ducked her head, suddenly shy. She wasn’t used to talking about her accomplishments; so often they went unrecognised, by her Council, at any rate. ‘A bit. I’ve introduced some new policies to protect women’s rights. I’ve initiated a review of the national curriculum for primary schools. The education in Thallia has been one of its weaknesses.’
Khalil nodded, encouraging, and shyly Elena continued, ‘I also helped to start an annual festival to celebrate the country’s music and dance. It’s a small thing, but important to our heritage. Thallia is named after the muse of poetry, you know.’
‘I didn’t know.’ His eyes, Elena saw, crinkled when he smiled. She looked away.
‘I know it doesn’t sound like much.’
‘Why belittle yourself or what you’ve done? There are enough people to do that for you. I’ve learned that much.’
‘We’ve both persevered,’ Elena said quietly. She met his gaze and held it, feeling an overwhelming solidarity with this man who had once been her enemy. They were so alike. He understood her, and she understood him, more than she’d ever expected.
‘And this Markos,’ Khalil said after a moment. ‘He has that power—to call such a vote?’
‘Unfortunately he does. Our Constitution states that the monarch cannot enact a law that isn’t approved by the majority of the Council, and the Council can’t pass one that isn’t endorsed by the King or Queen.’ Elena gave a rather bleak smile. ‘But there’s one important caveat: if the Council votes unanimously, the monarch is forced to acquiesce.’
‘Even to your own demise?’
‘That hasn’t happened in a thousand years.’ She looked away then, afraid he’d see the fear and shame on her face: the fear that she would be the one to end it. The shame that she wasn’t strong enough to keep her crown or the promise she’d made to her father as he’d lain dying.
For Thallia, Elena. You must live for Thallia and the crown.
‘You won’t be the one to end it, Elena,’ Khalil said quietly. The certainty in his voice made her glow inside. ‘You’re too strong for that.’
‘Thank you,’ she whispered.
‘You have a lot of pressure put on you, for such a young woman,’ Khalil continued. Elena just shrugged. ‘You are an only child, I presume? The title has always fallen to you?’
‘Yes, although for most of my childhood my parents hoped for more children.’ Her mouth twisted downwards. ‘For a boy.’
‘And they were disappointed, I presume?’
‘Yes. My mother had many miscarriages, but no more live children.’
‘A tragedy.’
‘Yes. I suppose it’s why they felt a need to keep me so sheltered. Protected.’
‘You were doted on?’
‘Not exactly.’ She thought of how little she’d actually seen her parents. ‘Kept apart, really. I didn’t go to formal school until I was thirteen.’ When she’d been gawky, overwhelmed and terribly shy. It hadn’t been a great introduction to school life.
‘And then you became Queen at a young age,’ Khalil continued. He reached over to refill her glass with wine. Elena had already finished her first glass; Dutch courage, she supposed, for when she’d been telling him all that truth. She took another sip of wine now as she met his tawny gaze.
‘Nineteen,’ she said after she had swallowed, felt the liquid slip down her throat and steal seductively through her again.
‘I know your parents died in a terrorist bombing,’ Khalil said quietly. Elena nodded. She dreaded talking or even thinking about that awful day, hated the memories of the acrid smell of smoke, the stinging pain of broken glass on the palms of her hands, the ringing in her ears—all of it still causing her to wake up in an icy sweat far too many nights.
‘I’m sorry,’ Khalil continued. ‘I know what it is to lose your parents when you are young.’
‘Yes, I suppose you do.’
‘You must miss them.’
‘I do...’
Khalil cocked his head. ‘You sound uncertain.’
‘No, of course not.’ Elena bit her lip. ‘It’s only that I didn’t actually know them all that well. They were away so much... I miss the idea of them, if that makes sense. Of what—what I wish we could have been like as a family. That probably sounds strange.’
Khalil shook his head. ‘Not strange at all,’ he answered quietly, and Elena wondered if he missed the family he could have had too: loving parents, supporting him even now.
Khalil leaned forward, his fingers whispering against her cheek as he tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. ‘You look so sad,’ he said softly. ‘I’m sorry to bring up bad memories.’
‘It’s okay,’ she whispered. Khalil’s fingers lingered on her cheek and she wished, suddenly and fiercely, that he wouldn’t pull away.
That he would kiss her.
Her lips parted instinctively and her gaze rested on his mouth, making her realise yet again how sculpted and really perfect his lips were. She wondered how they would feel. How they would taste. She’d never actually been kissed before, which suddenly seemed ridiculous at the age of twenty-three. But a convent-school education and becoming Queen at just nineteen had kept her from ever pursuing a romantic relationship. First there hadn’t been any opportunity, and then she’d been so focused on protecting her crown and serving her country there hadn’t been any time. Besides, suitable partners for a reigning queen were not exactly plentiful.
Elena knew she shouldn’t be thinking of kissing Khalil now. With effort she dragged her gaze up towards his eyes, saw they were molten gold. His fingers tightened on her cheek, his thumb grazing her jawbone, drawing her inexorably forward. And Elena went, her heart starting to hammer as she braced herself for that wonderful onslaught.
Then Khalil released her, his hand falling away from her face as he sat back in his chair.
Her mind whirled with confusion and disappointment, and her body ached with unfulfilled desire. She scrambled for a way to cover her own obvious longing. ‘This is very good,’ she said stiltedly, gesturing to her half-eaten meal.
Khalil acknowledged her compliment with a nod. ‘Thank you.’
‘You have quite an elaborate set-up for a desert camp,’ she continued, determined to keep the conversation off dangerous subjects—although every subject felt dangerous now. Everything about Khalil felt dangerous.
Desirable.
‘Comfort need not be sacrificed,’ he remarked, taking a sip of wine.
‘I suppose you feel very secure?’ she asked. ‘To have such a...permanent arrangement?’
‘These are tents, Elena, as luxurious
