right?”
“The Slugs hat and sweatshirt?”
“Dead giveaway.” He smiled, slow and sexy, his white, even teeth gleaming in the porch light’s glow. She stared at him, thinking that he really was a hot-looking guy, with those killer blue eyes, a shadow of beard scruff on his sculpted jaw and that thick, unruly dark blond hair.
And what were they talking about?
Farming. Right. “Our farm has been in the Bond family for generations. My dad and mom were a true love match, mutually dedicated to each other, the farm and to me, their only child. All my growing-up years, the plan was for me to work right along with them, and to take the reins when the time came. But then, when I was nineteen and in my first year at Santa Cruz, my mom died while driving home from a quick shopping trip into downtown Astoria on a gray day in February. Her pickup lost traction on the icy road. The truck spun out and crashed into the guardrail.”
Matthias didn’t even hesitate. He reached out between their two chairs, clasped her shoulder with his large, strong hand and gave a nice, firm squeeze. They shared a glance, a long one that made her feel completely understood.
His reassuring touch made it all the easier to confess, “I have a hard time now, at the farm. It’s been six years since my mom died, but my dad has never really recovered from the loss. I guess, to be honest, neither have I. After college, I just wanted something completely different.”
“And now you run a restaurant.”
“The chef would disagree. But yeah. I manage the waitstaff, the hiring, supervising and scheduling, all that.”
He shifted in the hard chair, wincing a little.
“Your leg is bothering you,” she said. “We should go in.”
“I like it out here.” He seemed to be studying her face.
“What?”
“I like you, Sabra.” From the snow-covered trees, an owl hooted. “I like you very much, as a matter of fact.”
A little thrill shivered through her. She relished it. And then she thought about James. She’d almost married him less than a week ago. It was turning out to be much too easy to forget him.
“What’d I say?” Matthias looked worried.
“Something nice. Too bad I’m not looking for anything remotely resembling romance.”
“It’s not a problem,” he said in that matter-of-fact way of his. “Neither am I.”
She felt a flash of disappointment, and quickly banished it. “Excellent. No romance. No...fooling around. None of that. We have a deal.”
He nodded. “Agreed. And I sense a story here. You should tell it to me.”
“Though you won’t tell me yours?”
“I’m sure yours is more interesting than mine.” Again, he shifted. His leg hurt. He just refused to admit it.
“I’m braver than you, Matthias.”
He didn’t even try to argue the point. “I have no doubt that you are.”
“I’ll put it right out there, tell you all about my failures in love.”
He looked at her sideways. “You’re after something. What?”
She laughed. “I’m not telling you anything until you come back inside.”
In the cabin, they hung their coats by the door. Matt took off his boots and settled on the sofa with his bad leg stretched out.
“You want some hot chocolate or something?” she offered.
Was she stalling? He wanted that story. He gestured at the armchair. “Sit. Start talking.”
She laughed that husky laugh of hers. The sound made a lightness inside him. She was something special, all right. And this was suddenly turning out to be his favorite Christmas ever.
She took off her own boots, filled his water glass for him and put another log on the fire.
Finally, she dropped into the brown chair across the coffee table from him. “Okay. It’s like this. I’ve been engaged twice. The first time was at Santa Cruz. I fell hard for a bass-playing philosophy major named Stan.”
“I already hate him.”
“Why?”
“Was he your first lover?” As soon as he asked, he wished he hadn’t. A question like that could be considered to be crossing a certain line.
But she didn’t seem turned off by it. “How did you know?”
“Just a guess—and I’m not sure yet why I hate him. Because I like you, I think, and I know it didn’t last with him. I’m guessing that was all his fault.”
“I don’t want to be unfair to Stan.”
Matt laughed. It came out sounding rusty. He wasn’t a big laugher, as a rule. “Go ahead. Be unfair to Stan. There’s only you and me here. And I’m on your side.”
“All right, fine.” She gave a single, definitive nod. “Please feel free to hate him. He claimed to love me madly. He asked me to marry him.”
“Let me guess. You said yes.”
“Hey. I was twenty-one. Even though losing my mom had rocked the foundations of my world, I still had hopes and dreams back then.”
“Did you move in together?”
“We did. We had this cute apartment not far from the ocean and we were planning an earthcentric wedding on a mountaintop.”
“But the wedding never happened.”
“No, it did not. Because one morning, I woke up alone. Stan had left me a note.”
“Don’t tell me the note was on his pillow.”
Stifling a giggle, she nodded.
“Okay, Sabra. Hit me with it. What did the note say?”
“That he couldn’t do it, couldn’t marry me. Marriage was just too bougie, he wrote.”
“Bougie? He wrote that exact word?” At her nod, he said, “And you wondered why I hate Stan.”
“He also wrote that I was a good person, but I didn’t really crank his chain. He had to follow his bliss to Austin and become a rock star.”
“What a complete douchebasket.”
“Yeah, I guess he was, kind of.”
“Kind of? People shouldn’t make promises they don’t mean to keep.”
Sabra sat forward
