think of a graceful way to ask him to leave. While she was debating, he walked into the apartment and sat down on her sofa.
“I thought you might like to have lunch with me,” he said out of the blue, studying her slender figure in faded jeans and a striped pullover shirt.
She realized as she stared down at him that he looked different, and then she noticed what he was wearing. She’d never seen J.D. in anything but neat suits or jungle fatigues. But now he was wearing blue jeans as worn and faded as her own, with a Western-style blue chambray shirt and boots. She stood there staring at him because she couldn’t help it. He was so devastatingly handsome and masculine that he made her feel weak-kneed—from a distance, at least. She was still a little uneasy being alone with him.
“I won’t pounce,” he said softly. “I won’t make a single move that you don’t want. I won’t even touch you, if that’s what it takes. Spend the day with me, though, Gabby.”
“Why should I?” she asked curtly.
He smiled wistfully. “Because I’m lonely.”
Something in the region of her heart gave way. It must have been her soft brain, she told herself, because there was no logic in giving in to him. It would only make it harder to leave. And she had to leave. She couldn’t bear staying around him, feeling the way she felt.
“You’ve got friends,” she said evasively.
“Sure,” he said, standing. He stuck his hands into his pockets, stretching the jeans flat across his muscular stomach and powerful thighs. “Sure, I’ve got friends. There’s Shirt, and Apollo…”
“I mean…friends here in the city,” she said hesitantly.
He was silent for a moment. “I’ve got you. No one else.”
She gave in. Without another argument. How did you fight a flat statement like that, especially when you knew it was true? He’d said himself that he trusted no one except her. Friendship naturally involved trust.
“Okay,” she said after a minute. “But just lunch.”
“Just lunch,” he agreed. And he didn’t come close to her, or pressure her, or do anything to make her wary of him. He waited patiently while she closed the apartment door and locked it, and he walked beside her like a graceful giant as they left the building and got into his car.
It was an odd kind of day for Gabby. She thought she knew every one of J.D.’s moods, but that day he was different, in a way that she couldn’t quite define.
He strolled beside her through the trees in the nearby park, then along the beach that edged the lake, watching birds rise and soar, watching boats sail and putter by. The wind tossed his dark hair and the sun made it glint blue-black. And Gabby thought she’d never felt like this in her life, free and yet protected and wildly excited, all at the same time. It was hard to remember that this was more of an end than a beginning. J.D. had a guilty conscience about the way he’d treated her and was trying to make amends before she left. That was all. She had to stop trying to make more out of it.
His fingers brushed hers as they walked, and he glanced down, watching her carefully.
“Looking for warts?” she asked, attempting to lessen the tension between them.
“Not really,” he murmured. “I’m trying to decide what you’d do if I made a grab for your hand.”
That irrepressible honesty again. She smiled and gave him her slender fingers, feeling trembly as he slowly locked them into his own. She was remembering that flight to Mexico and how he’d caressed her fingers with his own, and the remark he’d made about bodies fitting together that way. Her face burned.
He chuckled softly. “I wonder if you could possibly be thinking about the same thing I am, Gabby?” he murmured.
“I wish you’d mind your own business,” she told him.
“I’m trying, but you’re pretty transparent, honey. You still blush delightfully.”
She tugged her fingers away and, to her disappointment, he let them go.
“No pressure,” he said when she gave him a puzzled glance. “None at all. I’ll take only what you give me.”
She stopped, facing him. Nearby, the lake lapped softly at the shore and some children made wild sounds down the beach as they chased each other.
“What are you trying to do?” she asked.
He sighed. “Show you that I’m not a monster,” he said.
“I never thought you were,” she replied.
“Then why does this happen every time I come close to you?” he asked. His big hands shot out and caught her by the waist, dragging her against him.
She panicked. Her body twisted violently, her hands fought him. It was all over in seconds, but his face had gone white, and her own was flushed with exertion and anger.
She drew her lower lip between her teeth and bit it. J.D. looked…odd.
He gave a hard laugh and turned away. With unsteady fingers, he managed to light a cigarette despite the breeze. He took a long, steadying draw from it.
“Oh, God.” He laughed bitterly. “I did a job on you, didn’t I?”
Her legs were none too steady, but she managed to calm her voice enough to trust it with speech. “I’d never been handled roughly by a man before, J.D.,” she told him. “And you said some pretty harsh things.”
He turned, staring down at her. “Yes, I did.” His dark eyes wandered slowly down her body, lingering on the soft curves as he lifted the cigarette to his mouth. “By the time I got around to that, I’d long forgotten my motives.”
She blinked. “I don’t understand.”
His eyes found the horizon across the lake, and he smoked his cigarette quietly. “It doesn’t matter,” he said vaguely. He finished the cigarette and ground it out under his boot.
“You’ve gone back to smoking,” she said.
His shoulders rose and fell. “There doesn’t seem much point in quitting now.”
She wrapped her arms tightly across her breasts as she watched him walk down the beach. She followed him, searching for words.
“If you hadn’t grabbed me like that, I wouldn’t have fought you,” she said curtly. She hadn’t wanted to tell him that, but he looked as if her reaction to him had devastated him. Her marshmallow heart was going to do her in, she told herself when he stopped in his tracks and gaped at her.
“What?” he burst out.
She turned away, letting the wind blow her long, dark hair around. She couldn’t manage another word.
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