have done more than enough,’ said Ren. ‘Will you stay for a soda?’
‘I’d love to, but I’ve really got to go. I think this should be your night with Misty.’
‘You’re a sweetheart.’ Ren gave him a hug and glanced out to the Jeep. ‘I hope she likes it.’
‘What’s not to like?’
Ren walked down the path with Robbie and said goodbye.
Misty sat on the back seat of the Jeep and stared out the window at Ren. Then she wiggled back as far away from her as she could.
‘Please, baby, do not do this,’ said Ren. ‘You have to love what Mommy loves. That’s the deal.’
Misty’s expression was hard to read.
‘You used to live in a shack on the side of a mountain,’ said Ren. ‘Surely a historic dwelling is …’ Ren paused. ‘Oh, is this place too fancy for you?’
Ren leaned in the Jeep door and carefully hugged Misty toward her. ‘Come on.’ They made their way up the path.
Misty paused on the threshold.
‘Hey, get in here, young lady,’ said Ren. ‘This is your new home.’ She crouched down and rubbed Misty’s back. ‘How do you feel about that?’ Ren stood up. ‘Misty-fied, clearly.’
Misty walked into the hallway as if to prove a point. Ren closed the door behind them. Silence. For as long as they stood there, there was no sound. No creaking floorboards, no ticking clock, no rattling pipes.
I am completely alone.
Since she turned sixteen, Ren had rarely been without a boyfriend. It was one long relay race where one man was always handing the baton over to another. He just didn’t know it. And sometimes, neither did Ren. But something would make her feel safe enough to leave and, if she admitted it, it was knowing that there was a new man waiting in the wings. Even if it never happened with that particular guy, she at least knew he was there. But … it always happened.
Ren’s men never came without drama. The last person she really cared about was a confidential informant that could have gotten her fired. She had forced herself to walk away from him eight months ago, and for the first time in her life, she’d had no one lined up to take his place. No flirtation to follow through on. No cute guy in the diner. No hot agent on a visit to Denver. Ren Bryce had jumped without a safety net. A few months later, she had a week-long fling with an extreme rider performing at the National Western Stock Show. A beautiful man. A futureless fling. Endless comedy potential for the guys.
Ren took a deep breath.
No. More. Men.
The thought made her feel weak.
Misty came and rubbed up against Ren’s legs. ‘Aw, but I’m not totally alone,’ said Ren. ‘Come on. Let me show you around.’
Misty clung to Ren’s side as she gave her a tour of the house. It was 3,500 square feet; sixteen rooms over four floors. She kept glancing down at Misty.
‘I put too much faith in your vibes,’ said Ren. ‘I have to accept that your reactions are not gospel. It’s not all about you.’ She kneeled down in front of her and rubbed her ears. ‘Even though, really, it is. You are way too cute.’
They got to the bedroom Ren used to stay in as a child. She looked down at the carpet – rose pink, deep and fluffy.
I miss carpet. Carpet has to come back.
Ren took off her boots and socks and walked barefoot across the room. Annie had left the bedside lamps on; warm light through pink pleated shades. The bed was white wrought iron, covered in a faded pink and gray floral quilt. There were two green pillows thrown on it and an indentation where someone had been sitting. When Ren moved closer she saw why. Her old teddy bear – adopted from Annie – was tucked between the two pillows. Huggy Bear with the stripy legs. Annie must have sat down to make him comfortable. Ren smiled. She must know empty beds are not usually my thing.
There was also a single bed and a bed for Misty in the corner. Ren brought up her suitcase and took out the new pajamas she had packed on top. She got ready for bed, then slid under the flannel sheets. She turned off the lamp and the room was lit by the moon. She looked around at one of her favorite places in the world.
This is not a house for one person. It is totally freaking me out. How am I going to get out of this? I’ll die. Annie will be horrified. Where can I go now? My mother will go nuts. Everyone at work will laugh at me. I’ll have to find another house-sitter for Annie. I won’t have time to do that. This is not a house for one person. It is totally freaking me out. How am I going to get out of this …
She picked up the phone and called her brother, Matt.
‘Hey, Renald McDenald,’ he said. ‘How are you? What strange number are you calling me from?’
‘Annie’s.’
‘You’re in?’
‘I am. In my old bed.’
‘Bless your heart,’ said Matt.
‘How are you?’
‘Very in love with my baby-mama.’
‘Aw. How’s she doing?’
‘Thankfully, she’s past the The Exorcism of Emily Rose phase.’
‘Phew.’
‘How has Misty taken to her new digs?’
‘She paused for effect, then entered as though doing me a huge favor.’
‘So … you haven’t answered,’ said Matt. ‘How are you?’
‘Well, apart from a late-breaking freak-out – wonderful.’
‘What were you freaking out about now?’
‘Now: I like that—’
‘But how could someone freak out in Annie’s? Even you?’
‘OK … first of all, there are no limits to where I could freak out. Secondly – remember how huge we thought the house was? Well, it wasn’t just because we were kids. The place is still huge.’
‘Ren, you’re not much bigger than when we were kids. I’ve grown … I might find it very compact.’
‘If you put on two hundred pounds, maybe.’
‘Does Annie still call you Orenda?’
‘Not quite the way you do.’ Matt dropped his r’s.
‘Lucky I have high self-esteem.’
‘Vewwy lucky. And no, she calls me Wen.’
‘When?’
‘Ha.
