How Fire Runs. Charles Dodd White
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He shut down the computer and pushed away from the desk, sat in the darkness of the room until his eyes could adjust. He stepped into a pair of slippers he kept at the door and walked silently down the hall and stairs. He paused at several doors to see if he could hear the others sleeping before he moved on. It was a strange habit, this walking the floors while everyone else was asleep, but he’d been subject to it since he was a child. He would stand for many hours of the night and be aware of the enclosing emptiness of his surroundings and absorb the fact that he was solely aware of it, the others all trapped behind the high walls of their own dreams.
Sometimes it crushed him to realize how alone he was at this point in his life. It happened to everyone eventually, being slowly stripped of the people who made you who you were. But he could never escape the sense that his bereavement was premature, unfair. Both his parents gone by the time he was thirty. Close to two decades now that he’d been without blood ties. Perhaps that’s what drove him toward building Little Europe. There had been other factors at play, of course, but maybe it was this keen awareness of being utterly alone that allowed him to recognize the power such a vision could mold. Great deeds could be subverted by a fear of hurting those you loved. But greatness was surely a worthy answer to grief.
He went outside and sat on the front steps, the huge front door left open at his back like a mouth. That’s what it was, too, what it was meant to be. A mouth to speak of a truth that couldn’t be acknowledged or understood by the rest of America. This place in the woods to bring the possibility of a new country together. A small country within the country. When he had first heard the idea of Little Europe he knew he was the man to make it happen. Not simply the idea of a pure and isolated community as had been tried elsewhere, a commune that would be subject to its own vulnerable politics and struggles for power. No, the necessary difference would come when it was made part of an established government. They would have to entrench politically in a place that would be receptive to the idea of white nationhood. That was true revolution, when the revolution became invisible, when it became part of the routine. That was what would make the ultimate difference.
He had heard of efforts made out in Montana and Wyoming, places where the communities had taken root in the midst of great isolation. Preserves or reservations of people who stockpiled arms and foolishly became noticed by the FBI. But these broke down fairly quickly. They dissolved because of a lack of cogency. It was unclear who they were fighting in the middle of all that wind and tall grass. Their seclusion was easy to ignore or oppress. It failed to become a message. It failed to understand the idiom it needed to speak.
Then he had realized the mistake had been that Little Europe was a place that had to be created rather than one that simply needed to be wakened. Why settle empty territory? Why not simply enter the minds of the sleepers and reveal to them their own self-interest? Wake them and show them the world could be shaped by the imagination of those with the strength and fortitude to do so.
He stood and moved out past the yard and crossed into the tree line until he felt himself muted by the entanglement of trees, the undergrowth. There was a comfort in this invisibility. How to explain that? And yet it took a kind of heroism to accept the role one was destined for, didn’t it? To be the mind controlling the hand, the abstract behind the accomplishment. There was nothing wrong in agreeing with the nighttime in his soul. It was where action mounted. It was where the loss of sleep surrendered something more.
6
KYLE CHECKED IN ON GERALD EVERY COUPLE OF DAYS ONCE HE’D LET him cool off for a week and then taken him back to his place across from Gavin Noon and his followers. He took no particular pleasure in the roles of spy and nursemaid, but didn’t care to entertain the possibility of another of the old man’s ideas about ammunition and its application to ideological difference. Kyle had made him promise to get him on the phone if he felt any risky impulses coming on. He had him hand over all of his rifles for the next couple of months too, though there was no depriving him of his pistols. That would have been like pulling a man’s healthy teeth, Gerald had said, and Kyle knew he was lucky to have gotten the concession he had.
After he was satisfied the old man was well disposed, he drove the truckload of seedlings to Buckhorn Ridge where the rest of the veterans group was meeting him. Trey Buckner helped him unload while a few of the others started digging where they were told. This was the tail end of the project on the ridge, and Kyle was proud to see it working as well as it did, as much for the men as the countryside. Orlynne had been the one to come up with the plan—having the veterans work through their trauma by putting their hands in the ground.
“One thing I’ve learned about menfolk,” she had said, “is that the only way they ever give a damn for another’s hurting is if they work together a little while. Realize they have that little bit of suffering in common before they get into anything more. Stubborn sonsabitches to a one.”
It hadn’t taken much convincing the next time the group met. The bad counterfeit of an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting had begun to wear on nearly every one of them. So Kyle had advanced the project to the county commissioner board in order to get access to the reforestation initiative that was coordinated with the state. Surveying the marked rows of small trees going all the way back to the newest seedlings that were being planted, he could see the time up here had been put to good use. The other men agreed.
A little before noon they put the last of the seedlings in and dug into Kyle’s Yeti cooler for a cold can of either beer or Coke.
“Looking pretty damn snazzy, you ask me,” Trey said, surveying the bristling ranks.
“It’ll be an awful nice place to picnic up here in a few years,” Kyle agreed. “Deer are going to love it too. Good way to run down to the valley and still keep cover.”
Trey bottomed his can of soda, crushed it under his foot and tossed the disc in the truck bed.
“You noticed who was missing out here today, didn’t you?”
“Yeah,” Kyle said. “I did. I’ll run out that way to check on him. Due diligence and all.”
“I don’t mind going out there with you. Turner can be a special kind of pain in the ass at times.”
“No, that’s fine,” Kyle said. “Special kinds of pain in the ass seem to have become my specialty lately.”
TURNER WHIST lived at the back end of a family hollow that could have been split up and sold to a real estate developer for a couple of million dollars, but unlike so many the Whists had kept the property together even if family relations had run as thin as the drought-starved creek you had to cross when you went over the bridge.
Kyle drove up past Turner’s oldest brother’s place and then past some of the cabins tenanted by his cousins and other distantly connected kin. At each bend, the walls of the mountains nudged in a bit closer, closed much of what was left of the sun, so that by the time he could see Turner’s doublewide set back in the deepest pocket, everything in sight lay in a muted blue shadow.