belly. It was something he loved to do. Just lie there, feeling the little flutters against his cheek. It gave him
