his fault.”
Jessi knew from experience how devastating some family issues could be. But with the hurricane that had just gouged its way up the coast, her work schedule at Scott’s Memorial had been brutal. The shortage of ER doctors had never been more evident, and it had driven the medical staff to the brink of exhaustion. It also made her a little short on patience.
And now her daughter had lost the only doctor she’d seemed to bond with during her hospitalization.
Jess had hoped they’d finally get some answers about why Chelsea had spiraled into the depths of despair after coming home—and that she’d finally find a way to be at peace with whatever had happened in that squalid prison camp.
That tiny thread of hope had now been chopped in two. Anger flared at how easy it was for people like Dr. Cordoba to leave patients who counted on him.
Not fair, Jess. You’re not walking in his shoes.
But the man wasn’t walking in hers, either. He hadn’t been there on that terrible day when her daughter had tried to take her own life.
She couldn’t imagine how draining it was to deal with patients displaying symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder on a daily basis, but Jessi had been handed some pretty awful cases herself. No one saw her throwing in the towel and moving on to some cushy private gig.
Maria came around the desk and touched her arm. “Her new doctor is one of the top in his field. He’s dedicated his life to treating patients like your daughter—in fact, he transferred from California just to take over Dr. Cordoba’s PTSD patients. At least until we can get a permanent replacement. He’s already been to see Chelsea and reviewed her chart.”
Top in his field. That had to be good, right? But if he was only temporary …
“What did he think?”
This time, the nurse wouldn’t quite meet her eyes. “I’m not sure. He asked me to send you to his office as soon as you arrived. He’s down the hall, first door on your left.”
Dr. Cordoba’s old office.
The thread of anger continued to wind through her veins, despite Maria’s encouraging words. This was Chelsea’s third doctor. That averaged out to more than one a month. How long did this newest guy plan on sticking around?
A sudden thought came to her. “How did the hospital find this doctor so quickly?”
“This is what he does. He rotates between military hospitals, filling in …” The sound of yelling came from down the hallway, stopping Maria’s explanation in its tracks. A woman headed their way, pushing a wheelchair, while the older gentleman in the seat bellowed something unintelligible, his fist shaking in the air.
“Excuse me,” said the nurse, quickly moving toward the pair. She threw over her shoulder, “Chelsea’s doctor is in his office. He’s expecting you. Just go on in.” Her attention shifted toward the agitated patient. “Mr. Ballenger, what’s wrong?”
Not wanting to stand there like a gawker, Jessi stiffened her shoulders and headed in the direction Maria had indicated.
First door on the left.
All she wanted to do was skip the requisite chit-chat and go straight to Chelsea’s room. But that was evidently not going to happen. Not until she met with the newest member of Chelsea’s treatment team.
Feeling helpless and out of control was rapidly becoming the norm for Jessi. And she didn’t like it. At all.
She stopped in front of the door and glared at the nameplate. Dr. Cordoba’s credentials were still prominently displayed in the cheap gold-colored frame. The new guy really was new.
Damn, and she’d forgotten to ask the nurse his name. It didn’t really matter. He’d introduce himself. So would she, and then he’d ask her how she was. That’s what they always did.
Tell the truth? Or nod and say, “Fine,” just like she did every other time someone asked her?
She lifted her hand and rapped on the solid wood door.
“Come in.” The masculine drawl coming from within was low and gruff.
The back of her neck prickled, the sensation sweeping across her shoulders and down her arms, lifting every fine hair in its path. If she had to pick a description to pair that voice with, she’d say impatient. Or sexy. Two words you didn’t want associated with an army psychiatrist. Or any psychiatrist, for that matter. And certainly not one charged with her daughter’s care.
He’s probably fat and bald, Jess.
Comforted by that thought, she pushed the lever down and opened the door.
He wasn’t fat. Or bald.
His head was turned to the side, obscuring most of his face, but the man seated behind the gray, military-issue desk had a full head of jet-black hair, the sides short in typical army fashion, while the longer top fell casually across his forehead. Jessi spied a few strands of gray woven through the hair at his temple.
He appeared to be intently studying his computer screen. Something about his profile tugged at her, just like his voice had. She shook off the sensation, rubbing her upper arms as she continued to stand there.
He had to be pushing forty, judging from the lines beside his eyes as well as the long crease down the side of his left cheek. The result of a dimple utilized far too many times?
Something in her mind swirled back to life as if some hazy image was trying to imprint itself on her consciousness.
“Feel free to sit,” he said. “I’ll be with you in a minute.”
She swallowed, all thoughts of new doctors and balding men fading as worry nibbled at the pit of her stomach. Was something wrong with Chelsea? She tried to open her mouth to ask, but the words were suddenly stuck in her throat. Maybe that’s why Maria wouldn’t quite meet her eyes. Had Chelsea made another suicide attempt? Surely the nurse would have said something had that been the case.
Pulling one of the two chairs back a few inches, she eased into it, her gaze shuffling around the room, trying to find anything that would calm her nerves.
What it landed on was the nameplate on the doctor’s desk. Not Dr. Cordoba’s. Instead …
Jessi froze. She blinked rapidly to clear her vision and focused on the letters again, sliding across each one individually and hoping that an a would somehow morph into an e.
Her gaze flicked back to the portion of his face she could see. Recognition roared to life this time.
She should have realized that prickling sensation hadn’t been a fluke when she’d heard his voice. But she would never have dreamed …
Images of heated kisses and stolen moments in the grass beside the creek near her high school flashed through her head.
God. Clinton Marks. A ghost from her past … a rite of passage.
That’s all it had been. A moment in time. And yet here he was, sitting across from her in living color.
