said gruffly. “I’ll show you.”
It was a surrender. Because putting up a few coat hangers should have been the simplest thing in the world. It should have taken five minutes.
Instead, because of his surrender, half an hour later the reclaimed barn board was finally up. His hand had brushed her hand half a dozen times. Their shoulders had touched. He was aware of her lips and her thighs and her shoulders and her scent.
He was amazed he’d managed to get that board level, the coat hooks spaced out evenly.
Morgan was glowing as if she’d designed a rocket that could go to Mars as she surveyed their handiwork.
“It looks so good.”
“Except for the additional hole,” he pointed out wryly. She had put the huge hammer through the drywall when she had missed the nail he was trying to teach her to drive.
He had supplies to fix it, since he’d come prepared to fix her previous holes in the wall. He taped the hole, stirred the drywall mud and began to patch.
“I want you to promise you’ll return the hammer.” Then, he heard himself promising that if she did, he’d help her pick out one that was better for all-around household use and repairs.
Even though he knew darn well Harvey could help her. Harvey had been handling the hardware department at Finnegan’s since time began. Nate could even go in and warn him to offer her a little advice on her purchases, before he actually let her buy them.
Whether she wanted it or not.
But she probably wouldn’t, and for some reason he thought she might listen to him a little more than she would listen to Harvey.
Thought that meant something.
She was coming to trust him.
Oh, Nate, he told himself, cut this off, short and sweet. Wouldn’t that be best for both of them?
“The cocoa’s gone cold,” she said, oblivious to his inner war. She took a little sip and wrinkled her nose in the cutest way. A little sliver of foam clung to the fullness of her lip. “I’ll go make some more. Let’s take a break.”
Which meant she thought he was staying, and somehow, probably because of the damn foam on her lip, he could feel short-and-sweet going right out the window.
Well, Nate rationalized, he couldn’t very well leave her with her Christmas tree sprawled across the floor, with a stand that was never going to stand up, could he?
Yes.
But he’d said he’d fix it.
He trailed her to the kitchen and watched her make cocoa. Since she was going to the effort, he’d drink that. Then he was leaving, tree or no tree. He had a kid he hired to help him sometimes, he’d send him over tomorrow. He could look after having it fixed without fixing it himself. But then would it be done right?
Her kitchen, like her living room, made him aware of some as yet unnamed lack in himself.
Everything was tidy, there was not a single crumb on the counter, no spills making smoke come off the burners as she heated the milk. She reached for a spice and the spices were in a stainless-steel container that turned, not lined up on top of the stove. The oven mitts weren’t stained and didn’t have holes burned in them.
He could feel that horrible longing welling up in him.
Leave, he told himself. Instead of leaving as completely as he would have liked, he left the kitchen and went and worked on the stand. So it would be done right.
By the time she came back in, he had the stand modified to actually hold up a tree, and had the tree standing back up.
“This is a foolishly large tree,” he told her.
She smiled, mistaking it for a compliment. “Isn’t it?”
He sighed. “Where do you want it?”
“I should put the lights on while it’s on the ground,” she told him. “Come have your cocoa before it cools this time. I’ll worry about the tree later.”
But somehow, he knew now he’d be putting the lights on it for her, too. It was too pathetic to think of her trying to put them on with the tree lying on the floor, creative as that solution might be to her vertical challenges.
It occurred to him, she was proving a hard woman to get away from. And that with every second he stayed it was going to get harder, not easier.
Okay. The lights. That was absolutely it. Then he was leaving.
He went and sat beside her on the couch as she handed him cocoa. He took a sip. It was not powdered hot chocolate out of a tin, like he made for Ace on occasion. It was some kind of ambrosia. There was cinnamon mixed with the chocolate.
Morgan McGuire had witch-green eyes. She was probably casting a spell on him.
“So, do you and Ace have family to spend the holidays with?” she asked.
He wished he would have stuck with the lights. That was definitely a “getting to know you” kind of question.
“We alternate years. Last year we were with my parents, who live in Florida now, so this year we’re with Cindy’s side of the family, Ace’s aunt Molly and uncle Keith. They have a little place outside of town. We’ll go out there after the production on Christmas Eve and spend the night.”
He didn’t say his own house was too painful a place to be on Christmas Eve. He did not think he could be there without hearing the knock on the door, opening it expecting to see Cindy so loaded down she couldn’t open the door.
By then, Cindy had been gone so long he suspected she was coming home with a little more than reindeer poop.
“How about you?” he asked, mostly to avoid the way his thoughts were going, to deflect any more questions about his plans for Christmas.
Which were basically get through it.
She was the kind of woman you could just spill your guts to. If you were that kind of guy.
Which he wasn’t.
“Oh.” She suddenly looked uncomfortable. “I’m not sure yet.”
“You won’t go home?” he asked, suddenly aware it wasn’t all about him, detecting something in her that was guarded. Or maybe even a little sad.
“No,” she said bravely. “With The Christmas Angel on Christmas Eve I decided to just stay here.”
Again, focused intently on her now, he heard something else. And for whatever reason, he probed it.
“Your family will be disappointed not to have you, won’t they?”
She shrugged with elaborate casualness. “I think my mom is having a midlife crises. After twenty-three years of working in an insurance office, she chucked everything, packed a backpack
