away, his eyes always moving. Always watching. Cruz adjusted his grip on the six-foot hack rein and willed his racing heart to slow to a steady beat. On the count of three he nodded to the gateman and the chute opened.
High Wire bolted from the enclosure. His back legs extended and Cruz pitched forward but managed to mark out despite the awkward position. Saddle-bronc busting was akin to ballet and Cruz had been born with balance and rhythm. Unlike the other rodeo events, saddle bronc relied less on strength and more on timing and finesse.
Unbeknownst to High Wire, Cruz took control of the ride. With each buck he leaned forward straight up the bronc’s neck to the rigging, then right back down. No jerky movements. He squared his shoulders and held his free arm high and steady.
When the buzzer sounded, the roar of the crowd threatened to disrupt Cruz’s concentration and he doubled down, putting in extra effort while he waited for the right opening to dismount. The opportunity came and went and Cruz remained on High Wire. A part of him didn’t want the ride to end. If he could have stayed on High Wire the rest of his days he might have found his utopia. But that was not how a convict’s life worked—he didn’t get to make the calls.
High Wire was tiring—the bronc had been through enough for one day and Cruz launched himself off the animal. He hit the ground and rolled, coming to his feet in one fluid motion. He retrieved his hat from the dirt, then waved it at the crowd.
One ride down. Two to go.
Then he could get on with the rest of his life—wherever that took him.
On a Monday afternoon in mid-May, Cruz clutched the plastic bag that held his few belongings and waited for the prison guards to buzz the tower. The massive gates yawned open and he walked away from the hellhole that had been his home for far too long.
Ignoring the clanking sound of the iron bars closing behind him, he breathed deeply, filling his lungs with hot, dusty air. Crazy, but he swore the oxygen in the parking lot smelled a whole lot sweeter than it did inside the prison yard behind him.
Let it go, man. You’re thirty-one years old. The best days are yet to come.
From here on out whatever road he traveled would be better than the one he’d been on for over a decade. He shoved his hand inside his pants pocket and clutched the fifty dollars in gate money and the bus ticket to Las Cruces. The Greyhound passed by the prison three times a week. He had fifteen minutes to make the half-mile walk to the highway and catch the bus. But damned if he could get his feet to move. He checked over his shoulder. The guards stood sentry, their faces expressionless. The gray-bar hotel sucked the life out of everyone who worked or lived within its walls.
His cell mate, Orlando, had been in and out of prison most of his adult life and had warned Cruz that he might freeze up on the outside. Cruz had hated prison with every fiber of his being but it had been predictable—even comfortable in a perverse way. He’d been told what to do, how to do it and when to do it for the past 4,326 days. There was no one on this side of the wall instructing him to do anything. From now on every decision was in his hands.
“Need a lift?”
Cruz’s heart jumped inside his chest but not a muscle twitched—years of bracing himself for an unexpected attack had taught him to control his body’s reactions. It took only a few seconds for the familiar voice to register, then Cruz relaxed. Riley Fitzgerald. He grinned at the former world-champion saddle-bronc rider—the only man who’d ever tried to make a difference in Cruz’s life.
“Considering where you just came from, you look good.” Fitzgerald clasped Cruz’s shoulder and gave him a hug. The last hug he’d received had been from Maria Alvarez, Fitzgerald’s wife and Cruz’s former high-school teacher, after he’d passed the tests required to earn his GED. She’d been proud of him that day—too bad he’d let her down. “How’s Maria?” She and Fitzgerald ran the Juan Alvarez Ranch for Boys outside Albuquerque. The ranch had been named after Maria’s deceased younger brother, who’d been killed in a gang shooting when he was a teen.
“Maria’s fine. She’s eager to see you.”
Cruz wasn’t ready to socialize with people. Not yet. Not until he grew acclimated to life outside of prison.
“There’s a job waiting for you at the ranch,” Fitzgerald said.
“What kind of job?”
“Counseling troubled teens.”
Cruz had spent more than a decade behind bars and the experience had left him jaded. He was the last person who should mentor gangbangers.
“Thanks, but I’ll pass.” Last week Cruz had met with his parole officer and had been handed a laundry list of do’s and don’ts—the most important being that he stay the hell away from Albuquerque and gangs. Fine by him. There was nothing left in the barrio but bad memories. Cruz was free to move about the state as long as he reported in to his parole officer on a weekly basis.
“What are your plans?” Fitzgerald asked.
“I don’t have any yet.”
“We both know what you’re qualified to do.”
Rodeo. Cruz had promised himself that when he left prison he’d never ride again. What had once been a dream—becoming a world-champion saddle-bronc rider—had been stolen from him the moment the gun had gone off in his hand.
He’d had a hell of a rodeo run in prison and his prowess in the saddle had earned him the respect of the inmates and guards and those living in the surrounding community. But no matter how accomplished he’d become, he was still a felon cowboy and his victories were tainted.
“I’ve had my fill of rodeo,” Cruz said. All he wanted now was to be by himself and reclaim the sense of peace that had been ripped from him when the judge had handed down his sentence.
“If you won’t accept the job then you’re going to need these.” Fitzgerald dropped a set of keys in Cruz’s hand.
“Shorty wanted you to have his wheels.” Fitzgerald pointed to an older-model red Ford parked next to a Dodge Ram with a man sitting in the front seat—probably an employee from the ranch.
Before Cruz found his voice, Fitzgerald said, “I’d better get on the road. We have a group of boys arriving in a few days and Maria’s got me busy until then.” He shook Cruz’s hand. “I’ll tell her that you’ll visit soon.”
When Fitzgerald reached his vehicle, Cruz called out, “You hear much from Alonso or Victor these days?”
“Come out to the ranch and Maria will fill you in on the guys.” Fitzgerald hopped into the Dodge and drove off, leaving Cruz alone.
Alone was good. Alone was his normal. Even among the thousands of prisoners he’d lived with daily, he’d always been alone.
He stared at the Ford. The sun glinted off the shiny paint, highlighting minor dings and scratches on the doors. Fitzgerald must have run the pickup through a car wash on the way to the prison. As he crossed the lot an image of Shorty popped into his head—gray hair, scruffy beard, bow-legged and cheek swollen with chewing tobacco.
