Chapter Ten: The Vector and the Corkscrew
Chapter Eleven: The MacBride Principles
Chapter Twelve: Americans Have Good Teeth
Chapter Thirteen: Checked Luggage, or The Long Fuck
Chapter Fourteen: Negaphobia, and Why Farrell Doesn’t Do Windows
Chapter Fifteen: Ireland, and Other Hospitals
Chapter Sixteen: The House in Castlecaulfield
Chapter Seventeen: The Fall of the House in Castlecaulfield
Chapter Eighteen: Form Over Weight
Chapter Nineteen: Notice-Notice
Chapter Twenty: Harder-Harder, More-More, Worse-Worse: Estrin Turns Into a Lamppost
Chapter Twenty-One: Chemical Irritation
Chapter Twenty-Two: The Saint of Glengormley
Chapter Twenty-Three: What Is So Bloodcurdling About a Swallow in Your Kitchen?
Epilogue: Boredom as Moral Achievement
Between them, pure alcohol coiled from the turned-back lid; the air curled with its distortion. Vaporous, the face stretched longer and thinner than the pillar it began. The shimmer off the vat worried his expression, tortured his eyebrows in the heat, further emphasizing a figure already overdrawn: too wild, too skinny, too tall.
As she stood on tiptoe to lean over the wooden tub, on the other side the tall man saw only the dark tremble of a girl’s unruly hair. He wondered at letting children tour a distillery. Then, why shouldn’t they be confirmed early, sip at the chalice—Bushmills was the real Church of Ireland, after all. Later, he would catch sight of her down the walk toward bottling and not recognize the grown woman in black leather bouncing the red motorcycle helmet against her thigh. Though she was barely over five feet, at any distance her slight proportions created the optical illusion that she was not small, rather, farther away.
The man did not need to clutch the rim, but leaned at the waist to inhale. When the girl looked up he saw she was not ten or twelve but at least twenty. Their glances met; both took a deep breath. The man reared back again, snapping upright; the woman went flat on her feet. Tears rose and noses began to run. The fumes went straight to the center, acupuncture. The staves of the cavernous room warped cozily around them. The man could no longer remember what had so concerned him moments ago; for the first time in months he felt his face relax. Across the tub, she watched the lines lift from him and decided he was not fifty, as she’d first thought, but thirty-two or -three. In fact, if she’d asked him just then how old he was, he might have claimed yes, he was thirty-three, because the last ten years had been trying and he could not remember anything trying while breathing over a washback with this pretty girl. Christ, he missed whiskey.
“Better than shots,” she admitted. “This is my second time through.”
The alcohol evaporated from his head. He recalled what he’d been sorting out, and returned to one and a half million paupers would never get a full vote in the EEC. Her twang was unmistakable: bloody hell, she was American.
Their group had moved on; the two treated themselves to one more inhalation of the wort, which roiled between them like whipped cream gone off, Guinness on a stove. Its surface churned and kneaded into itself, a little sickening, too brown. The American let down the wooden flat regretfully. “We’ll be missed.” As her boots echoed down the washbacks, she passed a beefy man at the door.
“Farrell, lad. A wee five-minute tour and you’re away.”
Farrell. She remembered his name.
Farrell waited, not wanting to walk with her. He’d no desire to violate the intimacy of their brief debauch with the disappointing whine of an American tourist. His head cleared, the last two minutes had encapsulated his life: the giddy rise and fall of it. Excessive indulgence to excessive discipline, and that was substances, though women the same—the clasping of hands over tables, the grappling in the back of taxis, the sweaty riot in the hotel, so quickly giving way to veiled excuses, impossible schedules, the dread cold quiet
