picked them up, bought them, then went away again. Her mom had seemed to believe this was cool in some way, but Sarah thought it was one of the few things she’d seen about England that really sucked. Eventually they’d found a big new Borders, and she’d fallen upon it, discovering The Manics at one of the listening posts. British bands were cool. The Manics were especially cool. London was cool in general. That was that.
She sat, head nodding in approval as the singer loudly proclaimed himself a ‘damned dog’, and watched down the Promenade. Down the other end of the three-block pedestrianized zone was mainly restaurants. Her father had dropped her off twenty minutes before, and would be coming to pick her up at nine sharp – a once-monthly occurrence. She was supposed to be meeting her friend Sian at the Broadway Deli. They were ladies who dined. The supper club had been the brainchild of Sian’s mom, who was adapting to her daughter’s adolescence by throwing open all the doors she could find, for fear that leaving the wrong one closed might ruin their special relationship. Sarah’s mother had gone along with it pretty easily: partly because everyone tended to go along with Monica Williams, but also because Zoë Becker was sufficiently in contact with her younger self to realize how much she’d have liked to have done the same at her age. Sarah’s father had occasional right of veto, however, and for a long, bad moment she thought he was going to exercise it. A few months prior there had been a spate of gang-related killings, part of the seasonal undertow of corporate restructuring in the crack industry. But eventually, after proposing and reaching agreement on a battery of precautionary measures – including dropping and picking her up at closely defined times and places, demonstration of a fully-charged cellular battery, and a recitation of the key common-sense means of avoiding the chaotic intrusion of the fates – he’d agreed. It was now part of the social calendar.
Problem was, when they’d pulled up this evening, Sian hadn’t been standing on the corner. Michael Becker craned his neck, peering up and down the street.
‘So where is the legendary Ms Williams?’ he muttered, fingers drumming on the wheel. Something was bitched with the series he was developing on the Warner lot, and he was big-time stressed: heavy calm spiked with jumpiness. Sarah wasn’t sure exactly what the problem was, but knew her father’s credo that there were an infinite number of ways for things to go wrong in The Business, and only one way of them going right. She had seen proposals and drafts for the show’s pilot episode, and he’d even picked her brains over a few things, gauging her reaction as part of the potential target audience. Actually, and to her slight surprise, Sarah had thought the series sounded pretty cool. Better than Buffy or Angel, in fact. She privately thought Buffy herself was kind of a pain, and that the older English guy didn’t sound half as much like Hugh Grant as he seemed to think. Or look enough like him, either. The heroine in Dark Shift was more self-contained, less showy, and less prone to whining. She was also, though Sarah didn’t realize this, loosely based on Michael Becker’s daughter.
‘There she is,’ Sarah had said, pointing up the way.
Her father frowned. ‘I don’t see her.’
‘Yeah, look – up under that streetlight, outside Hennessy and Ingels.’
At that moment some asshole blared his horn behind them, and her father swung his head to glare ominously out of the back windshield. He almost never got angry within the family, but he could sometimes lay it on the outside world. Sarah knew, having recently covered it in school, that this was a pecking order thing, hierarchy being established in the asphalt jungle – but she was privately nervous that one of these days her dad would choose to assert his will with the wrong naked ape. He didn’t seem to realize that fathers could antagonize the fates, too, or that age made little difference to the vehemence of their retribution.
She opened the door and hopped out. ‘I’ll run over,’ she said. ‘It’s fine.’ Michael Becker watched tight-mouthed as the impatient guy in the LeBaron pulled out around them.
Then he turned, and his face changed. For a moment he didn’t look like he had story arcs and demographics running behind his eyes, as if he saw the world through a grid of beat lists and foreign residuals. He just looked tired, in need of some hot caffeine, and like her dad.
‘See you later,’ Sarah said, with a wink. ‘Have a heart attack on the way home.’
He looked at his watch. ‘Haven’t got the time. Maybe a little prostate trouble instead. Nine o’clock?’
‘On the dot. I’m always early. It’s you who’s late.’
‘As if. Nokkon, little lady.’
‘Nokkon, Dad.’ She shut the door and watched him pull back into traffic. He waved at her, a little salute, and then he was gone: swallowed back into an interior world, at the mercy of people who bought words by the yard and never knew what they wanted until it was already in syndication. As she watched him disappear, Sarah knew one thing for sure – The Business wasn’t getting her for a sweetheart.
Sian hadn’t been under the lamppost, of course. Sarah had only pretended, to help her father on his way, so he could get home and back to work. She continued to not be there for another ten minutes, and then Sarah’s phone rang.
It was Sian. She was currently standing by her mom’s car on Sunset, and just about annoyed enough to spit. Sarah could hear Sian’s mother in the background, imperiously letting off steam at some hapless mechanic, who’d probably seen mother and daughter in distress and developed visions of his own real-life porno film. Sarah hoped he now realized that not only was this not going to happen, but if he didn’t get the car fixed pronto he’d be a dead man.
Either way, Sian wasn’t going to make it. Which left Sarah in a quandary. Her father wouldn’t be home yet, and when he pulled into the drive he’d be a vortex of bullet points and plot fixes, maybe already on the phone to his partner, Charles Wang, conjuring ways to pull the project back into the comfort zone. There was some big deal breakfast meeting with the studio the next morning, a make-or-break powwow over decaf and cholesterol-free omelettes. She knew her father dreaded that kind of meeting most of all, because he never ate breakfast and hated having to pretend he did, toying with toast to avoid fiddling with the silverware. She didn’t want him to get any more stressed than he already was, and her younger sister, Melanie, would be providing plenty of background noise by herself.
So then she realized – she didn’t actually have to call at all. She had a little under two hours, and then he’d be back. The Promenade was wall-to-wall browsing opportunities, most of them still open for business. She could get a Frappuccino and just hang. Wander round Anthropologie, on the lookout for gift ideas. Check the listening posts in B&N, in case they’d finally racked up something new. Even go sit in the Deli, and have a Cobb salad by herself. Basically, bottom line, simply make sure she was at the right place at the right time, and then – depending on what kind of mood he was in – either reveal that Sian hadn’t showed, or pretend everything had gone as usual.
She dialled Sian to make sure that this plan wouldn’t be undermined by Mrs Williams calling her mom. She couldn’t get through, which probably meant the car was up and running again and out of radio contact in a canyon. Sarah was confident that if her mother had been contacted then she’d know all about it already. Helicopters would be circling overhead, Bruce Willis being lowered down toward her on a rope.
She left a message for Sian, then walked over and went into Starbucks. It had occurred to her that if she did go to the Deli she could have whatever she wanted, rather than ordering the Cobb salad because that’s what they always did, dieting twenty years before they needed to. She could have, of all things, a burger. A huge great big burger, rare, with cheese. And fries.
She was thinking that maybe this was what it
