Modern Romance September Books 1-4. Julia James
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Dante released his breath in a hiss. He had never been in love. Cristiano had fallen for a long line of users and losers. Cristiano had been on a constant mission to find his one true love, and watching his brother had taught Dante that love was a car crash of insane hope colliding with nasty truths as the loved one revealed one flaw after another. Of course, Belle wasn’t falling for him, but she had played a blinder with that argument because he wasn’t about to try and touch her again. She had frightened him off. Quite deliberately too. For a split second he was amused but that reaction swiftly drained away.
What was wrong with him? He felt as if someone had dropped a giant rock on him. He felt weird. He needed to find another woman to focus on, he told himself fiercely, wipe out the last crazy week and forget about Belle altogether. How hard could that be? Off with the old, on with the new. That had always been his way.
Belle curled back up with her book and wondered how she would face Dante over dinner. She cringed and pressed hot hands to her even hotter face and groaned out loud. How could she have said that to him? How could she have humiliated herself so completely? But it was true that she was developing inappropriate feelings for him and she had to put a stop to that and the only way to stop it was to cut out the intimacy. So what if she was still stuck sharing a bed with him for show?
Belle dined alone and, after a long bath, went to bed early. Dante stalked through his usual club haunts and an exclusive party in Florence, finding something offensive about every woman who paid heed to him until it finally dawned on him that the only woman he actually wanted was, ironically, at home in his bed...and he couldn’t have her. Was that what made her different and so much more desirable? Was it because she had rejected him? Was it his ego playing up?
Or was he more honourable than he had ever realised? He didn’t want to hurt her, he acknowledged over his fifth drink. He checked into a plush city hotel for the night, not trusting himself anywhere near her in the strange introspective mood he was in. He couldn’t sleep. He kept thinking about Belle in his bed and remembering how she had made him feel. Weird, she’d made him feel weird, he decided around dawn.
Belle woke up in an empty bed and wondered where Dante had spent the night. She felt guilty because she had clearly made him feel uncomfortable in his own home. As she went downstairs for breakfast she saw Dante mounting the steps, looking rather the worse for wear. His tie was missing, his jacket was crumpled and he was unshaven, a dark growth of stubble darkening his already-forbidding features. She bolted into the dining room at speed.
If she had had the nerve, she would have jibed, ‘Walk of shame, Dante?’ Only, she didn’t have the nerve to confront him with a possibility that tore through her with the slashing pain of a knife...the very real possibility that he had spent the night with another woman.
The manicurist arrived late morning and redid Belle’s nails in a dark blue that she liked much better than pastel pink. Her nails would match the long dress she had selected from her new wardrobe and she promised herself that this time she wouldn’t pick at the gel finish and peel it off because she was willing to admit her hands looked much prettier. She would wear the fancy pendant and earrings he had bought and do her very best to look as though she belonged in a formal setting, even though she would be feeling incredibly nervous. She recoiled from the fear of letting Dante down in public. After all, this was what he had hired her to do: act as if they were a couple. No matter how she felt inside herself, she had to behave like his lover without being off-puttingly clingy.
Fully dressed, she went downstairs and from the top step she saw Dante pacing the big entrance hall, tailored dinner jacket shaping wide shoulders, narrow black trousers delineating long powerful legs, with the white of his dress shirt in stark contrast to the vibrant glow of his bronzed skin. Drop-dead gorgeous from head to toe but she wasn’t allowed to think like that any more or look at him like that, she reminded herself doggedly.
Dante swung round to watch her descent, and something expanded inside his chest because her beauty had never been more obvious than in that stylish simple dress, her glorious hair tumbling round her shoulders just the way he liked it, a sleek split in the skirt momentarily showing a slice of pale perfect leg. And then she looked at him and her eyes didn’t shine any more. He didn’t remember noticing that inner glow she had had when she’d studied him but, on some level, he must have noticed because now it was definitely gone. Just as he had forecast, just as he had wished, she was moving on from him, shaking off those silly feelings she was too naïve to understand. He told himself that he was relieved, but his lean hands clenched into fists because he hadn’t expected her to get over the notion of him quite so fast, and for some reason that only made his mood edgier and darker.
‘Steve and Sancha are saving a table for us. At least with them present, you’ll have friends around you,’ Dante remarked as if he could sense her insecurities about attending an event patronised only by the wealthy.
Belle lifted her chin, tempted to say that Steve and Sancha had never been her friends, only VIP customers she had served at the restaurant. Friendly, pleasant people, but not people she had mixed with in any social way. She said nothing, however, because she didn’t want to draw attention to her nerves.
It was a social gathering way beyond Belle’s experience. The benefit was being held in the splendid ballroom of a public building. Wonderful frescoes decorated the domed ceiling, the whole illuminated by giant crystal chandeliers. And everywhere there were people: dinner-jacketed men standing in cliques, superbly groomed women in fabulous designer gowns and jewellery that flashed under the lights.
Dante closed his hand over hers, startling her, and began to trace a path through the crush. Steve Cranbrook stood up and waved from a table at the edge of the floor, his Spanish wife beaming at them both.
‘Do they know we’re faking it?’ Belle whispered, stretching up to Dante’s ear.
‘Yes, but they’re the only ones who know,’ he confirmed.
Belle relaxed a little more then, knowing she didn’t have to keep up an act with their companions. Sancha chattered as though her tongue had wheels, telling Belle about the international charity and the famine-relief fund. Belle asked the curvy brunette about her children, an adorable mop-headed blonde quartet she had often seen playing on the lake beach with their mother. The crowds thinned as the guests found their seats to listen to the speeches. Belle looked round the room, spotting Dante’s mother, the princess, who would never let anyone forget that she was a princess, seated beside a man with greying hair, who had the same classic profile as Dante and was presumably his father.
Her attention roamed to the tables nearest theirs and then her eyes widened, something akin to a jolt lancing through her chest as she stared in astonishment at the man sitting alone at a table and staring right back at her. It was... No, it couldn’t be... Could it be her father? Nine years, it had been nine years since she had seen Alastair Stevenson. The red hair she had inherited from him had distinguished wings of grey now, but the eyes were no less keen, his face barely lined. He would be in his late forties now, much younger than her mother and time had laid only a light hand on him.
Belle dropped her eyes, suddenly feeling sick and clammy. The father who had bluntly rejected her, who had said he wanted nothing whatsoever to do with ‘Tracy’s daughter’ as if she were not also his daughter. The cruel bite of that rebuff had gone deep, and she had no doubt that he had been staring because he could barely credit that his unacknowledged, unwanted daughter could be present at a high-society charity benefit where he, of all people, had to know she did not belong. It was just one of those truly horrible coincidences, she reflected wretchedly, draining her soft drink, and what was more, after nine years, she should be mature enough to handle an accidental glimpse of the man without getting emotional.