deny it.
But I think of Gabriel, not Andy. I think of Gabriel, staring at me, ravenously, and my clit jumps beneath Andy’s rough touch. A little ah flutters out of me, and he rubs at me more firmly.
I’m going to come, any second. Any second now.
“Suck me off,” he says.
I moan and grow slicker to hear the words, but they’re still frustrating. He takes his hands away and I’m mortified to find myself reduced to whining, even as the thought of his cock in my mouth stirs me further.
I slide off the desk and down onto my knees with very little fuss at all. I make even less fuss when I come face to face with his prick, as solid and thick as it had seemed in me, pushing out from the parted wings of his jeans like a club.
The urge to touch myself grows very strong indeed, to see this evidence of his arousal. Of course I knew he was excited, but somehow it isn’t real until I can lick the fine trail of pre-come from the tip of his bursting cock, until I’m allowed to palm his tightly drawn up balls and feel his choked groan buzzing through his entire body.
“Go on,” he tells me. “Go on, slutty little bookworm.”
His hand is in my hair but he doesn’t force me. He just waits for me to force myself.
Though when I part my lips and swallow the length of him down, it doesn’t feel like I’m forcing anything. It feels like I’m hungry for cock, a slutty bookworm who needs teaching some sort of lesson—how could I torment that poor man in such a way?
Maybe Gabriel will walk in, right now, and he can punish me, too. They can take turns in my mouth, Andy urging Gabe on, ordering him to hold my head and fuck my face. He won’t do it, at first, but as things get more urgent and slippery, and all that hunger inside him comes bubbling to the surface and oh God, Gabe, I want to make you surface, God—
I suck greedily, now mindless with dirty thoughts I never know I want to think until they’re right there. But it’s only when I get my hand around the base of him, and jerk him off as I lick and nibble and swirl my tongue just so, that his legs start to tremble. He grunts for me in a way that clasps my whole body, close to orgasm but not quite going over.
My clit is aching, just aching, and I can’t deny it any longer. I have to touch myself—I don’t care how much of a slutty bookworm it makes me.
My finger skids in all the wetness soaking my slit, prompting a frustrated sob from me that apparently goes directly to his cock. Every sound I make forces him to buck forward, so it’s no surprise that when I finally find my clit and press just once, lightly, my long moan of delight triggers his orgasm.
I’m still shocked, however. He cries out and spurts thickly into my mouth as I frantically rub at myself, but it’s not the sweet-salt taste or the swell of him or his cry of pleasure that wrenches out my climax. It’s him pulling away from me, mid-spurt, to stripe my face with the last of his come.
I can tell he’s seen. It could be that I meant for him to. I’m no longer sure of myself or what I might do at any given moment, and letting Gabriel see my ass-print on that glossy countertop is no exception to this problem.
I’m only surprised that the countertop held the print so well. I thought it might fade overnight, but when I come back onto the shop floor with morning cups of coffee and he’s polishing the top as though devils possess him, it’s fairly obvious that the fading didn’t happen.
I wonder if he knows. His blushing face tells me he does.
Though exactly what that restrained little brain of his is conjuring up, I’ve no idea. Me flashing a customer with some ankle, and accidentally riding up a little bit too much skirt so that an arse-print gets left? Maybe he imagines that my arse cheeks got a little hot, and I felt the best way to cool them down would be to plant them on the glossy wood.
It can’t be sex. He might be as horny as a horn-riddled dinosaur, but I don’t think he’s capable of processing real, actual, dirty thoughts. He’s probably still stuck on bra straps and snogging as sexual fantasies.
I have a brief flash of delicious pleasure as I leave him to take care of the shop, thinking of him trying to make sense of an arse-print in his innocent pigtailed mind. Imagine if he’d forgotten something yesterday and came back just at the wrong moment! Then seen me and Andy doing terrible things through the inch of glass not covered by posters and sheltered by bookstands.
Poor, innocent Gabriel. I just want to hug him, and make it all better. And maybe when I hug him, I’ll let my hand stray to his neat little backside.
I buy the collected Poirot and a sensible winter coat to calm my fevered brain, and then enjoy a delicious nonsexual lunch at a restaurant that doesn’t have a hot waiter to further my progress. Of course, the whole time I know I’m just delaying my return to the shop. I mean, that was the purpose of hiring Gabe—so that I could have more time to myself. So that I could shop for things I need, and sleep, and suss out the competition.
I didn’t hire someone so that I could spend my time harassing him. Especially when it’s someone who’s likely only going to be confused by that sort of attention. He needs a nice girlfriend, someone who is patient and sweet and as unknowledgeable about sex as he probably is. They can fumble under the sheets together, in the dark. She’ll be vaguely unhappy for the rest of her life, but become an expert at baking pies. He’ll start stashing gay porn in the toilet cistern.
I’ll fuck Andy until I die of exhaustion. It will all work out for everybody.
Or at least, that’s what I think until I catch him reading Sins of the Flesh.
I think I give him an out. And by that I mean—I bustle into the shop overloaded with bags, get a little tangled, and give him the perfect opportunity to pretend he wasn’t reading anything at all. He stands up from his seat behind the counter, with absolutely nothing in his hands and no book anywhere to be seen in front of him.
But I know that’s what he was doing. I can feel a smile pulling at the corners of my mouth even as I play along with his total innocence, that little pink flash of book cover I saw through the glass playing over and over in my mind. I guess his secret porn stash in the cistern is actually my book shop.
The smile pulls at my mouth harder, but I get it under control.
“Hello, Gabe,” I say, and, as with all guilty people, he seems to find it hard to make perfectly articulated words. He says something that sounds like hi, but could reasonably be anything. His hands go into his pockets—as they often do when he’s having to do something awkward, like make casual conversation.
The problem is that I actually want to make casual conversation with Gabriel. I want to chat about the weather! When is he going to talk to me about the weather?
Instead he helps me with my bags, and I spend my time guessing about him. Did his mother make him like this? Some spank-happy teacher, at the Enid Blyton School for Unruly Boys? Nothing at all but his own strange need to be so self-contained? He’s not irretrievably weird, exactly, but you have to be a certain sort of man to feel you have to hide your need to read naughty novels from naughty novel store owners.
God,
