a confusion of surprise, lust and disappointment. Then, with difficulty, he pulled himself together, and he was about to leave hastily, as was the correct thing to do – then he stopped, heart knocking, and allowed himself another look.
Oh … Yes, there were stretchmarks on her tummy, and her posture did not show her breasts to best advantage – they lolled down her chest. And her thighs were flattened by the lavatory seat. But, oh, she was all woman … And, oh, he felt a yearning in his hands to touch her, to feel her womanness, to seize her, to devour her.
Ben Sunninghill tore his eyes off her, and turned back. He stood just outside the bathroom, a little shakily. He closed his eyes, trying to think.
Well, this was the end of this little party. And, he was bitterly disappointed. Bitterly – and he was annoyed with himself for getting his stupid hopes up. But at least she hadn’t decided against having a swim with him. She had only fallen by the wayside …
He took a deep breath, to smother the image of her defenceless nakedness, and tried to consider what to do.
Well, she should be woken up, surely, and either go to bed and sleep it off or rejoin the party – though there was little hope of that.
He sighed, then walked out into the passage. He filled his lungs and bellowed:
‘HELEN! WAKE UP!’
He listened, his heart thumping. His voice seemed to echo over the Outback. But there was no response.
‘HELEN! WAKE UP! FIRE! FLOOD! EARTHQUAKE!’
Nothing.
‘RAPE! PILLAGE! PESTILENCE!’
Nothing.
‘SNAKES!’
Still nothing.
‘SPOOKS!’ he bellowed.
He slumped his shoulders, and leant against the wall. Forget it. He grimly retraced his steps to the kitchen.
The hell of it was, it was all such an anticlimax, such a waste. Of a nice day, a promising day. An opportunity … And he really did enjoy talking to her – she was so appreciative. And so lonely …
Like me.
He stood in the empty kitchen, feeling sorry for himself. He sighed with frustration, poured a glass of wine and sat down at the table.
Dundee appeared, sniffing at his toes. ‘Hullo, Dundee, where’s Mommy?’ Well, he might as well go to bed himself – but perhaps he should leave a note for her to wake him if and when she roused herself.
Then a thought occurred to him: She might topple off the toilet, and bash her head …
He sat there, considering the possibility and what could be done about it.
Stop looking for excuses to handle her womanflesh, pal!
But it was true – she could fall off and injure herself. And that would be terrible.
Bullshit. She’d bounce.
Yeah, but if she doesn’t? It could be very serious. How do you call the Flying Doctor?
Well, all right, he said to himself reasonably, so you should put her to bed, shouldn’t you?
Ben Sunninghill sat, considering this, trying not to be excited at the prospect. Trying to feel chivalrous. And he was right, dammit – she could topple off that john and crack her head. So there was only one sensible thing to do …
He got up, and walked back to the bathroom. He stood looking at her.
No, she was not truly beautiful, but to Ben Sunninghill she was. Maybe it was because he had had a lot to drink – but no, he wasn’t that drunk. To Ben she seemed the loveliest woman in the world, and possibly the nicest. She was so sweet and defenceless sitting there.
He took a deep breath and tried to thrust carnal thoughts from his mind. He picked up her limp wrist and shook it.
‘Helen? Come on, pal. Bedtime.’
Helen gave a groan, then slowly toppled forward. Her head slid across the wall in an arc. Ben dropped to his haunches in front of her, his arms out. She slumped to a stop against his narrow shoulder.
He held her, his hands on her bare back. And, oh, the feel of her soft smooth flesh, her breasts brushing his bare chest. He closed his eyes, overcome by the soft female feel of her, the woman smell of her. Her hair against his cheek, her breathing against his neck. The defencelessness of her. And, for an instant, it almost felt like love.
He took a deep, shaky breath, opened his eyes, and considered the problem of moving her.
She was too heavy for him to pick up in a fireman’s lift. So? Drag her? He looked down at the bathmat. If he could get her on to that, he could drag her.
He reached out and pulled it nearer. Then he swivelled on his haunches and eased her weight forward, trying to turn her at the same time. She groaned, and slid slowly off the toilet, on to her knees. He knelt beside her, holding her tight, terrified of dropping her; then he shuffled backwards, grunting, and tried to control her dead-weight descent on to the mat.
She landed on her side with an alarming thump, but showed no sign of waking. Ben got to his feet, crouched and heaved her over on to her back.
She lay there, deep in drunken sleep, her legs half apart, her swimsuit stretched between her knees, her arms out as if in surrender.
He looked yearningly at her nakedness. Then he gently moved her arms to her sides. He put her legs together Oh, the lovely feel of them. He looked down at her again, at her pretty face in drunken repose, her full lips a little parted, her breasts lolling; then, trying to ignore her nakedness, he gripped the corners of the mat and began to drag her.
He manoeuvred backwards across the bathroom. Helen did not murmur. He had difficulty steering her through the doorway – her hip caught. He dragged her on down the side of the double-bed, shoving the other mats aside with his feet. He dragged her past the foot of the bed, up along the other side. He stopped and looked down at her. ‘Out to the wide, wide world …’ he whispered tenderly. He turned to the bed and pulled back the covers.
Then he hesitated – no way could he hoist her up there without giving himself a hernia. How? Legs first? Head first? All together and break his back? And he certainly didn’t want her to wake up and find herself naked in his arms en route to bed. In fact, having done his Good Samaritan number he should now make himself scarce; just put a pillow under her pretty head, throw a blanket over her and get out. He took one more look at her, and was reaching for a pillow when another thought occurred to him: he’d better get that swimsuit into a more decent position, because when she woke up and found herself neatly at her bedside she might think he’d pulled it down …
He got down on one knee, gripped the swimsuit in trembling fingers. He gently manoeuvred it up her soft thighs.
Then came the obstacle of her hips and buttocks – and there, there, was her pubic triangle.
Ben
